Maybe this is what I deserve. God knows I've earned it. Until my arrest, I was a selfish, lazy, disrespectful worm. Now I'm trying to repair all that I've destroyed, but apparently some bridges will just remain burned.
I know how lucky I am to be alive and healthy and to still have people in my life that love me. It's just that sometimes I look at the people and things I used to know and have, and I see how much I've lost, too. Those are the days when my life hurts the most.
I talk like I don't miss certain people, people whose names I won't disgrace by connecting their pasts with mine. The truth is that I almost always feel guilty whenever they cross my mind.
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The trick is to take this and use it to produce something productive in your life. Do not let it keep you dowwn. Rather think of how bad you feel when this guilt and the feelings associated come to mind and allow yourself to work to get away from it all. By reforming yourself and your attitude towards life you can make the positive change needed to make something better out of yourself. But remember it can only come from within you; and only you alone can start it.