Hi Teddy, Thanks for writing! I finished the transcription for your post. If someone wants to help you they could also go to https://www.municipalrecordsearch.com/dallastx for an updated list of citations that require payment. They'll need your license number (which you already provided) and they'll need your birth date too, which I'll share for you because I know it...9/24/73. Don't give up on your dream-it hasn't been erased, it's just on hold for right now! Talk to you soon, Melanie
I am not sure what to say besides: I am listening. I feel your pain with you. I know the feeling of wanting to heal with someone, and having to heal on your own - and that powerlessness of not knowing how/if their healing is going.
I don't want to interfere with the important process of acceptance, but some thoughts that also came to mind were: How can you use this pain to accomplish your goals of living a functional, responsible, and safe life? How can you help people *like* your ex-wife and daughter to heal, with the idea that that means someone out there is helping them heal too?
Everyday I question why God decided to allow solitary confinement to grow so popular in the US. I can't find any justification for it in my head. It extracts all forms of beauty, of love, of joy, of happiness from a human's heart. The jailers are more sick than the ones they lock up. It is cruel without a doubt. everyday I wake up and i know that while I am waking up to sun shining through my window and a free heart, thousands of men are waking up in the same concrete tomb that they have woken up to year after year. it breaks my heart it truly does. but i will fight everyday in anyway I can to stop this torture. Jesse you are a beautiful soul from what I have gathered from your writings. You are not a murderer but they have chosen to define you as such. you have such a goddamn beautiful soul. more than any prisoner whose writings I've read. There is something so different about you that I can't put my finger on. You have a form of pure love. It seems to me that you would sacrifice your whole being for someone or something that you love. Your love seeps through the walls of these prisons and it has reached my heart. You are eternal and you are beautiful. It hurts me to know that everyday you are being dehumanized but I hope that this universe gives you something to hold on to. Maybe in your next life you will be full of joy and freedom. Bless your heart Jesse. You are loved.
Solitary confinement is a DISGRACE to our common humanity. prisoners lose their right to live in a free SOCIETY. but no where in their sentence were they sentenced to cruel INSANITY. thousands of prisoners in this country are being buried alive and this is the most outrageous civil rights issue that is happening on American soil. Someone needs to report this to the FBI there needs to be investigations as to what really goes on in these prisons. Your strength is infinite and your work to fight segregation is so wonderful. I don't know anyone in prison but this issue grabbed me by the throat. Currently Wisconsin prisoners are holding a hunger strike to protest long term solitary confinement. I stand in solidarity with these prisoners and prisoners all around this country who are subject to the most INHUMANE conditions. I've been sending letters to people to demand DOC accountability. I wish I could just end it myself right now. The problem is, not enough people know how brutally the US treats its prisoners. It is one of the worst prison systems in the entire world. It needs to end. we need change and we need it NOW.
Troy, you are an innocent man and although the world doesn't know that, your loved ones do and so does God. God knows the truth and he has for some reason filled your life with sadness and pain. The writings you wrote have touched me deeply and I can feel the purity of your suffering. The government has inflicted such torture on you because they believe that you have committed horrendous crimes. I know that you have not and can sense the utmost sincerity and truthfulness of your words. I do not know you personally but feel like I can connect with you based off of the sheer humanness of your words. I find you to be a beautiful human being with a wonderful heart and although it may seem lonely I want you to know that the universe is always watching over you. And although it may take so much strength just to stay above the water know that there is an infinite pool of strength within your soul. Whenever you think there is no more within you, I am telling you that your heart is capable of anything. This life for you has been a cruel and painful one but the universe always evens out and in your next life you will have one full of love and joy. This world is unfair and it unfair that you have suffered such unthinkable suffering but know that you are beautiful and strong and pure and wonderful and there is sunshine within you. Much love and peace, stay strong and stay hopeful. Your spirit is resilient and such a pure heart like yours is meant for wonderful, magnificent things. Maybe not today, or tomorrow, but somewhere down the road. You are loved. You are loved. you are loved and for the people who don't know the truth of your innocence and have made your life a living hell, I am deeply regretful that they cannot see through their hatred. Their thirst for vengeance clouds their judgement and has resulted in your suffering. But truth and honesty will always overcome hate and your soul has the strength of a thousand suns. Keep on fighting on and know that there are people that know the true you. You are not a criminal, you are a human being, a friend, a lover. I pray for your happiness.
The "Nigger" or NGR issue is what this WODZ edition of New Generation Rising (NGR) is now refered to within our editorial/writing circle. If you have some sensitivity about use of the NGR word, you should be aware of the subject matter & language. What I mean is, you should read the series of posts related to the NGR issue, and comment to it. The subject & topic is as much about duíscussion & dialogue as it is about teaching, or sharing perspective.
The initial 3-4 sets or posts are to be the opening pages of NGR later. After transcription & editing, not only does what you transcribe go into the pages of NGR, but what yoz post in your comments may go into the comment/reply secction of NGR as well. This issue is what I call the multimedia edition of our prisoner zine series. Which is posting & writing the pages of our zines there on my blog, taking your transcriptions & comments, and putting that all into WODZ.
At the core of this edition of NGR, it was intended for this blog to reach a young generation on a more interactive and accessible medium, so subject matter like what you'll find in the NGR word titles is intended to be as much engaging, relevant, and in-tune, as it is raw. Honest & direct. It's something worth reading - for those with better things to do, like you. (5.25@9A.)
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Also, look for prompts or topic related questions under the NGR hashtag (') post titles. A #NGR is a que that the subject matter or ongoing theme is changing, or just fishing for more specific feedback from your comments.
The creative energy and conversation is largely focused on what is now the NGR word issue, as well as other related issues or racial identity, culture, and history. Both myself and xzyzst are still in research & development mode and writing as much as can be covered before posting it. Once the comments begin to reach me for reply, it's going to be interesting to see how this and following volumes of NGR come together. Lets see.
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If someone wants to help you they could also go to https://www.municipalrecordsearch.com/dallastx for an updated list of citations that require payment. They'll need your license number (which you already provided) and they'll need your birth date too, which I'll share for you because I know it...9/24/73. Don't give up on your dream-it hasn't been erased, it's just on hold for right now! Talk to you soon, Melanie
I am not sure what to say besides: I am listening. I feel your pain with you. I know the feeling of wanting to heal with someone, and having to heal on your own - and that powerlessness of not knowing how/if their healing is going.
I don't want to interfere with the important process of acceptance, but some thoughts that also came to mind were: How can you use this pain to accomplish your goals of living a functional, responsible, and safe life? How can you help people *like* your ex-wife and daughter to heal, with the idea that that means someone out there is helping them heal too?
Best,
Susan
Solitary confinement is a DISGRACE to our common humanity. prisoners lose their right to live in a free SOCIETY. but no where in their sentence were they sentenced to cruel INSANITY. thousands of prisoners in this country are being buried alive and this is the most outrageous civil rights issue that is happening on American soil. Someone needs to report this to the FBI there needs to be investigations as to what really goes on in these prisons. Your strength is infinite and your work to fight segregation is so wonderful. I don't know anyone in prison but this issue grabbed me by the throat. Currently Wisconsin prisoners are holding a hunger strike to protest long term solitary confinement. I stand in solidarity with these prisoners and prisoners all around this country who are subject to the most INHUMANE conditions. I've been sending letters to people to demand DOC accountability. I wish I could just end it myself right now. The problem is, not enough people know how brutally the US treats its prisoners. It is one of the worst prison systems in the entire world. It needs to end. we need change and we need it NOW.
The NGR Word issue
The "Nigger" or NGR issue is what this WODZ edition of New Generation Rising (NGR) is now refered to within our
editorial/writing circle. If you have some sensitivity about use of the NGR word, you should be aware of the subject
matter & language. What I mean is, you should read the series of posts related to the NGR issue, and comment to it. The
subject & topic is as much about duíscussion & dialogue as it is about teaching, or sharing perspective.
The initial 3-4 sets or posts are to be the opening pages of NGR later. After transcription & editing, not only does
what you transcribe go into the pages of NGR, but what yoz post in your comments may go into the comment/reply
secction of NGR as well. This issue is what I call the multimedia edition of our prisoner zine series. Which is
posting & writing the pages of our zines there on my blog, taking your transcriptions & comments, and putting
that all into WODZ.
At the core of this edition of NGR, it was intended for this blog to reach a young generation on a more interactive
and accessible medium, so subject matter like what you'll find in the NGR word titles is intended to be
as much engaging, relevant, and in-tune, as it is raw. Honest & direct. It's something worth reading - for
those with better things to do, like you.
(5.25@9A.)
(2 of 2)
Also, look for prompts or topic related questions under the NGR hashtag (') post titles. A #NGR is a que that the
subject matter or ongoing theme is changing, or just fishing for more specific feedback from your comments.
The creative energy and conversation is largely focused on what is now the NGR word issue, as well as other related
issues or racial identity, culture, and history.
Both myself and xzyzst are still in research & development mode and writing as much as can be covered before posting it.
Once the comments begin to reach me for reply, it's going to be interesting to see how this and following volumes of
NGR come together. Lets see.
WriteOrDieZine (WODZ)
Piankhi, editor