Sept. 14, 2012

Angel On My Shoulder

by LeVar E. Jones (author's profile)

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Wrote on 9-22-06

Angel on My Shoulder
By LeVar E. Jones

Mom! You were the one who helped get my body clean,
Who taught me right from wrong, even though you were mean.
Who taught me about God, just so that I'll know,
Who took me to church, so I could spiritually grow.
When I went to sleep, you tucked me in real tight,
Kissed me and said, "don't let the bed bugs bite."
Didn't know what she meant, but it led to bad dreams,
Came to my rescue, to get me away from those creepy things.
I only have 1 mother, so success is what I tried to gain,
But instead of that, all I gave was misery and pain.
As time goes by quickly, and my mom is getting old,
I cry myself to sleep, because she's not here for me to hold.
I'll always remember the one, that brought me here,
There is something in my mind, that I will always fear.
I know I'm not perfect, so I try to change my ways,
Maybe I can go home, and take care of my mom one day.
When I look in the mirror, it feels I've lost the war,
That angel tells me there's a lot to be thankful for!
Since I can't rewind time, and undo that bad choice,
I hear an angel speaking to me, and it's my mom's voice.
I wish this wasn't real, but I'm tired of pinching my arm,
Mom, I'm really sorry, I never meant to do you harm.
Even though I'm not there, as you grow much older,
You will always be that voice, that was the angel on my shoulder.

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OneLuv<3 Posted 11 years, 6 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 6 months ago   Favorite
I really enjoyed reading your blog. It touched my heart. My brother was in the same position your in right now so I can kind of relate to it in away. I have been locked up myslef but it wasn't anything big it was minor but anyways I REALLLY sincerely enjoyd your letter. I'm a young mother of two beauiful baby girls and I'm going to make sure their lives are better then my childhood. Growing up I had alot of bad things happen to me but it only made me a stronger and better mother today! thanks again for listening to me


~nikki~

OneLuv<3 Posted 11 years, 4 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 4 months ago   Favorite
Hey LeVar,
It was great hearing back from you. I was kinda excited to open my email and see that I you had written me back. I hope you are hanging in their and making time pass. I'm going threw some tough times write now but I will deffinitly write you by hand as soon as I'm settled. I'm in the process of moving so things are rather chaotic but I do promise to write you as soon as im able to. I know it's not easy being in your situation and that's why I feel the need to stay by your side even if it is only a penpal or what ever the case might be. Thanks for putting a smile on my face. I look forward to hearing from you! Take care..

OneLuv<3 Posted 11 years, 3 months ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 3 months ago   Favorite
Good morning LeVar,
Yes that's so true! I might be going threw alot, but theirs always someone out there that is going threw worse! My two beautiful babys make everything I do worth it. That's what keeps me going.If I didn't have them I don't know where I would be. I'am trying to work thing's out with my daughters father but this is the last chance he has with me and my children and it's not going well at all! He's overbearing and stalks me If I want alone time or to jus take a girl friend out to eat. Being with him I CAN'T have friends guy or girl. I'm tired of feeling so alone and sufficated. It's a control thing with him he wants to control my every move and I'm not having it I'm a grown ass women that had children way too young but I wouldn't take it back because it made me the strong women I'am today! I really like talkn to you and I HOPE we can grow and hopfully meet eachother someday..My address is 380 Mile Hill Road Apt # 28 Laconia NH, 03246 My first name is Nicole LAST name Edmondson. You can write me when ever you would like I would like to get to know you better and see where this goes. You sound and look like the type I want so lets get to writting! lol....Idk if I told you but I'm 22 I will be 23 October 2nd I have two daughters ages 5 years and 15 months their my world! I have long dark brown hair and light brown eyes I weigh 140 pounds but my goal is to get down to 125 or 130 I used to be a really big bitch I was 208 pounds I have lost 68 pounds. I was sick of feeling uncomfortable with my body so I did something about it. I do have some ass left it used to b fat but I lost mad weight so its not as big but its still pretty nice I wear 34c cup I'm 5'6" height I enjoy music talking and movies and cuddln.! I would love to hear back from you so get at me as soon as you can thanks hun! You put another smile on my face! (: Take care talk to you soon!

OneLuv<3 Posted 11 years, 1 month ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 1 month ago   Favorite
Hey

OneLuv<3 Posted 11 years, 1 month ago. ✓ Mailed 11 years, 1 month ago   Favorite
Hey Honey,
How is everything?! It was so0o exciting to get a phone call from you. Sorry it was at such a bad time but we still pulled it off, because we are good like that. haha. I want to set up an account and I will when my moneys right. I wish that I could right now but that's not an option but I WILL a.s.a.p! I usually write you by hand but I was on the computer so I signed on to between the bars and I had a letter from you so I thought this would be easier for today cuz I got alot of stuff to do when I get home. I'm at my work place but as long as I don't get caught everything will be all good. lol. I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU.! I wonder in my head what's going to happen with us and where this is going to go. I have a really good feeling about you, and I like it. I feel like im in grade school it's mad funny but cute. I wish we weren't so far apart though. I would love to see you in person and get to feel your body on mine. But I kinda guess its a good thing cuz I know myself and you make me a little tooooo excited so we would end up getting in some trouble hahahahahaha. I feel that I want to open up to you and get to know you on a more personal level and I feel we are both ready for that. Don't worry you wont scare me away. I ALREADY TOLD YOU I AIN'T THE GIRL NEXT DOOR THATS A LIL PUSSY i CAN HANDLE IT BABY. But anyways how are you doing? Are you getting low on ur supplys? I was so happy with the valentines card you had done up for me it touched my heart boo boo thank you for that very much and the poem was amazing i love your choice or words it makes me feel all warm inside. Well i g2g for now take care of that sexy self and I will get at u very soon

xoxoxox always,
Nicky

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