My own personal research never ended, due to the fact that no matter how far back I trace the N-word, I learn a new balance of greatness about this negroid godlike race of people that is born and built to last, hence, my name, xzyzst (exist), for, how many times can one view generation after generation of this one amazing grade of people that survived multiple attempts of extinction, abuse and horror, where not even self distruction is able to prevail.
And then it hit me, by what measure do our ancestors at the bottom of slave ships, and ocean floors, view us arriving to circa 2017 shifting our energies and focus to making the word nigger public enemy #1?
I even heard people repeat a saying that goes:
"If you want to hide something from a black man, put it in a book"
As diabolical as that is, before the internet, the history of the N-word could only be found in a book-lexicon or some cataloged document, while we are being conditioned to hate ourselves, and eachother, and this one word, who, had the presence of mind, to the information that was available to those that misued us all? Who, looked into the future to teach us about ourselves?
2.
Studying our own History is a great move, but we didn't have the presence of mind to research what enslavers knew or should've known about the N-word because in 2017, Black Lives should matter to the descendants of enslavers to the degree in which todays inner city youth and HipHop Society, college students, the Black Gay Community and street gangmembers, skateboarders, young R&B singers, artists, poets and dancers, and everyone with a camera phone that has put evil on blast, together, and individually.
Even american prison yards are becoming more multiculturally sound by the true nature of young people in america that don't respect "rotten game", these Y G'z are my heroes.
I appreciate you being open with your reply, I realize that I was harsh, I try not to hurt peoples feelings, I am just still beside myself with all of this. Yes, we were friends, good friends, I considered you my friend always, and watching you on the news that day was very traumatic. I do pray that you can heal, and I pray for the victim, Im just really lost as to how to feel, and process it. I obviously kept track to see what came of things with you, I guess I just lept straight to the pain and lashed out. You do deserve the time, I believe that, when I think of my own children it makes me shudder, as a parent. I pray for your girls as well. I may be very confused, but I am not a bad person. I remember the good times, and the Rhonda I knew so well.
Hey buddy! Long time no talk...again! I don't know why I haven't been getting calls from you. In a message you left on my cell you alluded the fact you couldn't collect call me directly. I know it was only a couple months ago that I renewed my subscription to the collect call service. Speaking of subscriptions, I think I ordered you somewhere along the line of a half dozen magazines. I hope you have started to receive them and they help you keep abreast of what's going on in our lovely world. Take for example, our lovely political environment and the full range of choices we have (had?, never had/>. Anyways, I hope you're doing well and we can figure this phone call situation out soon. As for news on my end, my parents moved out and Christina and her 6-year old daughter Alani moved in. I basically told my parents to get the hell out! Haha, you know that was a joke. They wanted to downsize and simplify and returned to one of these 55 and over communities that are all over florida. The only difference this time, from the one they were in last time is they really downgraded and went with a much more modest community. They didn't like the stuffy, nose-in-the-air type people in the one my mother first bought back even when you and I were in Cali. Other than that, life is pretty much the difficult, stressful, inadequately satisfying thing many older people were inclined to make us believe. My carpet, tile, and air-duct cleaning business is doing horribly (I could be doing a lot more--for example spending more time figuring out how to show up on google searches people make in the area). From flood clean-ups to carpet cleaning, to cleaning yachts, I've have good variety of services and can often do them better than stanley steamer (joke) and sometimes work like serv-pro (which handle jobs as big as an entire house full of mold or a rotten dead guy). They clean up all sorts of things. Interesting right? lol Anyways, let me send this off to you and keep this page open to transcribe one of your letters today--now that I finally became the proper kind of member who could do so. Take care buddy and choose your battles wisely, Chris
I almost forgot my password! But I succeeded! Hello Kelly, how long it has been!!! How are you doing?!I hope and pray all is well with you. ;))I missed you a lot, my my... I see a few months went by. I am here now in Mt Sterling, visiting George. I had had the 6hr visits on weekdays. When i flew to the airport of Milwaukee- his dad preferred so- because he lives in Wisconsin,we drove many miles!to reach our hotel in Mt Sterling.John, a friend drove us, like usually. We arrived rather late to visit George. There we heard we had to register in the morning already!Next a female warden shouted: don't put money, but I already did because I had haste!Then we heard George was in segregation! And his dad(92) could only visit 2 days! The next day we heard in the "1 hour" visit that he was there because he had received a ACTIVIST newsletter(socialistic); can you imagine!!!He got it before and they also let it come in!! A warden who had managed to put him 2 weeks in segregation before, searched his room and managed to do it AGAIN!So now, I can visit him ONLY twice a month for only 1 hour, Kelly. :( He had given me a name to call, from someone who could eventually help him.This man did look after his case, but we'll have to wait for the response of Internal Affairs and that investigation could take up to a month! It's real sad; i came from so far and get only 4 hours for those 2 months. Today George turned 67 and we spoke the second time behind glass...I can't buy anything either.He is cuffed.We still can laugh though.I've still the 1st of July and the 8th with his dad.I stay after the last visit in an motel close to the airport. The next day I fly back to Belgium. So now I see with my own eyes what he has to go through, Kelly :( I can't get in my email, and had to make a new account; but this I could get into. Have you heard from the attacks by terrorists on March 22nd? It changed our view for ever... On the 28th of January Lars was born, a brother to Lynn. She is very intelligent and 2 and 5 months old now. Their parents are Elke and Bart.;) Leslie and Philip decided to stay in America, San Diego.They bought a house there and just moved. Well,I would love to hear from you!
Thanks for writing! I worked on the transcription for your post. Not done yet but should have it wrapped up tomorrow. Looking forward to reading more! :-J
Thanks for writing! I finished the transcription for your post. It made me smile/chuckle! Keep up you're writing. It is a great way to release your emotions. Thinking of you, J. :)
Tim, I have spoken to B about your suggestions and we both agreed that it was extremely disrespectful that you would suggest a visit from me. Although we acknowledge the work you do and efforts, but at the end of day this suggestion was and is wrong. We will stop all further communication and please don't even include me in any future conversations. Be Well, D. Noonan cc/B.Noonan
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My own personal research never ended, due to the fact that no matter how far back I trace the
N-word, I learn a new balance of greatness about this negroid godlike race of people that is
born and built to last, hence, my name, xzyzst (exist), for, how many times can one view
generation after generation of this one amazing grade of people that survived multiple
attempts of extinction, abuse and horror, where not even self distruction is able to prevail.
And then it hit me, by what measure do our ancestors at the bottom of slave ships, and
ocean floors, view us arriving to circa 2017 shifting our energies and focus to making
the word nigger public enemy #1?
I even heard people repeat a saying that goes:
"If you want to hide something
from a black man, put it in a book"
As diabolical as that is, before the internet, the history of the N-word could only be
found in a book-lexicon or some cataloged document, while we are being conditioned to
hate ourselves, and eachother, and this one word, who, had the presence of mind, to
the information that was available to those that misued us all? Who, looked into the
future to teach us about ourselves?
2.
Studying our own History is a great move, but we didn't have the presence of mind
to research what enslavers knew or should've known about the N-word because in 2017,
Black Lives should matter to the descendants of enslavers to the degree in which
todays inner city youth and HipHop Society, college students, the Black Gay
Community and street gangmembers, skateboarders, young R&B singers, artists,
poets and dancers, and everyone with a camera phone that has put evil on
blast, together, and individually.
Even american prison yards are becoming more multiculturally sound by the true nature of
young people in america that don't respect "rotten game", these Y G'z are my heroes.
My carpet, tile, and air-duct cleaning business is doing horribly (I could be doing a lot more--for example spending more time figuring out how to show up on google searches people make in the area). From flood clean-ups to carpet cleaning, to cleaning yachts, I've have good variety of services and can often do them better than stanley steamer (joke) and sometimes work like serv-pro (which handle jobs as big as an entire house full of mold or a rotten dead guy). They clean up all sorts of things. Interesting right? lol Anyways, let me send this off to you and keep this page open to transcribe one of your letters today--now that I finally became the proper kind of member who could do so.
Take care buddy and choose your battles wisely,
Chris
Hello Kelly, how long it has been!!! How are you doing?!I hope and pray all is well with you. ;))I missed you a lot, my my...
I see a few months went by.
I am here now in Mt Sterling, visiting George.
I had had the 6hr visits on weekdays.
When i flew to the airport of Milwaukee- his dad preferred so- because he lives in Wisconsin,we drove many miles!to reach our hotel in Mt Sterling.John, a friend drove us, like usually.
We arrived rather late to visit George. There we heard we had to register in the morning already!Next a female warden shouted: don't put money, but I already did because I had haste!Then we heard George was in segregation!
And his dad(92) could only visit 2 days!
The next day we heard in the "1 hour" visit that he was there because he had received a ACTIVIST newsletter(socialistic); can you imagine!!!He got it before and they also let it come in!!
A warden who had managed to put him 2 weeks in segregation before, searched his room and managed to do it AGAIN!So now, I can visit him ONLY twice a month for only 1 hour, Kelly. :(
He had given me a name to call, from someone who could eventually help him.This man did look after his case, but we'll have to wait for the response of Internal Affairs and that investigation could take up to a month!
It's real sad; i came from so far and get only 4 hours for those 2 months.
Today George turned 67 and we spoke the second time behind glass...I can't buy anything either.He is cuffed.We still can laugh though.I've still the 1st of July and the 8th with his dad.I stay after the last visit in an motel close to the airport. The next day I fly back to Belgium.
So now I see with my own eyes what he has to go through, Kelly :(
I can't get in my email, and had to make a new account; but this I could get into.
Have you heard from the attacks by terrorists on March 22nd? It changed our view for ever...
On the 28th of January Lars was born, a brother to Lynn. She is very intelligent and 2 and 5 months old now. Their parents are Elke and Bart.;)
Leslie and Philip decided to stay in America, San Diego.They bought a house there and just moved.
Well,I would love to hear from you!
x Rita
Not done yet but should have it wrapped up tomorrow. Looking forward to reading more!
:-J
Keep up you're writing. It is a great way to release your emotions.
Thinking of you,
J. :)
I have spoken to B about your suggestions and we both agreed that it was extremely disrespectful that you would suggest a visit from me. Although we acknowledge the work you do and efforts, but at the end of day this suggestion was and is wrong. We will stop all further communication and please don't even include me in any future conversations.
Be Well,
D. Noonan
cc/B.Noonan