perks turned into methadone and things got really bad, she became addicted. it was to the point whre I didn't even know her, I watched my mom die while she was still alive. on the night of my sisters 27th birthday I decided to watch my 2 week old nephew at my sisters house in the next city over while my sister went out for her birthday. my mom stayed at home with my daughter and my neice. at this point I knew my mom was really bad with the pills and I never wanted to leave her alone, so luckily I had a good friend who would tay with my mom at the house when I wasn't around. everyone loved my mom so it wasn't a big deal to stay with her. well that night they all made beds on the living room floor and watched movies till they fell asleep. my daughter who was 1 and a half at he time woke uo crying in the middle of he night and my frind tried to wake my mom up... ther was no waking her up, she was gone. that was the worst night of my life. I lost my mom my best friend my everything, I lost myself that day and it took me a very long time to get me back. I pray for you and your mother in her time of illness and your time of need. I hope you have someone in prison with you who u can talk to and who can help you get through it, it really helps to have someone who has lost a mother as well. no one knows the pain unless they have been through it themselves. I tried googling you to see if I could find anything but I couldn't, I did however find your brothers facebook account and I did see pictures of your neice , how cute is she? and I love the name. im currently 7 months pregnant with my first son. his name is going to be either Giovanni Anthony or Giuseppe Anthony . well hope you write back, god bless
Hi Robert, so ive been sitting here for about an hour reading all your blogs, I can say you definitely caught my interest with your writing. but this one I felt I had to respond, I am so sorry your mom is sick, I lost my mom in 2008 when I was only 19 yrs old, she was only 47 , she left behind 2 daughters (my sister and I) also two granddaughters and a grandson, also I was pregnant with my second daughter at the time I just didn't get the chance to tell her yet. I cant imagine the anxiety you live with knowing that your mom is sick and not doing well, my mom was diagnosed with lupus when she was in her early 30s also when she was in her early 20s she had a brain tumor that was removed. well a few years before she passed away it came back , only this time with all her other illnesses her body wasn't strong enough to endure the 12 hour surgery it would have taken to remove the tumor. my mom was such a fighter, such a strong Italian woman, she raised my sister and I with no help from our fathers and she did a damn good job, we never went without, and although I know there were times that she struggled and had to swallow her pride to get what we needed she did. (and im sure you can relate its not easy for us Italians to do that) haha.. but it sounds like our moms went though similar tribulations. my mom was married when she was like 17 to my sisters dad, (im not sure if uou atre in the feds but I know he was in p.a for a while his name is Richie gillis do u know him?) had my sister at 21 and then my sisters dad proceeded to be in and out of prison for pretty much my whole entire lifetime. then when my mom was 28 she had me, my dad was a heroin addict ,a theif and was in and out of jail my wjole entire life as well.. I never had a relationship with him until about 3 yrs ago, he is out of jail and has been clan for the past 3 years. he doesn't have much but he definitely tries to do whatever he can for me. I held a grudge for a very long time but I decided to forgive him.no one will ever take my moms place though. it has been a tough 7 years with out her. I went from a pregnant 19 yr old with a 1 and a half year old daughter, basically throwin into the world and didn't have a clue what to do. I didn't have the guidance, that adult figure in my life to teach me how to be an adult. all I had was my kids. it took me a very long time to come to terms with my mom being gone, and honestly I still cry almost everyday for her, the pain gets easier to live with over time but it never goes away. I miss my mom like crazy, she was so funny and she just had the best personality. but anyways I kind of lost track of where I was going with this.. so im not sure if you know what lupis is but it is an auto immune disease and there are many different kinds that can effect different part of your body. my mother was in chronic pain for weeks at a time.. she eventually started going to a pain clinic where they would give her percosets and pain kilers like that, well the per
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