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My History Before Incarceration

I live as a "woman" 24/7. I had two jobs, one full-time one at the Hilton Hotel as a receptionist and a part-time job at Sam's Club Warehouse. The money was great. I don't have any children so I enjoyed myself.

I started out with a nice three bedroom apartment. I lived in it about three years to save up my money. The fourth year I bought a three bedroom home in Carrollwood, Florida. It was brick red in white.

Mind you, I've been living this alternative lifestyle for 22 years now, and I wouldn't change it for the world. This is who I am.

I've had several boyfriends in my past. When I was working on building my life I met a man named [redacted] B.K.A Big Will. Born [redacted] 1969. We hit it off from the jump. We dated for three and a half years straight, getting to know each other. The fourth year he came to my job at the Hilton Hotel and proposed to me with a wedding ring too. We had a private wedding in the Virgin Islands on a hughboat out in the water with delicious food, red wine, and a preacher. I wanted it that way. I don't like the attention. He agreed.

When we got back home, he threw a big reception at this place called the Orange Blossom. It's an expensive dance hall. We had a DJ (a live one). He charged by the hour. Food, drinks, 5-tiered red velvet vanilla ice cream wedding cake. It was a beautiful setting with tons of people. His family and mine plus friends.

We stayed married for five years, from February 18, 1996 to February 18, 2000. He brought it to an end, staying out all night, lying to me about his whereabouts. I never caught him cheating on me, but I knew something was going on. He was faithful at first, the whole nine yards. Then he changed.

I was loyal the whole six and a half years we were in a relationship. I thought he wanted us forever. Boy was I wrong.

I own four cars, three I brought. A Honda Accord, Toyota Corrolla, Nissan Sentra. One my father bought, the Jaguar (old model).

My lifestyle is very expensive, but I could afford it. He worked three jobs and his parents are rich. They spoiled me rotten at the time and after our marriage. After he finally gave me the divorce in March 21, 2001, I had a nervous breakdown. I couldn't take that. I didn't want to let go. I couldn't eat, sleep, think, etc. He asked me to marry him. I did because I thought he wanted it forever.

But he was confused. It's sad now that I think about it. I realize I'm innocent in this matter. I've learned something from this. It doesn't matter how loyal or real you are with a human being, they will hurt you and walk out of your life. And I will never get married again to nobody. One time is enough for me. I love too hard.

When my marriage ended, this led me to a life of crime. It's not something I'm proud about, but it's the truth!

If any one of you has been down this road, contact me ASAP.

I'm open to any opinion and comments.
Words by De'anna Tha' Doll
2011