Dear Sara, I also feel like I'm going to Hell sometimes. I use to have an obsession with studying near death experiences of people who went to heaven or hell. I attempted suicide one time and found myself in a dark void with an evil presence. I know that the only way to atone for my sins is through the blood of Jesus. But just like you, I have my doubts about God's forgiveness. I also have scars, physically from having cut and burnt myself when my mental illness was severe. And I also have emotional scars. I suffer from depression and have to take Paxil for it. I hope your life gets better. Take good care of yourself. Regardless of what you did, please take care of yourself. May God be your strength. Sincerely Melissa Albany, Oregon
Sorry about everything your friend has been through. God bless you for being such a good friend to her. Perhaps she can come visit you so you can support her in person.
I'm glad you managed to find some degree of peace over Christmas. I actually sent a Christmas card to you, but I've received it back as I left your DOC# off the envelope (I'm still trying to do too many things at once I think). I will send it to you again, even though Christmas is behind us, the thoughts behind it are eternal.
I look forward to reading more of your thoughts in the coming year. Take care. Nicki
Thank you for this post. It reminds me how very important it is to just acknowledge each other. To just say 'Hi'. Sometimes I look at someone who has looked at me as they pass by and I think to myself, I should have smiled, or said hello. Today, after reading your blog I will do just that. I will smile and say hello, and I will begin right here... Hello Troy :) I hope I can brighten the days of many, thanks to your little reminder. Take care! Nicki.
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Melissa
Albany, Oregon
I look forward to reading more of your thoughts in the coming year. Take care.
Nicki