Mr. Scott I wanted 2 inform you that the "body guard" u refer 2 was my family member who had just turned 15 years old in november 1988. Hope u can still sleep at night.
Very cool Deb. I don't want to taint anything with my input as such loving communication is between you two, but I couldn't resist saying something like I am also very glad this is happening and thank you for letting me part of it. Lv, Joe R.
Bill, it blesses my heart that you know have contact with the children I do hope you have found forgiveness in your heart for all the years I failed to keep you informed with any information about them(do to my own unforgiving, selfish reasons) and for not sharing the promise God gave me before the kids were adopted that gave me a hope to hold on to as well as made it possible for me to care for those who needed someone for them in their last days on earth. And the healing that took place between my mother & I during the time I was blessed with caring for her til she went to be with the Lord. Although I had this promise from God Almighty I still struggled with my own personal hell of failing uphold the vowels that you &I had made so long ago! Anyway what's done is done there's no turning back only making better choices for tomorrow,right. I pray you have found peace within your soul & a hope for your future, wishing you all the best, Oh & I don't know if its more than just a quintessence but with both sign off with "Be Blessed"
Your letter spoke to me, I have spent countless hours writing to people doing life in prison. You must always remember your still a human. It doesn't matter that you have missed out on things because your in there. I am 25 and missed out on a hell of a lot, three months of my life i spent hooked up to a machine that kept me alive, it breathed for me and if my heart stopped it started it again for me. When my family stopped coming to see me even though i was in a comma i still noticed the absence of people, they didn't care they made a choice to end my life in the same room i was in. They thought i couldn't hear but i could. i was a prisoner more than you i was stuck in my own body it was painful and it was hell. You still have a chance to live even if its in a cell... never give up hope... you are loved if not by anyone i will love you because you are a human.
I truly believe you will be forgiven for your actions, what you did was bad but the fact that you have come to terms with that is great. Its the first step to moving on and unfortunately accepting your life the way it and making it the best you can. Maybe you can start a group at your prison, or maybe you can blog more to help people understand your side. best of luck
AS i read your list i cant help but feel sorry that some of the things you have mentioned even happened to you. Not everything on that list was your fault and every day you wake up being able to change today. The past is history you cant go back and change things so move forward. Make amends if you can and always work on being the best person you can be. Keep you head up... not every thing is your fault others have some blame they need to own up to as well!
I was moved by your ideas, that all men should generally work for their child. I myself was in a 7 year relationship and when I received the news that we were expecting my sons father took to the door and I did not see him for nearly 3 years. My son now 3 begs for his fathers attention, but i cant even get the man to spend twenty minuets with him.I chose to apply for child support in hopes of waking him up and helping him see how much he is truly needed. All i have done is pushed him further away. Everyday is hard but my son makes it worth it and to me it was never about the money it was about trying to help a blind man see how much his child needs him.
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