Robo, I wish I had read this earlier, Your words have touched me more then you know. They brought tears to my eyes, good tears :)You my son, are so easy to love that I deserve no accolades. But from you, I will take them and hold them in my heart forever You are such a blessing to me Honey, always know that, I Love You Most :), Mom
Somewhere along the line I stopped worrying about you. This posting reminds me why. You have grown so much as a person, man and of course "Son'. My Son, how happy and proud those words make me. How happy and proud you make me. Continue on your path honey, it is Gods given one of that I can assure you. I Love You Most, Mom
I am so glad you are smiling and embracing the world. I have never heard you express that before. Smiling and embracing the world really to go together. You cannot have one without the other. Turning thirty is a milestone. It allows you to be yourself, put aside that which has not worked for you and that which brought you down, and, like you said, live in the moment that is the "now." I look forward to your next blog. You always have something important and meaningful to share with your readers.
John Its been like 7 years since we've talked Do you remember we used to be pen pals? Lori fabiani...I came across your letters and remembered that my boyfriend at the time didn't want me to write you...He's gone and so much has happened...will you write to me again? My address ia Lori fabiani 642 north Erin ave Tucson az 85711
Marcus, You need to know that Bee (even in bee mode lately haha -smile-) really thanks you for this, and that it touched her heart in many ways. I think it was definitely at a time when she needed it. You are more important to her than you truly think! -CC
Hi Donald, this is my first time reading your blogs here. I check in from time to time on this site and do some replying to a few blogs. Yours caught my eye because yes, that happens and what sucks is that negative or not its true and I dont feel that you should have to deal with extra petty problems like that when you are already there doing your time, paying your dues, and getting it taken care of. I have never understood why some people want to make things extra hard on those who they are supposed to be guarding, not harassing. Im so sorry. I do know this happens. And worse. Ive known of only copies of precious family photos that were truly important to someone being torn up and laughed about when cells were trashed, cruel things said with taunts as if wanting to mock someone who cannot do anything about their behavior no matter how vile it becomes, and even worse things happening where the most that happens is that IF you CAN get anything done about it then they just suspend the person WITH pay for 1-2 weeks and then they are back and pissed within more than several instances in my area. Yet they truly did wrong. That is one thing Ive never understood. But when my distant cousin at a reunion told me he went through everything to work at a nearby correctional center near our town and once there, he quit within 7 mos because the others (some started when he did and had already joined in the group of lets play bad guy) were picking on him for not being hard on those just trying to do their time. He said it was a feeling of join in or they are going to drive him insane when hes just trying to be civil to other human beings and work each day. He walked out rather than join in such behavior, as he said it was very bad. Sending best wishes your way, Donald. Always. Keep writing, please! -CC
What love means to me? Each person giving 50/50 yet at the same time giving as much as they can of their 100% of who THEY are toward furthering mainly pure positivity in the relationship so that it can blossom in a loving way with no negative distractions other than everyday life stuff. Love doesnt create negativity for the heck of it. (Ive seen couples do this to each other when bored and to me it would be torture) Youll notice there are alot of negative times in my life I mention but can LOL and somehow now manage to even joke about, because at least I figure I can laugh about them years later and see how Ive grown/how far Ive come since that time. To me, love is shared with somoene who is at a spot in their live(s) close to the other (ready for change and not fearful of loving, has had lots of time to think about how/what they want to do when they meet the right person, ready to truly be themselves with no holdback, not be afraid to give this person their all within reason however since true love will never require meeting a demand or feeling pushed, etc) and if is meant to happen then I see it as fate.
Have I ever been in a loving relationship? Letter explains some of this believe it or not LOL and I started it yesterday on the 16th before reading this blog entry. I swear. I do believe had the few long relationships I had been truly full of love and acceptance instead of just me taking care of someone and never being able to be weak on my part if need be, then Id never have left those people. But the bad outweighed the good after 5-6 yrs in one ordeal and I had seriously and truly gave it my all, sometimes more than I was able, so I tried on my part at least. I hate that things ended up the way(s) that they did but I just couldnt handle always being the strong one. For years and years! (smile) Ill stop rambling. -CC
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Its been like 7 years since we've talked Do you remember we used to be pen pals? Lori fabiani...I came across your letters and remembered that my boyfriend at the time didn't want me to write you...He's gone and so much has happened...will you write to me again?
My address ia Lori fabiani 642 north Erin ave
Tucson az 85711
Have I ever been in a loving relationship? Letter explains some of this believe it or not LOL and I started it yesterday on the 16th before reading this blog entry. I swear. I do believe had the few long relationships I had been truly full of love and acceptance instead of just me taking care of someone and never being able to be weak on my part if need be, then Id never have left those people. But the bad outweighed the good after 5-6 yrs in one ordeal and I had seriously and truly gave it my all, sometimes more than I was able, so I tried on my part at least. I hate that things ended up the way(s) that they did but I just couldnt handle always being the strong one. For years and years! (smile) Ill stop rambling. -CC