7/19/2015
Suzie: My True Love

All women enjoy a good love story.

I met a beautiful girl when I was a teenager. She was my brother's boss daughter. We loved each other at first sight, but I was too busy doing drugs so I had no time for her. All she asked was for me to give up the dope for her, and I could have had the love of my life. I was 14 or 15 when I met Suzie, and she was so hot. She is a beautiful blond—blue eyes. She was the kind of girl that could have any man that she wanted, and, to this day, that hasn't changed.

When I turned 23, I went to prison due to drugs and I paroled to the streets on July 31, 1994. August 1, 1994, Suzie was on my brother's doorstep. That's where I paroled to. Suzie spent the day with me, and we had a good time. We laid at the park, drank beet until the sun went down. I was finally, after all those years of knowing Suzie, not on drugs. She just wanted me to give up the dope and have a life with her. She never gave up on me. When I paroled, she pounced and it was great. She made love to me that night in a trailer in my brother's driveway. The next day, I had a friend take me and Suzie to where she worked.

On October 20, 1994, I was in jail for a murder/kidnapping charge that I didn't even do. I'm working on 22 years in prison now, and since then, Suzie has moved from our hometown Stockton, CA to somewhere in Florida. She got married, had a kid, and she is in contact with my family still. We still love each other and that will never change. I'm supposed to be her husband and the father of her children. I messed up our wonderful future.

I have four photos of Suzie on my cell wall. I look at her, every day and night. It's a reminder of what I lost. She isn't happy. Her husband treats her bad. I hate myself for this. Suzie is my angel, and she deserves to be treated with love and respect. She is one of a kind, and I screwed up and left her out there alone. She settled with someone who doesn't even know what he has. She is so very special, and no female will ever compare to her in my eyes. She is a great girl and I love her so much.

The next bump in the road in our lives is that Suzie has been going to the hospital quite often the last few years. My brother and sister-in-law are in contact with Suzie; that's how I know what's going on with her. In the last four months or so, Robin told me that Suzie has breast cancer. This blew my mind. I get on my knees and beg for Suzie to not suffer through kemo treatments. I ask that whatever god is out there to give me the cancer and let my girlfriend Suzie live.

Yesterday I was on the phone with my family and wow! This out the doctor or hospital was at fault and admitted to giving Suzie cancer. They offered her a settlement of $4.5 million I believe. She hasn't taken the first deal yet. She is having this looked into first before making any decisions with money.

I don't care about the money. I never have had any and all that matters to me is my sick girlfriend Suzie has cancer. She is in pain and the doctors/hospital/etc. gave her cancer.

She wants to hire me an attorney and try and help give me back my freedom. Suzie doesn't read my blog that I know of, but if she did, she would smile because she knows how much I love her. Of course, a paid attorney would make all the difference in the world. I may be actually getting an attorney who cares about my freedom.

Poor people get public defenders, people with paid attorneys get parole dates. Four people went to trial in my case. One of us had a paid attorney. He was acquitted; the rest of us got life. Does money get people out of prison? I seen it firsthand at my murder trial. Real attorneys fight for their clients. They file motions. They do real legal work. Public defenders say, "Let's take a deal" and "Go to prison" or they tell you "You're getting life. Sorry."

Anyways, regardless of how good my life could be in prison with money and a real attorney who would help me, I'm sure of it. If I had the money Suzie will get, I would give up every penny to know that she was cancer free. Look, Suzie has been married for years and I assume happy. But I just found out that her husband is an asshole.

I should be out there taking care of Suzie. But all I can do is pray for her, and I will do that.

Donnie