After living through so much tragedy, you share such incredible beauty Jeremy! Your words burrow deep into my heart and awaken so much in me. You touch me so deeply that I feel drawn to respond to you in a more heartfelt way than I communicate with anyone else in my life. You have a way of touching me like no one else does & I thank you for that!
I learned a long time ago (through my own personal near tragedy) to not commit myself 100% to any love, any goal, any situation or person, for the sheer danger of losing myself. So it's incredibly refreshing to read your words and see such complete commitment to life and all it has to offer, regardless of the consequences. I can't decide though, whether it is you that suffers more deeply by sacrificing your freedom for such a great part of your life, or if it is me who, by never throwing all caution to the wind and living entirely in the moment with complete commitment as you have time and time again. Sadly...(as a poor reflection on our society) I suspect it is me as when we're on our death beds I'll be saying I had a good life, but took the safe options while you, although you've done it incredibly tough (unimaginably tough!!), you have truly lived and experienced a passion for all things that I can only imagine from my safety zone.
I guess that's why I'm so drawn to your words
Take care my friend. My thoughts are with you. Nicki X
Hi Jeremy, it's been quite a while since I've contacted you & I realised today that I MISS YOU. Thankfully I can always find you here. :)
As you know, I appreciate these links that you share. Although always incredibly troubling in their content, it's great to see an extension of your words to give further insight into your plight.
As I was reading the 'enough is enough' article just now, I was thinking again about how incredibly difficult the issue of mental health in prisons is to address (although I acknowledge of course these articles state collectively that there IS no addressing of the problem at ADX). I realise of course that solitary confinement exacerbates the negative effects of mental health, but the problem is compounded further as Even IF adequate mental health treatment was available in prisons, if there were enough Psychologists available and funded to take care of all who needed their services while incarcerated, the nature of the environment would render a lot of that help ineffective anyway. A prison is not a place that can physically provide sufficient healing, by its very nature, the prison environment is a major contributor to mental health. As someone who likes to search for solutions I find your situation overwhelming and your strength to not only face it, but do all you can to change it - gives you my full admiration. I believe I have told you this before, but we can all do with reminders from time to time.
I can feel your strength Jeremy, you're certainly one of the people I most admire & find inspiration in!
"those who believe fear neither harm nor injustice" sura 72:13 "God has allowed it to look like Jesus died on the cross, but He certainly did not" sura 4:157
there is no need for me to quote scripture i did not have to conform, i do not need to resist my thoughts in order to obey. that is the purest form. lol
it just came naturally. remember i did not read the bible until i was 30. i already had plenty of time to make mistakes.. drink alcohol, get tattoo, or any of the million things scripture says Masters cannot do.
i barely pass.. but naturally. if you know the test and know the answer.. but only mimic the action.. it is not of the heart. that is fraud.
seeing what true mercy is. "God has concluded ALL in unbelief" Romans 11:32 "so that He may have mercy on ALL" equally
guilty of one sin, guilty of all. that is why busybodies get same punishment as murderers.. they commit their soul to their victims 1 Peter 4:19
there is no need for me to interpret or wrestle with the word. it seems impossible for anyone to comprehend actually being shown visions. they read about them in the bible
but anyone saying they know for a fact the earth will soon implode is compared to chicken little.
the scriptures say clearly a comforter will come first.. will show what is written.. not speak of himself. "with the shout of Arkangel THEN you see Jesus coming back" 1 Thes 4:16.. what comes first? where is the shout? from earth.. you hear a shout then see His return.
best verse ever: Phil 2:3 'treat others AS IF they are better than you' too bad everyone doesnt do that. and finally.. yes i know how to eat from the center of the crop.
first you must know the number to know the center.. Micah is one of the center books. and just like Abrah becomes Abraham and Jonah becomes Jonathan.. Micah is Michael.
NT has 27 epistles 260 chapters 7959 verses 181,253 words 383,380 letters
eat the word "doctrine is bread" Matt 16:8 and as you mention the strong meat of the word is what sheeple should be eating but they still drink milk like babies "babes in christ" "milk of the word" 1 Peter 2:2
connecting the dots is not important if you come to a door.. having the keys is nice. we do not make the doors or opportunity and the illusion of freewill choice is more duality circle jerk nonsense
nothing goes against god god has never lost one inch. one battle. lost nothing.
everything is purely god's will nothing is outside of god god is omnipresent. if sin existed anywhere.. god would be there. god is not absent from anywhere.. seen or unseen.
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I learned a long time ago (through my own personal near tragedy) to not commit myself 100% to any love, any goal, any situation or person, for the sheer danger of losing myself. So it's incredibly refreshing to read your words and see such complete commitment to life and all it has to offer, regardless of the consequences. I can't decide though, whether it is you that suffers more deeply by sacrificing your freedom for such a great part of your life, or if it is me who, by never throwing all caution to the wind and living entirely in the moment with complete commitment as you have time and time again. Sadly...(as a poor reflection on our society) I suspect it is me as when we're on our death beds I'll be saying I had a good life, but took the safe options while you, although you've done it incredibly tough (unimaginably tough!!), you have truly lived and experienced a passion for all things that I can only imagine from my safety zone.
I guess that's why I'm so drawn to your words
Take care my friend. My thoughts are with you. Nicki X
As you know, I appreciate these links that you share. Although always incredibly troubling in their content, it's great to see an extension of your words to give further insight into your plight.
As I was reading the 'enough is enough' article just now, I was thinking again about how incredibly difficult the issue of mental health in prisons is to address (although I acknowledge of course these articles state collectively that there IS no addressing of the problem at ADX). I realise of course that solitary confinement exacerbates the negative effects of mental health, but the problem is compounded further as Even IF adequate mental health treatment was available in prisons, if there were enough Psychologists available and funded to take care of all who needed their services while incarcerated, the nature of the environment would render a lot of that help ineffective anyway. A prison is not a place that can physically provide sufficient healing, by its very nature, the prison environment is a major contributor to mental health. As someone who likes to search for solutions I find your situation overwhelming and your strength to not only face it, but do all you can to change it - gives you my full admiration. I believe I have told you this before, but we can all do with reminders from time to time.
I can feel your strength Jeremy, you're certainly one of the people I most admire & find inspiration in!
Take care. I will write again soon
Nicki
"God has allowed it to look like Jesus died on the cross, but He certainly did not" sura 4:157
there is no need for me to quote scripture
i did not have to conform, i do not need to resist my thoughts in order to obey.
that is the purest form.
lol
it just came naturally.
remember i did not read the bible until i was 30. i already had plenty of time to make mistakes.. drink alcohol, get tattoo, or any of the million things scripture says Masters cannot do.
i barely pass.. but naturally. if you know the test and know the answer.. but only mimic the action.. it is not of the heart.
that is fraud.
seeing what true mercy is.
"God has concluded ALL in unbelief" Romans 11:32 "so that He may have mercy on ALL" equally
guilty of one sin, guilty of all.
that is why busybodies get same punishment as murderers.. they commit their soul to their victims 1 Peter 4:19
there is no need for me to interpret or wrestle with the word. it seems impossible for anyone to comprehend actually being shown visions. they read about them in the bible
but anyone saying they know for a fact the earth will soon implode is compared to chicken little.
the scriptures say clearly a comforter will come first.. will show what is written.. not speak of himself.
"with the shout of Arkangel THEN you see Jesus coming back" 1 Thes 4:16.. what comes first?
where is the shout? from earth.. you hear a shout then see His return.
best verse ever:
Phil 2:3 'treat others AS IF they are better than you'
too bad everyone doesnt do that.
and finally.. yes i know how to eat from the center of the crop.
first you must know the number to know the center.. Micah is one of the center books.
and just like Abrah becomes Abraham and Jonah becomes Jonathan.. Micah is Michael.
NT has 27 epistles
260 chapters
7959 verses
181,253 words
383,380 letters
eat the word
"doctrine is bread" Matt 16:8
and as you mention the strong meat of the word is what sheeple should be eating
but they still drink milk like babies
"babes in christ"
"milk of the word" 1 Peter 2:2
connecting the dots is not important
if you come to a door.. having the keys is nice.
we do not make the doors or opportunity
and the illusion of freewill choice is more duality circle jerk nonsense
nothing goes against god
god has never lost one inch.
one battle.
lost nothing.
everything is purely god's will
nothing is outside of god
god is omnipresent. if sin existed anywhere.. god would be there.
god is not absent from anywhere.. seen or unseen.