~Johnny That is a very wonderful poem and I thank you. In all honesty it took me a moment to notice that you wrote of me. Mostly because it's….shocking I guess? er better yet, unexpected rather than shocking. Mom always speaks of you whenever I post/reply to you. She has a real talent on making people feel guilty for something they should not. I speak to you even though I know of your mistakes. I know what your capable of but it does not scare me. I use to have nightmares (ones mom never knew of so shh) In those nightmares you aren't some monster. What I saw never give me fear but sorrow to take it's place. Up until maybe 7 I had a hard time accepting that you wasn't in my life. I would day dream of having a father but when night came and I awoke, again and again, without a father, I'd cry. I can blame you for many things and I use to. Because you wasn't there for me (nor any of your children) I became cautious, emotionless or even depressed. I could blame you but I don't nor will I. I am in control of my reactions not you. I will say because of your stupidity and unfaithfulness I am smart about trusting guys :) I do admit I have trust issues with…well everyone except one person (I will not include his/her name) I have many flaws and made plenty of mistakes but I'm learning from them. Sometimes I wish you could just meet me. Not through the mail nor on the internet but face to face. Of course I'm not sure you would like me but I'm sure you'll have fun. I'm…off I guess. I'm nerdy and honest. If you only saw how I spend my Sundays (after cartoons of course) hmm, I feel as if I'm typing to much :/ I forget who I'm talking to sometimes. Oh! hehe I wished to ask you if any of your other children speak to you :) I know it's not any of my business but I'm curious *shrugs* and one last thing. I would like to know if you would want a picture of me and mickie. I know that you probably have no idea as to what me and Mitch looks like so eh, thought I could offer. Assuming it's otay with mom…grr. I wish you could see Connor :) He use to look like me and mom but after he turned 15 his face changed. He looks so much like you now it's scary. Mitch also looks like you but she's always been that way. I'm now the odd ball :l I could pass as a tall, skinny Opal now O_O What has this world come to….
Hi I checked both mi emails but i cant find one from that guy u mentioned i got RUTI8Bhingi@gmail.com or angelofdaath@gmail.com if i gave u one before that martin its not easy me access online computer i cant get the password changed to sign in but its on a phone i have sometimes . I dont understand exaclty what u eman re cheque money order im so tired sorry for now i have just email dat stephanie i was corresponding with about u before that i told u that i understand theres some kind of discrepancy and can u pls tell me how to remedy it. Jah bless.
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I've transcribed your post 'The Two Prosecuting Attorneys' dated August 26 2012. I hope you're keeping well.
With kind regards
Lavender
That is a very wonderful poem and I thank you. In all honesty it took me a moment to notice that you wrote of me. Mostly because it's….shocking I guess? er better yet, unexpected rather than shocking. Mom always speaks of you whenever I post/reply to you. She has a real talent on making people feel guilty for something they should not. I speak to you even though I know of your mistakes. I know what your capable of but it does not scare me. I use to have nightmares (ones mom never knew of so shh) In those nightmares you aren't some monster. What I saw never give me fear but sorrow to take it's place. Up until maybe 7 I had a hard time accepting that you wasn't in my life. I would day dream of having a father but when night came and I awoke, again and again, without a father, I'd cry.
I can blame you for many things and I use to. Because you wasn't there for me (nor any of your children) I became cautious, emotionless or even depressed. I could blame you but I don't nor will I. I am in control of my reactions not you. I will say because of your stupidity and unfaithfulness I am smart about trusting guys :) I do admit I have trust issues with…well everyone except one person (I will not include his/her name) I have many flaws and made plenty of mistakes but I'm learning from them.
Sometimes I wish you could just meet me. Not through the mail nor on the internet but face to face. Of course I'm not sure you would like me but I'm sure you'll have fun. I'm…off I guess. I'm nerdy and honest. If you only saw how I spend my Sundays (after cartoons of course) hmm, I feel as if I'm typing to much :/ I forget who I'm talking to sometimes. Oh! hehe I wished to ask you if any of your other children speak to you :) I know it's not any of my business but I'm curious *shrugs* and one last thing. I would like to know if you would want a picture of me and mickie. I know that you probably have no idea as to what me and Mitch looks like so eh, thought I could offer. Assuming it's otay with mom…grr. I wish you could see Connor :) He use to look like me and mom but after he turned 15 his face changed. He looks so much like you now it's scary. Mitch also looks like you but she's always been that way. I'm now the odd ball :l I could pass as a tall, skinny Opal now O_O What has this world come to….
~Eleanor_Anne