I enjoyed reading this and read it over and over. I see the importance of the words to you, but it meant something else to me. Being a single mother of 3 being responsible for my children 24 hours a day, 365 days a year, the endless school lunches and no male presence to watch on... I've never seen it all as poetic. Thank you for your perspective.
But when it comes to a time when its been a 2 decade onslaught of mass chaos that cannot be prevented or stopped, and everyone else out here has to pay the dues of crazy people who did wrong, I have an issue with that. Not me, nor will I die and pay the ultimate price with my life or god-daughter's life over someone else's bad decision(s) to make me or us victims. Not here. Wrong home, baby. But I dont expect THE MAJORITY (I said majority, no freak outs please, for love of Hail Mary and the disciples, apostles, pentecostals, and every fine Baptist overly southern style of A church Ive ever been thrown out of! Yeah I know, I make church sound like a bad southern fried version of chicken, Im just sickening I know already but LOL jk sorry twisted humor cos sometimes after 29-30 yrs in this crazy world with crazy society bass-ackwards confused as hell its better to make yourself laugh or youd probably cry your eyeballs out and I DO MEAN BOTH of em too! XD jk lol carry on, Im sorry once again, I was saying....the MAJORITY ahem) of USA citizens to get it to be honest with you, definitely not in the USA where if its not shocking ENOUGH, it doesnt matter til its HARDCORE SHOCKING to society and then when it all finally dies down, we take the less shocking option and blame everyone thats civil and obedient to laws or at least threaten to do so with 2nd amendments rights taken away, all right before getting lazy and giving up only so that society as a whole can simply get back to where they were all at before- which was/is always 1 main point/goal: forgetting the whole entire deal. Crazy place. Not like any other, and not peaceful minded as an overall mindset among people here, but thats not surprising given the way our country sets things up in the first place. Just my humble opinion, learned over the years and by opened wide eyes, thats all. -Much Luv, CC
Around here, someone can illegally acquire a pistol grip pump shotgun 12 gauge quicker on the streets in the city (and not even know how to use it other than scare/harm people hoping that works only) than I can LEGALLY buy, train to use, and own it through and through a simple .25 small pistol which is about the pettiest pistol one can own, and Id shoot myself in the foot and drive myself to the hospital to anyone who didnt believe me on that one. But look at the difference. A shotgun illegally acquired and they dont know anything about it (as a wise man once said- outlaw guns and only outlaws will have guns- and that is very true since they are so easily gotten off the street that anyone out to harm me COULD beat me to it easily), cos they will get them and then what will law abiding citizens have? Emergency protection orders that protect from immediately fatal double barrel 12gauge sawed off shotgun wounds? I doubt it here. Even if there are or would be any wounds from that kind of shot, I doubt it. I should have chosen better example but thats what is on the streets not in stores, ready for anyone to grab and not go through the waiting period/concealed weapons permit testing/background check/test and learn to fire whatever gun I PURCHASE on the firing range until Im familiar with it the honest way. Not how its done here, so taking away self defense is taking away alot more than others wanna imagine cos they cant wrap their little minds around it.
PART TWO- LOST BITS OF REPLY DUE TO INTERNET CONNECTION. Since he did bring that many fellow nutcases and borderlines with sociopathic traits scattered here and there if you watched the way these people acted in daily life. But was a gun to blame for their actions? No, and was my life the price to pay to teach others not to defend themselves against 4 morons, 2 with firearms (small pistols) yet dont know how to handle/use them other than wave them arounnd, point, and yell demands as if they will get somewhere with that......But its always possible in my area- should they just decide on this house number for any reason and Im sure meth users up and awake after a 19 day binge arent too reasonable of thinkers but I digress..*sigh*..its not about being a maniac wanting more guns, thats not the answer, its about everyone wanting to see that as the answer because when you start taking away rights that were placed in our amendments (2nd- right to bear arms was put there on the basis of military AND for citizens and self protection according to what Ive learned through the years, protection, not mass murder madness)....so taking my right(s) away at all only implies that I have to pay the dues that this maniac created himself, because he of course didnt stick around to do so and didnt plan on it, and because his odd crime made no sense to society (overall, they gave a summary thats it) its much easier after YEARS UPON YEARS of school shootings (yet this is the first Ive heard of a 20 yr old running up in his old elementary/primary school for Christs sake!) to instead of admitting hey, this kind of stuff cannot be prevented, its much easier to simply threaten to make us all suffer for a few peoples horrible actions that society found shocking and regular citizens pay the price? Thats what will never make sense to me. I already pay the price when Im put in danger, a 2nd time or 3rd even, and Im not even paranoid- its more or less hypervigilant and aware of my surroundings which helps me to not be stupid with a weapon of any sort that Im legally trained and allowed to own- even if and when faced with danger I wont be stupid. Period. Thats a responsible gun owner who respects the weapon they own for their household and their self protection as well as their loved ones protection also. I want more out of life than to hope that my few family members divvy up my crappy life insurance policy without fighting each other over the crappy amount once divided up, I want more life and I do not want it taken from me. Call me nuts, call me paranoid, call me what you will, but you wont call me DEAD AND GONE when another psycho comes around- and evidently the USA is full of them or so they say these days? Whats to control, who needs to be punished for doing nothing wrong at all, and whats truly at the root of all of this, if anything is able to be controlled? Who could even answer that? Much Luv TO ALL reading right now, CC
I dont blame the 9mm and .22 that enabled someone to (usually inadequate about their life and money/relationship issues on the daily they bitched about this) finally feel powerful big and strong (in a group of 3-4 buddies though) enough to break into my home (thats not what firearms or bearing arms is for feeling- powerful enough to take anger out on person is not anywhere close its more like the nut that killed those primary school children at age 20 yrs old!! wth??), The psycho guy brandishing a 9mm in my home was one of which I worked nights with 2nd-3rd swing swift welding parts full time plus, and knew beneath this sweet false demeanor and charismatic pushiness that everyone else overlooks or falls for (ends up hurt very badly or in court with EPO against guy) was a potential threat PLUS a potential creep- and I do mean creep. Not, oh hes a flirt who wants to stalk me and leave threatening notes about killing my pets and then do so on my doorstep, he was a true nutcase and coming from me, Ill give anyone the benefit of the doubt when it comes to their mindset(s) yeah, so that means alot- however, I did not enter these guys (even the one and his brother, his toadie in this robbery on dope BS game of breaking in my home 2 yrs ago both armed and bringing 2-3 extra friends along to wait outside I guess? Big dummies) everyday lives threatening them with harm in any way (and yet still had they done this to me DAILY I still was not taught/and would never be "careless" or disrespect a firearm by being careless or flippant with a gun in any way shape or form, ever.
I have not been taught/trained to handle and own) despite the fact that they caught me minding my own business and tried to take advantage of me in my home, what they thought would be a comfort zone for me.....The guy who broke into my home did not have good intentions and I am fortunately (dunno which is best in the USA, Ive tried to accomplish being stupid but hey it didnt happen, did my best dammit lol) not STUPID when it comes to knowing what is obviously trouble even though "everyone else in their workplace/small town trusts them and never would think theyd do this kind of stuff etc etc etc yada yada yeah they believe the false charisma and thats when I pay said person some much needed (mentally) extreme hardcore extra attention, and usually by not falling for it, piss off a psycho or two- in this case maybe 4?
PART TWO (last)......(can be easily set up by friends or even trusted or simply asked to do so people you know on the outs such as new friends or kind of acquaintances, set up the ad for ONE YEAR its not too expensive and costs overall not too much money and you do get replies if you include at least 1 photograph or especially 2 photos in your pen pal ad, and that gives you this to blog entries on which would be best and that pen pal ad would be like your own personal web page where you could straight out declare the badly needed donations for legal assistance and/or just legal donations etc which is the norm on some pen pal sites, even if you are not searching for a penpal to write to regularly, setting this up would not hurt it would be worth the chance and keep your blog here so its not lost should you create a new 2nd one and it not work out, draw enough traffic/readers to its page). Id hate to see you blog anywhere else, Donnie, or even leave here totally for a 2nd blog because I feel the high volume of readers that this webpage supposedly reaches across the entire world not just the USA/States gives you a better chance (with a 2nd ad or page of some sort, for legal donations) of the right audience hearing what you have to say because hey, Im realistic but you can never say never in some cases when it comes to saying the right words and the right person hearing/reading them. Especially if they are in a position of power to help you more than just bits here and there, it would be a blessing but you know that. Anyway, I hope 2013 has started out okay for you, Donnie, and that youll decide what you wanna do about setting up a donation page or 2nd pen pal page with a setting for donations only etc but just dont stop blogging here mainly, because honestly although words are not always the easiest when typing to explain things- the truth is that I have been blessed with ALL of your many (since day one when I first replied) blogged and sent in/written entries along with your words. I definitely do read your words with more than a grain of salt and do attempt to try and be not only of an understanding heart and mind but also of an understanding nature (comes naturally to me though) as well as by your side as you endure harsh times well mentioned in the past and I read about them.....because even though I do not endure these times, I hope to in any way possible successfully and kindfully be of support and just plain be there for YOU in STRONG spirit through any struggles that you face/endure/must go through and see while in your situation on a daily basis if not worse. I wish there was a better way to explain it. -CC
Linden and Katemonster- Excellent on the posting of all of the broken down aspects of PayPal information. Donnie will appreciate it. Im just not sure he will be able to attach a donation PayPal ad to THIS blog, although I know of many other personal blogs where a person's friend or relative runs them and they have them attached on their personal pages for donations (college books, much needed items for their winter jobs, classes they need to attend, fees for those classes and books for other programs that need financing, and most of all- legal donations I see quite often and wonder what it would cost TOTAL to acquire a truly good, decent attorney worth ones time in this situation especially??) So although Donnie could do a 2nd blog through someone else's blogpage (they could type it up for him after he mails it to them and so on, etc) and include his donation thru PayPal set up on their page (or they could make it his own 2nd blog owned BY him actually, several do that on here), I am 100 percent sure he cannot do it through this website for blogging (BTB) though since its already (was told this anyway months ago, read it in an article about this actual site and how people were technically waiting in line hoping to get their blog entry published and start entering entries on BTB) that very few due to volume and mailing replies etc are/were from the start ever luckily accepted due to their content/words in their blogs, his blogs being read on this site having such high volume as I know it truly does is why Id rather see him create a 2nd blog through a friend or relative of his OWN and still keep this one, or just create a penpal ad looking for legal assistance/donations that can serve not as a blog as this can, but as your own personal web page plus your own donation request page/area.....
Hi Donald, I wish I could have dropped a Christmas card in the mail for you. I was in such a hurry for 2012 to be over, because its dealt many low blows all at once over its 12 litte months that alot of people wouldnt understand. A human being can only take so much before it becomes downright unfathomable, so if I take my past health issues and apply them to your situation (needing the good attorney and options to make this work for you so that you can get out and live LIFE again after so many years have passed) I do understand on a strange level. I want to see this year 2013 hold better things in store for you, especially legally and even otherwise, because I definitely feel you on 2012 being a rough one, and not in its average kind of way most people mention. There are so many things I have never gotten to experience in or throughout life too, because I thought Id never run out of time on anything, and now its too late to go back and be in my late teens or mid 20s again and re-do things the way I would had I known what I was facing ahead. I want good things to be ahead for you and I mean that, because I know what its like getting people to understand/care about your situation when you are not rich or when nobody wants you to beat the odds because you have lived your life differently than society but yet you are STILL part of what we call our society, only you are one of the rare people who are strongly willing to overcome and deeply know you can make your life worth it out there if given a second chance on the streets (like you said, good point, before you forget how everything functions on the outs and nothing matters to you out here any longer as that happens over so many years inside) if only someone (the right people, the right attorney, and especially the right amount of money was there ASAP) would hear you out and be legit with you, even though you dont even know what you can afford and live day by day with half of your salary taken for restitution (they do the same in almost all states Im familiar with near me so for the states where one has to live off of say, only 4 bucks a week -seriously- and 2 bucks are taken out of that week, they are not going to get by too easily job or not, sadly and unfortunately, depending on what amount total they owe on restitution and how long they have to pay it off IF they are ever granted a supervised release VS never being given parole/release at all......its all different depending on the state(s) but yet so many things despite being a whole coast away from my home state and areas I know of well, things are still so the same as well. Hang in there Donnie, thinking of you. -CC
That was really beautiful. I think what you wrote really embraces what the holidays are. Make good with what you have, be appreciative, and self reflect. A lot of people could learn from your outlook. :) Stay positive. Happy New Year!
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I have not been taught/trained to handle and own) despite the fact that they caught me minding my own business and tried to take advantage of me in my home, what they thought would be a comfort zone for me.....The guy who broke into my home did not have good intentions and I am fortunately (dunno which is best in the USA, Ive tried to accomplish being stupid but hey it didnt happen, did my best dammit lol) not STUPID when it comes to knowing what is obviously trouble even though "everyone else in their workplace/small town trusts them and never would think theyd do this kind of stuff etc etc etc yada yada yeah they believe the false charisma and thats when I pay said person some much needed (mentally) extreme hardcore extra attention, and usually by not falling for it, piss off a psycho or two- in this case maybe 4?
Happy New Year! Virginia