The new doctor sent me to some specialists and I got the diagnosis and the medication. So I am now coming out of a cocoon hermit state. I started posting here and I began sending cards to my son again. I stopped working overtime at work because I finally realized that it is just a job and when I am gone someone else will take over the position. The last employer laid me off at ten years due to the loss of contracts with their customers. They had moved me more than once so that I could keep the job but finally the last ten percent layoff got me. It did not matter how much time I put in or how hard I worked or how much my boss liked me. I always got good reviews and my bosses always liked me. They defended me if an issue came up. But in the end it was my boss who called at 3 pm one day and told me I no longer had a job. I was devastated and moped around for about two months and then moved to the state that I am in now. I worked as a temp at this job and got hired after ninety days and now have ten years there. So now the tide has turned. I may get fired. I am 54 and not sure how well I will be able to find another job. I have finally learned my lesson and my time will be spent taking care of my dogs and my birds and trying to get my very messy house in order.
Since it is dark early I probably would have missed seeing the flat on the passenger side and it could have been an issue. Anyway today is Sunday and I have taken the pain medication today due to working to clean up my kitchen and the back pain makes it difficult to stand still while I am cleaning at the sink. So I am under the influence right now. Please tell me what you think. Would you know I had taken something? Is it obvious here? I told him that I do not take the pills every day and I offered to show him the bottle. He declined to see it and I really did not feel like he believed me. So maybe sometime they will fire me and it all started with that bad review. After getting diagnosed with fibromyalgia and getting a prescription (Neurontin) I finally went from 4 hours sleep average per night to 6, 7, and 8 hours depending on when I finally go to bed. Tonight it is 10:50 and I will be getting up at 5:30am to get ready for work so 6 hours. I had lost sleep for a very long time due to arthritis and fibromyalgia pain. It was definitely affecting my health over those years and I think I would have died. I had a full body ache like the flu all the time. It was round the clock and went on for years. I had suicide on my mind a lot until I made the decision to change doctors.
My boss made a comment one day about me and the fact that I take the medication and it affects my judgment and my emails. He said that motor skills are affected and that people who are afraid to drive are going to be a problem at work. I had asked to work at home due to taking the pain medication and I told him I was concerned about driving after taking them. He thinks I am afraid because I am affected by the pills. Since I take them at 5:30pm each evening and do not take anything every morning until after arriving at work I do not think that I have a problem. My fear was due to it being illegal just like it is when you are drinking and if I got in an accident that may or may not be my fault the pill that I took the evening before would still be in system and I could end up in jail. Before I started taking the medication I fell asleep at the wheel and ran into the curb while traveling 45 miles per hour. It broke my hub cap into pieces. I had to replace the tire recently because it had a slow leak since the accident which was some time ago. The tire finally got worse and was almost completely flat. Thankfully someone at my work noticed the flat tire and called someone back in the building and that person emailed me that I had the flat.
I am glad that you got the Christmas card. I have another one and I know it is after Christmas but I will send it anyway. I understand all too well how you feel about family. I rarely hear from our uncle in Kentucky and the one person who loved both of us unconditionally passed on. I sent an email to that uncle about not hearing from him for a while and he has not responded. I recently made up with my sister. She moved closer to me and we were able to go out for dinner together twice. I missed a call from her today because my cell phone battery was dead and I was trying to get the kitchen in order. I will call her tomorrow. I am not sure what happened recently. I have sought solitude for years and had no problem staying in my house for days. The only contact outside was people that I work with. I did not realize that my withdrawal was obvious at work because I keep these personal feelings and actions to myself. The review that I got recently was the worst I have ever gotten for my work. A lot of that has to do with pain medication that I take for back pain. Some days I take half a tablet and I add some otc to it to increase the effectiveness. I would like a comment from you about my posts which I hope you are getting. Do I write like I am on drugs? Do my posts make sense to you? He said he has seen others take medications and have issues. He says it is affecting my work.
I am not an attorney but I downloaded and save the document. I am not sure who to email it to. Do you have specific attorney email addresses or do you just want it sent to several in hopes someone will help with it? I love you and miss you Jeremy. Your family supporter from the day you were born until now.
Dear Scot, I just found your blog and would love to start a correspondence with you. It has been so long since we were teens, yet some things are so clear?I love to read, also. I am a voracious reader, I think I transferred addictions is what I really did.
Two years ago I bought an electronic reader that connects to Amazon books online. They are truly making an impact on bookstores and libraries. Many bookstore chains have been closing down, and now libraries have started it where you can check out ebooks from them. It is also making it very easy for writers to put out their own stories without a publisher. I don't suppose you could be allowed an ereader?
I am still living in Portland where Carlton and I moved to when I got pregnant with my second child, Chelsea. Chad my oldest is 21 and Chelsea is 20. She in turn made me a Grandma 3 years ago. A bit too soon but, I love it.
It has been 14 years since Carlton passed away from cancer. I wonder what he would have thought about being a Grandpa so soon, lol. When he was ill and doing chemo, I really thought we would get through it. He was so demanding when he was sick and grouchy. One day he asked for some tea while I was doing a mosaic project and I said, "Sure in a minute"...and he promptly called me an, "Arts and craft bitch" I still giggle about that line when I do anything artsy. Your facebook page has a whole section filled with your art. I can't wait to go back and pour over it all. I am looking forward to catching up with you. xoxo, your old friend Macy
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I just found your blog and would love to start a correspondence with you. It has been so long since we were teens, yet some things are so clear?I love to read, also. I am a voracious reader, I think I transferred addictions is what I really did.
Two years ago I bought an electronic reader that connects to Amazon books online. They are truly making an impact on bookstores and libraries. Many bookstore chains have been closing down, and now libraries have started it where you can check out ebooks from them. It is also making it very easy for writers to put out their own stories without a publisher. I don't suppose you could be allowed an ereader?
I am still living in Portland where Carlton and I moved to when I got pregnant with my second child, Chelsea. Chad my oldest is 21 and Chelsea is 20. She in turn made me a Grandma 3 years ago. A bit too soon but, I love it.
It has been 14 years since Carlton passed away from cancer. I wonder what he would have thought about being a Grandpa so soon, lol. When he was ill and doing chemo, I really thought we would get through it. He was so demanding when he was sick and grouchy. One day he asked for some tea while I was doing a mosaic project and I said, "Sure in a minute"...and he promptly called me an, "Arts and craft bitch" I still giggle about that line when I do anything artsy. Your facebook page has a whole section filled with your art. I can't wait to go back and pour over it all. I am looking forward to catching up with you.
xoxo, your old friend Macy