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Personal Journal

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—management medication. When I had my colon operations here, I didn't get much for the first one. Just put back in the cell and ended up in the hole for rising hell about it. For the second one, I was on a different yard and the MTA liked me. :) Of course she did. :) She saw to it that the doctor gave me a mild pain pill three times a day for six weeks. :) It helped. Now I have two side by side scars that only doctor can look at. :)

10/27/18
SAT

The heater came back on during the night. I've been awake since before three, and I'm tired. I didn't want to get up, just lie in bed with the fan blowing over me. I don't care for it when it gets too cold, but I can always put on some long johns, sweats, and a blanket over me. But when it gets too hot, the fan only helps a little on high blowing. Right on you. We don't have an AC. :)

I'm glad you liked the poem Her Perspectives. I knew you would. For those of us who have lived it and understand the feelings, there are parts that make our eyes water. "I stay acceptant yet unresigned to the fact that this is it; this is our life." I love you, and I thank God that you have loved me all these years and still. You are the heart of my motivation in a place that is designed to break us mentally, physically, and psychologically, and in so many other ways. Without your motivation there would be no poetry, no paintings, no writing of anything. There would be no beautiful sunrise to enjoy.

Everyone needs hope, everyone has a dream.

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Pictures are painful
but I cannot
bury them in a dream
they are forever displayed
in my mind's eye

The smile on your face
is always with me
as we are together
on the hidden pathways
of our collective memories

We play together
under the streetlights
in darker alleyways
in dimly lit rooms
in picture of our youth

They came, they found me
I am still with you
within your heart
forever in your arms
in our collective minds' dreams

Pictures are painful
sometimes they are happiness
we display on dressers
on walls of memories
in our joyful hearts.

Steve J. Burkett
10/27/18