Hey Robbie. I am a friend of Justin pazecca. We were away together and I wound up going back again and have been a state inmate. I empathize with what your going through. Although, when I was 20, I was more capable of handling time away. I had a drug problem at home and it was just me. Now that I have a family it was much, much harder. The difference between being away at 20 and being away at 25 is like night and day. This last bit of time I did was so stressful and hard. When I was 20 I could have done 20 years as long as I could have talked to some family occasionally. I am on parole after being away for 18 months. I got out In February. Every second of the 18 months was the hardest 18 months in my life. Seeing what I did to my family while being away hurt. I was helpless to fix it while I was away. So I ask you, Robbie, would your time be harder if you had a wealth of family and friends? Would it make your time more stressful? I know you may think about the good memories you've had with family and friends. But how do the harder times affect you? Are they harder because your away an can't help the way you could have at one time. ? I could be totally wrong but it's just food for thought. Take good care of yourself and focus on this next 24 hours and you can better your situation and circumstances. Oh yes and stay up too
Thank You Robert for your words! Your article brought tears to my eyes, but this is only because Im human; I think, and feel, and, love, and, hate. not every human does all these. some do not love. I believe that the world is a better place with out certain people, like many of our senators, and lobbyists, and others whom are in government. But,I still dont believe this gives me the power to decide whether they should live or die. I agree with you 100%. The death penalty is about vengeance. Justice and vengeance are two words the same in this legal system here in the USA. Thank you so much your writing has inspired me to want to write more myself and it has moved unlike anything in a long time. Thank you! Justin...
Ummmm,you got any coffee bro?I love Alaska...I have three children in Butte,Ak...Cody,Aaryn,Bella:)They,are so cute!Im,going back to Alaska to visit with them:)I used to live on Juneau,and Anchorage,Ak.But,as of now I live on a beautiful island called Rota...in the N.Mariana's..there's nothing but sun/fun out here...so,leave all ur problems/worries back home!Take,care James H.....ur,pal-steve A.:) larryfine1971@yahoo.com
Hi Kiyoshi! I just want to let you know that I'm still reading what you are posting on your blog. I'm happy to read something from you. It's been a while between the last post and this one. Crazy that you didn't see the circle of destruction you were in while you still had a chance to break it.
Keep your head up! There are people out here who are reading and hear what you have to say!
Ciao Rob! Thanks for your reply and your apologize is accepted! :) I did what you asked me to and wrote an email to Sonja on July 10. I hope she will write you soon. :) She did write back to me. You gonna hear from her. She said that she will write a letter and thinks of you all the time. Good luck!
I have to correct something. Gay marriage is not legal in whole Europe. It is in the following countries: Netherlands (they were first in 2000), Belgium, Spain, Norway, Sweden (where I live :) ), Portugal, Iceland, Denmark, France (recently in May 2013). In Italy it is not legal. Some other countries like Germany have some half-marriage thing, there you can be in a legal partnership but its not marriage. You don't have exactly the same rights like a married straight couple. Ok, so much about this.
I'm sorry to hear that some of you friends abandoned you this year. But you have still your family. Like I read in your posts you have a brother who cares very much and who visit you with his family. So you should be lucky!
I have a question for you. Do you made friends in prison? Is it hard to find friends among the other inmates? If yes, why do you think it is that hard? Like I can see are almost all the inmates here on "between the bars" searching for friendship. They could search for some company and support nearby in prison.
I mean if you have friends in prison than you are not alone and it should not feel like you are rotting all by yourself. Am I totally wrong here? But I understand that it feels better if you know there is someone outside the prison who truly cares or even loves you.
I have a friend in prison I care about very much. I write him every week for the last 5 months. That's how long I know him. 5 months. And I try to encourage him to continue living and not to give up his life. He is very depressed and near to give up because he has a life sentence without the chance of parole and no one left, no family, no friends nobody. And he is in solitary since almost 4 years with no end in sight. That's sad. So I try to help. I'm his Sonja, if you know what I mean. :) You are a lucky man to have YOUR Sonja. That little she wrote I could see that she must be a good person. I'm happy that I could help out to bring her back into your life.
I hope you are doing good and that you will hear from Sonja soon or even from your daughter. You never know, sometimes great things just happen without prior notice.
Keep your head up and your heart strong! Sunny greetings from Europe! Ciao, Kat
Sure, there is always some argument about the 18 year old and the 16 year old. But that's not what I'm talking about.
You will have to explore this issue more fully (and read up on the literature) in order to get some perspective about what happens to these kids later.
What I will tell you is that they have deep regrets not just at what happened, but to the loss of innocence. Many have trauma symptoms.
Often, placed in a situation that they (think) that they are ready for - but aren't - causes them to make other equally poor choices throughout their teens.
It leads to very damaging results.
If you can't find your topic in the library (and I assume that you will not find it) look up information generally on child abuse. It will give you some information about how children and teens view the world and what happens when that development is compromised.
It will also give you perspective about normative developmental phases.
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Ken whittaker
I just want to let you know that I'm still reading what you are posting on your blog. I'm happy to read something from you. It's been a while between the last post and this one. Crazy that you didn't see the circle of destruction you were in while you still had a chance to break it.
Keep your head up! There are people out here who are reading and hear what you have to say!
Best wishes!
Kat, smiling at you :)
Thanks for your reply and your apologize is accepted! :)
I did what you asked me to and wrote an email to Sonja on July 10. I hope she will write you soon. :) She did write back to me. You gonna hear from her. She said that she will write a letter and thinks of you all the time. Good luck!
I have to correct something. Gay marriage is not legal in whole Europe. It is in the following countries: Netherlands (they were first in 2000), Belgium, Spain, Norway, Sweden (where I live :) ), Portugal, Iceland, Denmark, France (recently in May 2013). In Italy it is not legal. Some other countries like Germany have some half-marriage thing, there you can be in a legal partnership but its not marriage. You don't have exactly the same rights like a married straight couple. Ok, so much about this.
I'm sorry to hear that some of you friends abandoned you this year. But you have still your family. Like I read in your posts you have a brother who cares very much and who visit you with his family. So you should be lucky!
I have a question for you. Do you made friends in prison? Is it hard to find friends among the other inmates? If yes, why do you think it is that hard? Like I can see are almost all the inmates here on "between the bars" searching for friendship. They could search for some company and support nearby in prison.
I mean if you have friends in prison than you are not alone and it should not feel like you are rotting all by yourself. Am I totally wrong here?
But I understand that it feels better if you know there is someone outside the prison who truly cares or even loves you.
I have a friend in prison I care about very much. I write him every week for the last 5 months. That's how long I know him. 5 months. And I try to encourage him to continue living and not to give up his life. He is very depressed and near to give up because he has a life sentence without the chance of parole and no one left, no family, no friends nobody. And he is in solitary since almost 4 years with no end in sight. That's sad. So I try to help. I'm his Sonja, if you know what I mean. :) You are a lucky man to have YOUR Sonja. That little she wrote I could see that she must be a good person. I'm happy that I could help out to bring her back into your life.
I hope you are doing good and that you will hear from Sonja soon or even from your daughter. You never know, sometimes great things just happen without prior notice.
Keep your head up and your heart strong!
Sunny greetings from Europe!
Ciao, Kat
P.S. I looked at your facebook page. :)
You will have to explore this issue more fully (and read up on the literature) in order to get some perspective about what happens to these kids later.
What I will tell you is that they have deep regrets not just at what happened, but to the loss of innocence. Many have trauma symptoms.
Often, placed in a situation that they (think) that they are ready for - but aren't - causes them to make other equally poor choices throughout their teens.
It leads to very damaging results.
If you can't find your topic in the library (and I assume that you will not find it) look up information generally on child abuse. It will give you some information about how children and teens view the world and what happens when that development is compromised.
It will also give you perspective about normative developmental phases.
JT