Dec. 7, 2017

Dear Readers (11/22/17)

by Kelly Jones (author's profile)


"Memories aren't rags that come clean with enough wringing."—Dean Koonty, Frankenstein, Lost Souls

Dear Readers,

Howdy! I hope you all are well and happy.

So, I'm laying in bed and it's a little before "lockdown" (roughly 9:15 P.M.) on the day before Thanksgiving. We'll have the usual holiday meal tomorrow and a box lunch for dinner.

I used to love Thanksgiving. After Halloween, it's probably my favorite holiday. I"m very old-fashioned, so no matter what, I would cook a holiday meal (in the real world). I like it because it's all about just eating a good meal and enjoying yourself. I remember my early T-givings when my mom was alive, and I would always call her and ask some question about cooking the meal. God, I was such a Momma's Boy. I sure do miss that old woman. I'm just glad that she died before all this prison mess.

I'll share a certain game I like to play with myself when I'm in a particular mood: I say a little prayer (to music gods (jokingly)), and I turn on my MP3 player to shuffle and see what comes up. I often do this in the "common area" in the unit—the triangular area above where the TVs are and tables, and such. Then, I'll chair dance. I sit in my chair in my Usual Spot (capitalized because everyone who's anyone has a "usual spot" to put their chair and watch TV) and dance to myself along with the music. Mainly in my mind, but you can tell I'm moving along to the music.

I love to dance. This is one of the places that I haven't stood and actually danced at some point. Even at backwater El Reno. I even got called to the CO's office about it there.



Happy Thanksgiving! Gobble! Gobble!

OH MY GOD. I had the most bizarre conversation tonight. One guy even said: "This sound like a reality show!"

So. There's this new young guy that came into our unit. He's 27. He's absolutely beautiful. I hate talking about my age ('cause I'm old!), but I'm old enough to be this guy's dad (gag).

Anyway, so he's in my cell with his new buddy, a "homeboy" who's also from Virginia (like he is), a mixed black/Latino guy who's a little older, but "lumpy" attractive. They were both here in my cell, and the Blatino guy was telling The Kid that it was obvious that I was in love with him. The Kid was skeptical, and I told him that, "Of course I'm in love with you. Everyone knows it." I told him about the jealous hag, "Di-Di", who always makes comments about him and me.

"But," I said, "I really love Travis." Travis, who is only five years older than The Kid and the love of my life (for now).

At some point, I said, "I cannot believe we're having this conversation." I really couldn't. This is my freaking life.

Yes, I definitely love The Kid. He is absolutely beautiful. But Travis is Husband #1 for now. I really just couldn't believe that this conversation took place at all. In prison.


The rest of that weekend really sucked. From 9:30 A.M. on Saturday until Monday after lunch, we were locked down—for the most part in our cells and rarely in the common area of our unit. They even canceled outside visits for Saturday.

There were various rumors for this, according to, from various with the perimeter fence, to being short-staffed, to the cameras being out. The final reason I heard is that there was a computer glitch so that the CO's radios wouldn't send out their normal GPS signal. So, if something happened to a CO, they couldn't trace their location via GPS. I was told that this affected many prisons, including the whole mid-Atlantic region and several others. It was a crappy way to spend Thanksgiving weekend.

Until next time, I wish you...

Love + blessings,


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amazingsweetsound Posted 1 year, 1 month ago. ✓ Mailed 1 year, 1 month ago   Favorite
Dear Kelly,
I'm sorry your Thanksgiving weekend sucked so bad. I hope your days are getting better right now.
When you were talking about the game you play with your MP3 player, it reminds me of something I do! I like to (jokingly as well) pray to the music gods or whatever and ask a question about my life. Something like, "Does this boy like me?" or "Will I pass my driver's ed class?" Then I hit shuffle. I try to interpret the song and how it would answer my question. Most of the time I just end up singing or dancing and forgetting all about my question, though. It's a fun thing to do, fortune-telling of sorts.
It was nice to read your writing and I hope to see more from you!

Kelly Jones Posted 1 year ago.   Favorite
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amazingsweetsound Posted 11 months, 4 weeks ago. ✓ Mailed 11 months, 3 weeks ago   Favorite
I read both your responses. Thank you for responding!
I decided I'll send a quote to you. It's one of my favorite quotes, a Bruce Springsteen quote. I love Bruce Springsteen.
"Baby there are nights when I dream of a better world." -Bruce Springsteen
My theatre teacher told me this quote reminded him of me. He says I'm opinionated and want to change the world and all that. So I carry this quote with me a lot. I hope I can pass this quote to you, too, and it can mean something to you.

Kelly Jones Posted 10 months, 3 weeks ago.   Favorite
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amazingsweetsound Posted 10 months, 2 weeks ago. ✓ Mailed 10 months, 2 weeks ago   Favorite
Dear Kelly,
I am from Illinois.
Yes, that quote is from a song! It's from Jackson Cage by Bruce Springsteen.
Yes, I am in theatre. Not in school, though. I am online-schooled because of chronic illness. Online school isn't all bad, though. I have a lot of free time, which is nice.
Dance is a beautiful art form. I'm unfortunately a really bad dancer, haha. I've been in a few musicals with my theatre group, but I mainly do "straight-plays" meaning it's not a musical. I actually prefer doing makeup in theatre. I'm not much of an actor, to be honest.

Kelly Jones Posted 9 months, 2 weeks ago.   Favorite
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amazingsweetsound Posted 8 months, 3 weeks ago. ✓ Mailed 8 months, 3 weeks ago   Favorite
Dear Kelly,
For me, Illinois is pretty boring. But I guess boring is nice, isn't it? I rarely go up to Chicago, about once a year. When I do, it's to see the aquarium. I personally find fish really gross to be honest, but it's still fun!
Plays are super fun! What plays were you in, if you remember? My theatre company is doing Beauty and The Beast this year. Like I said, I can't dance or sing, but I'm doing the makeup for it so I'm excited for that! There's a lot of fun makeup in it so that'll be great.
I hope you're doing well. I wish you the best.
I found another quote, if you'd like! Obviously you don't have to use these, I'd just like to share since I know you like quotes. This one doesn't so much come from a person, though, as it actually comes from a dumb TV show.
"Nobody exists on purpose, nobody belongs anywhere."
It's from a dumb cartoon called Rick and Morty, which is a sci-fi thing with adult humor. It's about a grandpa and his grandson travelling dimensions and different planets.
But anyways, the quote sounds super dark but it's actually not in context. The character is saying that the idea of a purpose in life, fitting in is a romantic ideal. It's okay not to fit in because nobody ever fits in. Nobody has a purpose in life to fulfill.
This of course, is just an idea and nobody has to agree with it. I just found it to be an interesting philosophy on life.
Anyways, I hope you're doing well.

Kelly Jones Posted 7 months, 4 weeks ago.   Favorite
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