12-23-12

To all of my readers:

So many things have been on my mind lately that it's hard to put together coherent thoughts based on any one subject, so I'm just going to let my heart speak, and hope that the readers can relate.

I've been in a constant state of self reflection and as the days, nights, hours, weeks, and months pass, and turn into years I find that not much in life is constant, I watch the news, and see the ignorance, violence, heartlessness, and lack of care; but then I also see the communities that come together in love, peace, harmony, and wisdom. I becomes so difficult to focus on the world's pace when you are behind these walls of seclusion, and only see the world - hear the world from others' points of view, that at times it feels helpless, and not worth the strength it takes to commit to the outside world. Maybe commit is the wrong word, maybe I should say plan - so many people plan their "free world" lives while they're still in prison that it makes me wonder, how can they make a realistic plan of success when they have no true idea of how the "free world" is operating. Think about it, if I told you that in the past ten years that nothing has changed, would it be logical? Okay, what about if I was on the outside, and you were in prison, and every time we talked I told you how bad the economy was, how there was no jobs, etc, but then you see on the news that there's constant job growth.

Let me change up the subject, hopefully you don't mind. How do you judge people? Do you think about what others say about them, or do you go off what you see? With these questions in mind, what if you've never met a person, and all of a sudden you received a letter and they were asking for a friendship, they were giving you a piece of themselves in hope of receiving a word or two back? What would be your reaction? I asked these questions because so many men and women, reach out for the unknown, not in desperation, but in hope, the hope that a friendship awaits, or a foundation for more.

These prisons make and break relationships, friendships, and foundations. They can also open the door to friendships, relationships, and foundations. I've been a witness to the blessings one can receive while in prison - in regards to finding that special someone. Well, that is just some of what's on my mind, and heart.

Once again I want to change the subject... I hope this isn't a problem.

The people that I am forced to live with and around are so different from me that at times I feel that I'll go crazy, but I'm mature enough to understand that no one will like everyone they meet, and everyone has a different way of conducting themselves. I am always myself no matter what the situation, but at times I find that it is best to be able to adapt to a situation in order to survive without hassle; I equate that to a chameleon changing its colors to survive being hunted, or caught... sometimes in order to get along you just have to get away. I learned a long time ago - mind your business, and focus on bettering you and you'll be okay. Before I continue, though, I want to say this... The Wisconsin state prison system has many problems, but it is not like the prisons in other states where you worry about whether you'll live to see the next day or fighting to protect your man or womanhood, so don't let the media or movies put that in your mind. The system is filled with prejudiced officers, unfair/non-existent ways to defend yourself against officers' claims, 99% of the time if an officer's "ticket" said you did it, no matter how much evidence you have to say otherwise, you did it, and it's always the same reason, "the officer has no reason to lie", that's not true, but as a prisoner you're better off preparing yourself for defeat... but by no means does that mean don't stand up for yourself - utilize your opportunities to fight back in a legit way.

Well, my dear readers, I guess I've jumped around enough, and I've unburdened my heart and mind enough to open up space for new things to take hold, so I'll prepare to close, but before I do I want to say a couple of things.

To all of those people who browse our sites, read our pages, but don't comment, it would be a blessing to get feedback from you, or in the least have you tell others about what you've seen. I personally ask you to tell others about the site; a lot of us are using our pages to reach out to the outside world, and if no one responds or gives us a hint of what would make the pages more likeable, we just continue trying new things until we feel it's right.

I know I am open to all feedback, advice, topics, etc... I am sure that with all of the things going on in the world, in our personal lives, our friends' personal lives, that there is something we can discuss, something we need help with. There is no shame in sharing emotions, thoughts, wants, etc. With that said I'll close this off.

OH! Be looking for some new poetry in my next post, I would've posted some this time but I didn't want to overload anyone's mind, more than I already have.