Multiple reasons. For one, I attended this monsters trial. I watched him sit at the defendant table, shackled because he attacked a bailiff.
I listened to testimony. I saw photos which I will never be able to get out of my mind.
I read the news (much of which can still be found online despite the age of this story).
You see, the murder he committed has had very long reaching implications on many people.
His precious Justine was frankly terrified of him at the time to listen to the stories in court.
This is not someone who deserves a second chance. Yes, I knew his victim, we were neighbors for a number of years. The man was quirky, but helped me out in a heartbeat had I ever needed it. One year, he and a fellow that was living with him shoveled out my car multiple times over a winter. When I had a broken leg, Ron carried my groceries up. He kept a really nice garden out front, beautifying the neighborhood. Our blogging monster here not only killed him, he chopped up his body and left pieces in bins around town. He then decided to empty out the mans apartment, steal his car and was ultimately caught driving that same stolen car.
I can understand, and to a point even forgive the murder... It is the monstrous actions afterward that have left me angry for years. The man lay partially dismembered in my apartment building for days. Imagine your shock and anger finding out someone you knew was bludgeoned, chopped up and left as trash. Not only left as trash, but left in pieces in a bathtub literally yards from where you slept at night. Would you think that person deserves a second chance?
If his beloved Justine was so wonderful, why did he not listen when she and her family told him to go to the police? He had DAYS after the fact. As I write this, I realize not only is he a monster, but just an idiot to boot. Too stupid and too violent to function in normal society. If you'd like to get some info on his trial, and all of the circus surrounding it, a simple search of Updegrave murder in any search engine will bring up a pretty substantial number of stories that were written during the trial. The part justine and her family is particularly telling as to the utter monster this man is/was.
I don't care if he ignores me. I will always have the option to write letters to the state about him, reminding every politician, warden or anyone responsible for his keeping of what a monster he is, and making sure he never, ever gets out of that hole.
His every sadness, and every crap thing that happens to his family are karma, plain and simple. Everything that happens to his loved ones is brought on by his previous actions.
That was very deep! It hurts my heart to feel your pain. My daughter's father is doing time and was just sentenced. He is only 31 and has a long road ahead of him. I can't fathom what life is like in there, all the mistreatment and looking behind your back daily. I know there are people in there that have did some really harmful things to people but there are some good people in there that do not deserve to be locked down. I am still personally trying to cope with not feeling down everyday when I think about him and you all that are given harsh sentences for crimes that do not equal up. The whole system is jacked and configured to give black men longer sentences than any other race.
All I can is I am praying for you all and as Tupac said it best "keep your head up" as I said it best "you are not forgotten".
P.S. I know life in may be tough but I want you to know life in the free world is tough to. Look who is running for President! The terrorism, the killings all around the world! We have are battles out here to, it aint easy either way you look at it.
Hello Trevin, you might not remember me, but you sexually molested my 3 year old daughter. You are an evil human being, maybe not your fault, your mother was a Crack whore, not your fault. I have been dealt alot of shitty cards in my life as well, but guess what, I would NEVER put my hands on a baby! I'll pray for you because you have to forgive to be forgiven. You need to stay where you are and pay for the devastation you have caused to me and mine and quit acting like a victim! You have choices and you choose evil! And tell Gloria hello, hope she is getting her and Latoya life together,smdh!
Hello Milo, Your welcome! End of the year, damn, that's actually long. Are you just physically weak until then or what's "not normal"? Sorry for my ignorance, I don't really know anything about having strokes.. I read a little bit, but you write a lot about religion and I'm actually an atheist so I don't much to say there to be honest, sorryyy. But if you want to write more with me I'm happy to answer any questions you might have for me?:) Also, no need to be so formal! (With the "respectfully") I should actually be the one who does that, since I'm a lot younger than you.. :P
Soooo, you were asking me what kind of music I listen to. Everything, really. But mostly rock. I've been listening to a lot of indie rock lately (Arctic Monkeys!♥). And my favorite band is "The Pretty Reckless" (Alternative-rock band) and I also really like Marilyn Manson. My taste in music changes all the time to be honest, sometimes I listen to metal bands like Slipknot - the next day I'm obsessed with K-Pop (Korean Pop) bands. Wait - can you even listen to music in American prisons? I don't have a car yet. You can get your license with 16 in America, right? Here it's 18. And I doubt that I'll have the money for a car & license in 2 years so that has to wait. And now some more or less interesting information about me... :P - I don't have any siblings (I sometimes wish I had an older brother though.) and live with my mum and her boyfriend in a small townhouse. We actually moved to Switzerland because of him, before that I lived in Germany until I was 12. - I'm vegan. (Just had to put that in here because everyone jokes about how vegans always have to tell everyone that they are vegans...:D) - I've always really liked Anime! I don't know if you know what that is so I'll explain~ They're basically just japanese Cartoons. :) Do you know Pokémon, Dragonball or something like that? - When I was little I believed in god and always prayed with my grandma. But now I'm an atheist.
Sooo, I don't know what else to write to be honest. Hope to hear from you soon:) ~Jamie
Hah - Go me! Always with the good questions. :P I just read your "What's in a name?" article and guesses where the names come from. It was fun, but I'm probably wrong with everything. The labyrinths/mazes look so cool! They remind me of brains. I actually did them and it took me foreveeeer (and I cheated a little, starting from the "End" side... Hehe. :x). Especially since I don't have printer, so I had to trace my path with my finger, lol. You said one of them has advice in it? I didn't really get that. Maybe because I couldn't draw in it. :( But thanks for sending them! They're really, really cool. How old where you in 4th grade when you started doing them? We have a different school system here so I don't really know. Do you draw them for other prisoners sometimes too? Don't worry, I don't really get offended at anything, haha. I bet you don't really either. You seem to be a really chill person too. But you're funnier than me. :D Is Florida very multicultural in general or why did you think so? Mhh, I don't know much about politics either, but I know that definitly wouldn't want him as the leader of my country. But that's probably why he's there - to make you vote for Hillary, because she's the lesser of two evils. I actually liked Bernie Sanders. And nope - I wasn't born there yet. :D My birth date is 29th March 2000. Ewww, math. :P I prefer languages. And history. We can choose like a main subject in our school, mine is Art. I really liked drawing when I was younger, but now I just chose it because I didn't like the other subjects. Lately I became interested in Psychology as well! I'm probably going to choose it as my optional subject next year. But I'm particulary interested in criminal psychology. If that doesn't change in the next three years (that how long I'm still in school), maybe I'll study it in University. :) You said that if they think what they do is right, they won't want to change. I want to become someone who changes their ways of thinking, you know? And I know that I'll probably get disappointed because as you said, I really have a kind heart. Too kind sometimes. But I'd like to help everyone that I can to become a better person. I'm afraid I didn't really find what you wanted me to look for. But I don't believe that you're a completely bad person. Even when I know what you did - well, at least the direction. "1ST DG MUR/PREMED. OR ATT." - Thanks internet. Mind telling me more about that? My life style...I dont think it's that interesting but of course I'll answer your questions and add some things that come to my mind I guess. I don't have a part-time job, no. I tried helping in a bakery once but it was much too stressful. And I realized I'm way too shy and awkward to sell things, haha. Sometimes I walk the dog of my neighbours to get a little extra money though.
I'll answer more in another letter, ran out of space again - whoops!
Hey, The names are so creative! Sometimes really disrespectful but oh well, still funny. ;) But who even comes up with the names? Does one random person have the idea and just spreads it everywhere? And I forgot to ask in my last letter - Do the officers also call the prisoners by their nicknames? Or just their real ones?
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I listened to testimony. I saw photos which I will never be able to get out of my mind.
I read the news (much of which can still be found online despite the age of this story).
You see, the murder he committed has had very long reaching implications on many people.
His precious Justine was frankly terrified of him at the time to listen to the stories in court.
This is not someone who deserves a second chance. Yes, I knew his victim, we were neighbors for a number of years. The man was quirky, but helped me out in a heartbeat had I ever needed it. One year, he and a fellow that was living with him shoveled out my car multiple times over a winter. When I had a broken leg, Ron carried my groceries up. He kept a really nice garden out front, beautifying the neighborhood. Our blogging monster here not only killed him, he chopped up his body and left pieces in bins around town. He then decided to empty out the mans apartment, steal his car and was ultimately caught driving that same stolen car.
I can understand, and to a point even forgive the murder... It is the monstrous actions afterward that have left me angry for years. The man lay partially dismembered in my apartment building for days. Imagine your shock and anger finding out someone you knew was bludgeoned, chopped up and left as trash. Not only left as trash, but left in pieces in a bathtub literally yards from where you slept at night. Would you think that person deserves a second chance?
If his beloved Justine was so wonderful, why did he not listen when she and her family told him to go to the police? He had DAYS after the fact. As I write this, I realize not only is he a monster, but just an idiot to boot. Too stupid and too violent to function in normal society. If you'd like to get some info on his trial, and all of the circus surrounding it, a simple search of Updegrave murder in any search engine will bring up a pretty substantial number of stories that were written during the trial. The part justine and her family is particularly telling as to the utter monster this man is/was.
I don't care if he ignores me. I will always have the option to write letters to the state about him, reminding every politician, warden or anyone responsible for his keeping of what a monster he is, and making sure he never, ever gets out of that hole.
His every sadness, and every crap thing that happens to his family are karma, plain and simple. Everything that happens to his loved ones is brought on by his previous actions.
All I can is I am praying for you all and as Tupac said it best "keep your head up" as I said it best "you are not forgotten".
P.S. I know life in may be tough but I want you to know life in the free world is tough to. Look who is running for President! The terrorism, the killings all around the world! We have are battles out here to, it aint easy either way you look at it.
Brittany.
Your welcome! End of the year, damn, that's actually long. Are you just physically weak until then or what's "not normal"? Sorry for my ignorance, I don't really know anything about having strokes..
I read a little bit, but you write a lot about religion and I'm actually an atheist so I don't much to say there to be honest, sorryyy.
But if you want to write more with me I'm happy to answer any questions you might have for me?:)
Also, no need to be so formal! (With the "respectfully") I should actually be the one who does that, since I'm a lot younger than you.. :P
Hope you're doing well
~Jamie
Soooo, you were asking me what kind of music I listen to. Everything, really. But mostly rock. I've been listening to a lot of indie rock lately (Arctic Monkeys!♥). And my favorite band is "The Pretty Reckless" (Alternative-rock band) and I also really like Marilyn Manson. My taste in music changes all the time to be honest, sometimes I listen to metal bands like Slipknot - the next day I'm obsessed with K-Pop (Korean Pop) bands. Wait - can you even listen to music in American prisons?
I don't have a car yet. You can get your license with 16 in America, right? Here it's 18. And I doubt that I'll have the money for a car & license in 2 years so that has to wait.
And now some more or less interesting information about me... :P
- I don't have any siblings (I sometimes wish I had an older brother though.) and live with my mum and her boyfriend in a small townhouse. We actually moved to Switzerland because of him, before that I lived in Germany until I was 12.
- I'm vegan. (Just had to put that in here because everyone jokes about how vegans always have to tell everyone that they are vegans...:D)
- I've always really liked Anime! I don't know if you know what that is so I'll explain~
They're basically just japanese Cartoons. :) Do you know Pokémon, Dragonball or something like that?
- When I was little I believed in god and always prayed with my grandma. But now I'm an atheist.
Sooo, I don't know what else to write to be honest.
Hope to hear from you soon:)
~Jamie
Hah - Go me! Always with the good questions. :P I just read your "What's in a name?" article and guesses where the names come from. It was fun, but I'm probably wrong with everything.
The labyrinths/mazes look so cool! They remind me of brains. I actually did them and it took me foreveeeer (and I cheated a little, starting from the "End" side... Hehe. :x). Especially since I don't have printer, so I had to trace my path with my finger, lol. You said one of them has advice in it? I didn't really get that. Maybe because I couldn't draw in it. :( But thanks for sending them! They're really, really cool.
How old where you in 4th grade when you started doing them? We have a different school system here so I don't really know.
Do you draw them for other prisoners sometimes too?
Don't worry, I don't really get offended at anything, haha. I bet you don't really either. You seem to be a really chill person too. But you're funnier than me. :D
Is Florida very multicultural in general or why did you think so?
Mhh, I don't know much about politics either, but I know that definitly wouldn't want him as the leader of my country. But that's probably why he's there - to make you vote for Hillary, because she's the lesser of two evils. I actually liked Bernie Sanders.
And nope - I wasn't born there yet. :D My birth date is 29th March 2000.
Ewww, math. :P I prefer languages. And history. We can choose like a main subject in our school, mine is Art. I really liked drawing when I was younger, but now I just chose it because I didn't like the other subjects. Lately I became interested in Psychology as well! I'm probably going to choose it as my optional subject next year. But I'm particulary interested in criminal psychology. If that doesn't change in the next three years (that how long I'm still in school), maybe I'll study it in University. :)
You said that if they think what they do is right, they won't want to change. I want to become someone who changes their ways of thinking, you know? And I know that I'll probably get disappointed because as you said, I really have a kind heart. Too kind sometimes. But I'd like to help everyone that I can to become a better person.
I'm afraid I didn't really find what you wanted me to look for. But I don't believe that you're a completely bad person. Even when I know what you did - well, at least the direction. "1ST DG MUR/PREMED. OR ATT." - Thanks internet. Mind telling me more about that?
My life style...I dont think it's that interesting but of course I'll answer your questions and add some things that come to my mind I guess. I don't have a part-time job, no. I tried helping in a bakery once but it was much too stressful. And I realized I'm way too shy and awkward to sell things, haha. Sometimes I walk the dog of my neighbours to get a little extra money though.
I'll answer more in another letter, ran out of space again - whoops!
~Jamie
The names are so creative! Sometimes really disrespectful but oh well, still funny. ;)
But who even comes up with the names? Does one random person have the idea and just spreads it everywhere?
And I forgot to ask in my last letter - Do the officers also call the prisoners by their nicknames? Or just their real ones?
Hope you're doing well,
Jamie