Dear Outside World, 1/16/19
Right this moment as I sit inside the belly of the beast (prison cell)
I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I've been incarcerated now
for 35 years, and 20 of those years were spent in solitary confinement,
in a windowless cell 23 hours a day.
This time in prison has taken everything from me and turned it into
nothing. I see nothing good and feel everything that is bad. This time has
drained the life out of me and has stolen my love, compassion, humanity,
forgiveness; and replaced it with idleness and nothing to grasp.
Empty now as a shell, I move soulless amoungst myself. What did I do
to deserve all this?
I came to prison in 1983 to serve a four (4) year sentence for petty theft,
and with just three (3) months left before my release to freedom; I was
forced to put my freedom on hold all because some bad prison guards decided
to beat a prisoner while handcuff and shackled with a club. Why did I just
stay out of it and go home?
Well, as a child, I grew up in a household were my father was very abusive
towards my siblings and mother. I became the protector of the family and
everytime my father would go on one of his violent rages, I would intervene
on behalf of my siblings and mother, and I would take the blunt of the beating.
So on the cold morning of February 1, 1985, all I did was what I grew up doing,
and that was helping someone who couldn't help themselves. How does the story end?
To be totally honest, I truly don't know how things will end. Right now, I'm doing
my best to stay in a positive mental state and take it one day at a time. But
each day and each step I take gets harder and harder. I haven't given up but at
times it's hard to find the strength that is needed to keep on fighting; especially
inside this belly of the beast that is very dark and negative. What do I need to
Right now, I could use letters of support and encouragement. Just knowing that
someone out there in the free world cares, could be the difference between life
Strong But Human
WVE N-323 #862556
P.O. Box 1111
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