Cody Robinson

Today
she looked me in the eye
And today
I know
She saw me for the first time
And if tomorrow never comes
Will everything still be alright
'Cause today
She saw my shame
And knew me for the first time

She said
“I never knew
Never tried, never cried
Until you
Came into my life

I never saw
Never heard, not a word
What was wrong

I never knew
I never knew
Pain like you
I never knew
You”

There I go
Out the door
To a place and a time
That I never knew ...

Machine of man
Churning out indifference
Molding and coating
In lies and twisted truths
Who are you to
Hide behind the curtain
Covering up all your evils and sins
You judge the condemned
With your Cheshire grin

If all of your worst deeds
We laid out bare
Would we still see a righteous man
Standing there?

Anyone reading this should be aware that I am no longer in prison. I have been out since May 8th of 2012. If you're looking to communicate with a prisoner, please look elsewhere. They need you more than I do.
I kept wanted to post something new, and I kept finding excuses to put it off. This post finally came about on a whim.
I just got done watching "Lovely Molly" with my girlfriend, and I have to say it was one of the worst movies I've ever seen. I'd almost rather watch "Cloverfield" again. They're both pretty ...

At night I can sit with my head on the bars
My face to the window as I look to the stars
I turn the light off and I hope no one sees
A trembling of eyelids and these tears that I bleed

Just one of so many with so many alone
Concrete and steel, we call insanity home
Our tongues become whips and our fingers are fists
Longing for love where it can never exist

I search for an answer in the blackness of night
A fragment of peace on the edge of my life
A star ...

If anyone reading these blogs wishes to chat, feel free to email me at smalltownbassist@gmail.com. I am currently in the halfway house and will only be able to respond a few times a week, but I will do so on a regular basis. I will be released on August 3rd.

Someday, I hope to have a good career, complete education, a nice place to live, and a wife to share it all with. I've done some bad things in my life, and I fear that now it may be too late to try and fix anything at all.

It hurts a man to look back on his life and realize that there are no accomplishments worth noting. At the same time, it's inspiring to be able to look forward and understand that the rest of the road might just be salvageable.

Maybe this is what I deserve. God knows I've earned it. Until my arrest, I was a selfish, lazy, disrespectful worm. Now I'm trying to repair all that I've destroyed, but apparently some bridges will just remain burned.
I know how lucky I am to be alive and healthy and to still have people in my life that love me. It's just that sometimes I look at the people and things I used to know and have, and I see how much I've lost, too. Those are the days when my life hurts the most.
I talk like ...

I never thought I'd be able to continue posting AFTER my release from prison. Things are very hectic for me right now. It seems that all the continuity of scheduling in prison was thrown out the window the day I was released. Suddenly, after five years, I'm expected to be my own man again, where before I wasn't allowed to. It's daunting, but I'm getting through it.
On another note, every officer I came in contact with on my way out of those prison doors was really nice to me. I wonder if they were just happy to be ...