Hey Big Cuz ... was told of your writings and love it. Keep up the good work. Love reading your perspectives. You have got a talent, there's no doubt. I look forward to reading more. You take care of yourself!!!
Beautiful tribute to your mom Bobby and blogging can be a healing process for you. you have been a part of my life since you were around two years old and I seemed to be the only calming effect on you in church. years later I had another young person who used to kick me but eventually would come and sit with me. Many hugs and blessings-aunt Kay
Dear Tim, I hope this finds you well and in good spirits. It saddens me to read the last comment in regards to Bryce's upcoming parole hearing. Please tell Bryce I will be in contact.There are many of us that believe in his rehabilitation and support him. Thank you... Ms. B
Hi Byron, you are right, this post was filed under interview, when I click on it, two blogs come up: May 5, 2016 @Golgotha w/ Joe and April 18, 2016 @Golgotha w/ piankhi
I hope that was the information you needed. Have a good day as well as the collective, Julia
Im not about telling people what thay need to do, so like I said before, Im like, if people are already entrigued enough to go to betweenthebars.org, or have one of our prisoner zines fall into their lap, then we offer an unique perspective from where I am, and Im not saying to go pick up a bible, or join some religion, but we are saying within our projects to become more aware of ones self.
(#NGR):
#NGR is youth oriented, and we plan to engage our own, put these conversations and online ciphers into zine form and share the open dialogue with as many people as I possibly can, especially in prisons, Jails, and Juvenile Detention Centers because in order for a New Generation to rise in this moment, we must rise as one.
# NGR, New Generation Rising
XZ Im so there, let me go strike this up, man I could sure go for some Taco Bell right now, well, if them other lil Niggaz nextdoor aint burnt it down already, we cant walk too much further in the streets of America without being killed by cops, we need more than just guns now, and play mode on pause?
(4) This aint for you. As boys we went outside to play, and at the High School age, we was still playing, but the games changed, because now the toy guns became real guns, real drugs, real blood exchange, real enemies, real niggaz and some real bitches, real police, and real bullets, real bad credit, real felony strikes, real baby and real babies mama.
(Mental Health and Black Boys):
XZ So why are lil niggaz nextdoor taking too long to not view life as a game?
P Thats one of those psychological things doctors write about, you know, Mental Health is still a new and developing thing, and things like plantation psychosis is not just a lil Nigga thing, its a Human thing, I think it plays out to our detriment in full view because people take advantage of us because people take advantage of us because even girls know that they mature faster than us in the hood... We're immature.
XZ The cops take advantage of our immaturaty, so-called faith based groups, and people do the photo op's with children when it's so-called time to help our youth, but...
P You never see them with us, or the homies,
XZ Churches go on global missions and take Gods Love, resources and money all over the world, but wont spend a second with the lil Niggaz down the street and around the corner from the church, or community center designed for children, and not us lil niggaz next door.
(7 of 9)
(Stuck in Play Mode):
P I've seen studies done that showed how between boys and girls, when put in a room with a toy gun, it was impossible for boys not to touch the gun, because we are wired in that way, but in my experience, I've yet to see us grow into adolescence in view of that image, and other things, that should no longer be concidered a play thang; so to answer your question man, what I do with this project is not for people still stuck in play mode.
XZ Take us home youngsta,
P All I can do is continue to be there for those that are transcending into awareness mode about whats to come, when play mode turns into literally sitting here waiting to be killed by poison being injected into my body because lil niggaz nextdoor has made the list of those that are no longer welcomed on this planet. Black Lives Never Mattered.
We struggle for equality in life only to learn that some of us are being reared in a society that has made up its mind that the only method of equal use available forr these lil niggaz nextdoor is a method of execution, and that's why niggaz need to stop playing, because we're the only ones playing.
P It was anger first because, I saw that, and the police just got away with it, I even had an uncle that got his teeth knocked out, and they was just getting away with it, I responded, fed up, opportunistic, all Bets was off, s I felt alot of things, sometimes I felt all of them at the same time
(4 of 9)
XZ I get that
P What? I couldn't hear what you said.
XZ I said, I was there too, and I get that, stay there tho, because we hear people say, "But thay are destroying their own communities". P I mean, being there, you realize that niggaz can get pretty hungry in all that, and I wanted some Taco Bell, but it was on fire, so I had to go way over into another area and spend my money at a Taco Bell outside of my hood, so it aint like I didn't... you know...
XZ Experience first hand... (both laughing)
P Yeah, exactly, so we really didnt need for outsiders to explain all that shit, lol.
(Our version of reality): XZ The overall thought, for us, was that, the police was supposed serve all of us in our community, but they dogged us and treated us like it wasn't our community, so, since we anre't concidered equal members of a community where we live, work, spend money and die, well then, this community will be reduced to ashes until we all experience a bar of that equality stuff others always only talk about, and I truly believe that some people intentionally avoid our experiences with this reality, or our version of the reality we all share, again, not equal.
(5 of 9)
(The Superbowl, Academy Awards, The Grammys):
P Man, Im glad Beyoncé did that at the Super Bowl Half Time Show, when millions around the world was whatching, and nobody saw that music video comming...
XZ The combination of Jada Pinket-Smith and Chris Rock was brilliant, and put society on blast at the Academy Awards this year, I know that Harriet Tubman is somewhere glowing, because we aint never going to stop until we all are realistically free.
P But it was Kendrick Lamar at this years Grammy Awards that conveyed my story, "We Gon Be Alright", as long as lil Niggaz nextdoor continue to transcend into adulthood inspite the external, and internal bullshit that hinder our proper growth and development. (Gamer Boyz):
XZ I'm 16, 17 years old in 2016, everything on sale(?), in and out, membership on point, and aint trying to hear no Mountain top speech, a hitter, F tha Police, and a wierdo to haters, infact, I'm you, so tell me, why should I engage you at your blog, or even pick up one of your Write Or Die Zines?
P Probably, if you really look at it, being me, at that age, none of it has nothing to do with me because I was too immature to even get a Job at Taco Bell, or Del Taco because they asked me to cut my hair. I was already making enough money, but girls liked my hair; They was like: "oooh, can I braid your hair?" I'm just being honest, if you're still playing,
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You take care of yourself!!!
Rock
I hope this finds you well and in good spirits. It saddens me to read the last comment in regards to Bryce's upcoming parole hearing. Please tell Bryce I will be in contact.There are many of us that believe in his rehabilitation and support him.
Thank you...
Ms. B
you are right, this post was filed under interview, when I click on it, two blogs come up:
May 5, 2016 @Golgotha w/ Joe and
April 18, 2016 @Golgotha w/ piankhi
I hope that was the information you needed.
Have a good day as well as the collective,
Julia
(8 of 9)
Im not about telling people what thay need to do, so like I said before, Im
like, if people are already entrigued enough to go to betweenthebars.org,
or have one of our prisoner zines fall into their lap, then we offer an unique
perspective from where I am, and Im not saying to go pick up a bible,
or join some religion, but we are saying within our projects to become
more aware of ones self.
(#NGR):
#NGR is youth oriented, and we plan to engage our own, put these
conversations and online ciphers into zine form and share the open dialogue
with as many people as I possibly can, especially in prisons, Jails, and
Juvenile Detention Centers because in order for a New Generation to rise in this
moment, we must rise as one.
# NGR, New Generation Rising
XZ Im so there, let me go strike this up, man I could
sure go for some Taco Bell right now, well, if them other lil Niggaz nextdoor
aint burnt it down already, we cant walk too much further in the streets
of America without being killed by cops, we need more than just guns now,
and play mode on pause?
P For now, hell yeah.
(9 of 9) (sent: 4/10/16)
This aint for you. As boys we went outside to play, and at the High School
age, we was still playing, but the games changed, because now the toy
guns became real guns, real drugs, real blood exchange, real enemies,
real niggaz and some real bitches, real police, and real bullets, real
bad credit, real felony strikes, real baby and real babies mama.
(Mental Health and Black Boys):
XZ So why are lil niggaz nextdoor taking too long to not view life as a game?
P Thats one of those psychological things doctors write about, you know, Mental
Health is still a new and developing thing, and things like plantation psychosis
is not just a lil Nigga thing, its a Human thing, I think it plays out to
our detriment in full view because people take advantage of us because
people take advantage of us because even girls know that they mature faster
than us in the hood... We're immature.
XZ The cops take advantage of our immaturaty, so-called faith based groups, and people
do the photo op's with children when it's so-called time to help our youth, but...
P You never see them with us, or the homies,
XZ Churches go on global missions and take Gods Love, resources and money all
over the world, but wont spend a second with the lil Niggaz down the street and
around the corner from the church, or community center designed for children,
and not us lil niggaz next door.
(7 of 9)
(Stuck in Play Mode):
P I've seen studies done that showed how between boys and girls, when put in a
room with a toy gun, it was impossible for boys not to touch the
gun, because we are wired in that way, but in my experience, I've yet
to see us grow into adolescence in view of that image, and other things,
that should no longer be concidered a play thang; so to answer your
question man, what I do with this project is not for people still
stuck in play mode.
XZ Take us home youngsta,
P All I can do is continue to be there for those that are transcending into
awareness mode about whats to come, when play mode turns into
literally sitting here waiting to be killed by poison being injected into
my body because lil niggaz nextdoor has made the list of those that
are no longer welcomed on this planet. Black Lives Never Mattered.
We struggle for equality in life only to learn that some of us are
being reared in a society that has made up its mind that the
only method of equal use available forr these lil niggaz nextdoor is
a method of execution, and that's why niggaz need to stop playing,
because we're the only ones playing.
P It was anger first because, I saw that, and the police just got away
with it, I even had an uncle that got his teeth knocked out, and they
was just getting away with it, I responded, fed up, opportunistic, all
Bets was off, s I felt alot of things, sometimes I felt all of them at the same time
(4 of 9)
XZ I get that
P What? I couldn't hear what you said.
XZ I said, I was there too, and I get that, stay there tho, because
we hear people say, "But thay are destroying their own communities".
P I mean, being there, you realize that niggaz can get pretty hungry in all that,
and I wanted some Taco Bell, but it was on fire, so I had to go way
over into another area and spend my money at a Taco Bell outside
of my hood, so it aint like I didn't... you know...
XZ Experience first hand... (both laughing)
P Yeah, exactly, so we really didnt need for outsiders to explain all that shit, lol.
(Our version of reality):
XZ The overall thought, for us, was that, the police was supposed serve all of us
in our community, but they dogged us and treated us like it wasn't our community,
so, since we anre't concidered equal members of a community where we live,
work, spend money and die, well then, this community will be reduced to ashes
until we all experience a bar of that equality stuff others always only talk
about, and I truly believe that some people intentionally avoid our experiences
with this reality, or our version of the reality we all share, again, not equal.
(5 of 9)
(The Superbowl, Academy Awards, The Grammys):
P Man, Im glad Beyoncé did that at the Super Bowl Half Time Show, when millions
around the world was whatching, and nobody saw that music video comming...
XZ The combination of Jada Pinket-Smith and Chris Rock was brilliant, and put society
on blast at the Academy Awards this year, I know that Harriet Tubman is somewhere
glowing, because we aint never going to stop until we all are realistically free.
P But it was Kendrick Lamar at this years Grammy Awards that conveyed my story,
"We Gon Be Alright", as long as lil Niggaz nextdoor continue to transcend into
adulthood inspite the external, and internal bullshit that hinder our proper
growth and development.
(Gamer Boyz):
XZ I'm 16, 17 years old in 2016, everything on sale(?), in and out, membership on point, and aint
trying to hear no Mountain top speech, a hitter, F tha Police, and a wierdo to haters,
infact, I'm you, so tell me, why should I engage you at your blog, or even pick up
one of your Write Or Die Zines?
P Probably, if you really look at it, being me, at that age, none of it has nothing to do
with me because I was too immature to even get a Job at Taco Bell, or Del Taco
because they asked me to cut my hair. I was already making enough money, but
girls liked my hair; They was like: "oooh, can I braid your hair?"
I'm just being honest, if you're still playing,
(6 of 9)