Hey Antoine. When a baby grows inside it’s mother it becomes bigger and bigger, stronger and stronger. His body changes and evolves. Each week in the womb a new connection is made, fingers grow, organs developing. This happens for 40 weeks, (like when Jesus spent 40 days and nights in isolation) Comes a time when the baby can no longer fit in this water filled environment. And the birth process begins moving you from a water environment to an air breathing environment. This process is slow and it is painful. For both baby and parent. It has to hurt to be pushed down a birth canal, as the baby has to have all that water pushed out of its lungs in order to breath the air it will encounter beyond its mother’s safe body. Prison is like that. You no longer fit. Everyone and everything is going to bother you and make you crazy. It’s part of the process. It’s prison pushing you out, it’s people who have to stay there sensing this about you and trying to challenge you. Don’t rise to the bait. Regardless of who they are. Go somewhere quiet and pray. God is there for you. He can only do so much, you have to do the rest. There is only one person you have to prove yourself to and that is God. No demonstration of masculinity or territorial behaviour required, just be his son. I wish I’d known about the parole hearing I would have provided a letter if it would have been of some help. I can feel your frustration in your writing, your words are full of honest candid meaning. Please God the parole board recommended your release. 2020 is the strangest of years, the whole world on lockdown. Remember you are no longer an inmate, you are an outmate. All the best T
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It is sad to hear about your death sentence and the loss of someone you cherished. It is hard to let go and it is certainly harder to get over that loss. But I hope that you get through this with a strong heart and a brave soul. I know you will get through it. You must, for the sake of those friends who you say care for you, but also for the chance to have something like that girl again. So...hang in there, Doug.
In case you haven't heard, the judge in St. Croix County granted early release for John to come home. Your last blog talked about silver linings and this was one for him. He was eligible for early release back on March 9 and he immediately submitted a well written request plus all the paperwork. The district attorney recommended and the judge granted his early release in record time. His probation officer expedited the release details by two weeks and he arrived home on April 14. The only snag--nobody mentioned he's a Special Notification Bulletin guy compliments of Attorney General Brad Shimel's opinion on sex offenders being forced to wear an ankle bracelet for the rest of their lives. The original law was intended for repeat Level 1 and 2 offenders....but Shimel's opinion changed that to be anyone with more than 1 count being included. Not more than 1 offense...rather 1 count in the same case. This was never mentioned in putting together the plea bargain (which included 3 counts of possession)and it's not in his sentencing. So--he's got a new accessory and I'll be paying for the rest of his life! Something new to research when this COVID 19 pandemic is over. I'm continuing to write to the Department of Corrections, the Governor and anybody else who will listen. Your logic for old law prisoners makes absolute sense and I believe it's being done in other states...I keep asking why Wisconsin isn't stepping up to be a leader. Stay strong, stay safe and I'll keep writing and pushing! Evy
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When a baby grows inside it’s mother it becomes bigger and bigger, stronger and stronger. His body changes and evolves. Each week in the womb a new connection is made, fingers grow, organs developing. This happens for 40 weeks, (like when Jesus spent 40 days and nights in isolation)
Comes a time when the baby can no longer fit in this water filled environment. And the birth process begins moving you from a water environment to an air breathing environment. This process is slow and it is painful. For both baby and parent. It has to hurt to be pushed down a birth canal, as the baby has to have all that water pushed out of its lungs in order to breath the air it will encounter beyond its mother’s safe body.
Prison is like that. You no longer fit. Everyone and everything is going to bother you and make you crazy. It’s part of the process. It’s prison pushing you out, it’s people who have to stay there sensing this about you and trying to challenge you. Don’t rise to the bait. Regardless of who they are. Go somewhere quiet and pray. God is there for you. He can only do so much, you have to do the rest. There is only one person you have to prove yourself to and that is God. No demonstration of masculinity or territorial behaviour required, just be his son.
I wish I’d known about the parole hearing I would have provided a letter if it would have been of some help.
I can feel your frustration in your writing, your words are full of honest candid meaning. Please God the parole board recommended your release. 2020 is the strangest of years, the whole world on lockdown.
Remember you are no longer an inmate, you are an outmate.
All the best
T
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It is sad to hear about your death sentence and the loss of someone you cherished. It is hard to let go and it is certainly harder to get over that loss. But I hope that you get through this with a strong heart and a brave soul. I know you will get through it. You must, for the sake of those friends who you say care for you, but also for the chance to have something like that girl again. So...hang in there, Doug.
The world must see this poem. Thank you for sharing it.
In case you haven't heard, the judge in St. Croix County granted early release for John to come home. Your last blog talked about silver linings and this was one for him. He was eligible for early release back on March 9 and he immediately submitted a well written request plus all the paperwork. The district attorney recommended and the judge granted his early release in record time. His probation officer expedited the release details by two weeks and he arrived home on April 14. The only snag--nobody mentioned he's a Special Notification Bulletin guy compliments of Attorney General Brad Shimel's opinion on sex offenders being forced to wear an ankle bracelet for the rest of their lives. The original law was intended for repeat Level 1 and 2 offenders....but Shimel's opinion changed that to be anyone with more than 1 count being included. Not more than 1 offense...rather 1 count in the same case. This was never mentioned in putting together the plea bargain (which included 3 counts of possession)and it's not in his sentencing. So--he's got a new accessory and I'll be paying for the rest of his life! Something new to research when this COVID 19 pandemic is over. I'm continuing to write to the Department of Corrections, the Governor and anybody else who will listen. Your logic for old law prisoners makes absolute sense and I believe it's being done in other states...I keep asking why Wisconsin isn't stepping up to be a leader. Stay strong, stay safe and I'll keep writing and pushing! Evy