I think we're all too stuck on labels which leads us into a state of confusion and I think that's what your questions show here. Perhaps we should look at sexuality as a sliding scale, one we can slide up and down throughout our lifetimes as we grow and became more accepting of what entices us. I think perhaps a lot of our problems come from how we perceive ourselves, and others, and try to fit in the 'gay' box, or the 'straight' box when humans are simply more complex that that. We are all so very individual and we need to respect the beauty in that. This is what your post has reminded me today. Thank you for sharing this part of yourself, and for the complex thoughts you've raised in my mind today.
Thanks for writing! I finished the transcription for your post.
And just a thought. You say you´re manly looking, there are some gay men who, even though they claim to be attracted to men, are usually attracted to feminine types of guys, and if they are feminine themselves, they probably would expect you to act that way to believe you, but I can assure you that many gay men like precisely that: men. The reason why the "closeters" like you best could be because of the same thing, since you don´t "look" gay, they feel safe being seen with you without people thinking there is a relationship between us.
Dear Amber, Since you're in there for drug related issues, there is hope. I don't know what drugs you had issues with but marijuana is becoming legal in some states. Washington and Colorado just made marijuana legal for recreational use. Prosecutors in Washington and Colorado threw out their marijuana cases. They're no longer prosecuting people for marijuana. The cases were thrown out. More states might legalize marijuana in the future. If they do then it might be easier for people convicted of drug felonies to have their record expunged.Or at-least people with drug felonies would be de-stigmatized. Stay strong. Sincerely Melissa
I also can't wait for Christ to return so things can be peaceful. I want an end to all of the insanity in the world. I have spread the gospel. I use to pass out gospel tracts. I don't anymore though. Stay strong in the Lord. Love Melissa
Hello Guy, Sorry I just got one of your letters and it had the wrong zip code the right one is 76164 that maybe why I had not gotten anything before from you. Yes I live with my brother again, back in June I decided to give Fred another chance and I moved back in with him and everything was going great we had worked out our problems and we were making it work. Then on July 8th he had a massive heart attack and passed away. I had to move back in with my brother and then I completely lost it and ended up in the psych hospital for awhile. I finally got better and then my step-mother calls me and tells me that my dad has been put on hospice and it terminal. I am still holding it together and am working as a medical assistant in a clinic, I work from 3pm to 11pm and sleep most of the day till it is time to go to work. I work as much as I can to keep my mind off Fred. Towards the end I finally realized that I had always loved him and that I would do crazy things just so that I could hurt him. Before he died he did show me how much he loved me and that he always had and it was me that kept pushing him away and making excuses. Well I will close for now and send this off. Hope your doing well and keep in touch... elle
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And just a thought. You say you´re manly looking, there are some gay men who, even though they claim to be attracted to men, are usually attracted to feminine types of guys, and if they are feminine themselves, they probably would expect you to act that way to believe you, but I can assure you that many gay men like precisely that: men. The reason why the "closeters" like you best could be because of the same thing, since you don´t "look" gay, they feel safe being seen with you without people thinking there is a relationship between us.
Good luck!!
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Melissa
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Do you do a lot of creative writing?
Sorry I just got one of your letters and it had the wrong zip code the right one is 76164 that maybe why I had not gotten anything before from you.
Yes I live with my brother again, back in June I decided to give Fred another chance and I moved back in with him and everything was going great we had worked out our problems and we were making it work. Then on July 8th he had a massive heart attack and passed away. I had to move back in with my brother and then I completely lost it and ended up in the psych hospital for awhile. I finally got better and then my step-mother calls me and tells me that my dad has been put on hospice and it terminal. I am still holding it together and am working as a medical assistant in a clinic, I work from 3pm to 11pm and sleep most of the day till it is time to go to work. I work as much as I can to keep my mind off Fred. Towards the end I finally realized that I had always loved him and that I would do crazy things just so that I could hurt him. Before he died he did show me how much he loved me and that he always had and it was me that kept pushing him away and making excuses. Well I will close for now and send this off. Hope your doing well and keep in touch...
elle