F. What's the word on this cool couple you said that came to visit you from the church?
W. I didn't think I was going to be nervous at first, but I learned that reservations goes both ways because, it's funny how I was thinking to myself, What if I get somekind of wayout person, I didn't know what to expect.
F. Yeah, that is funny how the devil plays doubt first, but true blessings work through doubt. I know it's still early, but you seemed inspired by them, or excited to get at me about them, so, who are these people?
W. I'll start with the husband, they take turns visiting me because they have a new born at home, his name is Ryan, he impressed me off the top just being a man, a husband and a new father, and soccer player that took time out from his life to come visit somebody on death row, being of this generation, I compare him to being someone I could see myself kicking it with at school, and, oh yeah, he has a different upbringing than me, so his diverse nature expands my cultural experience, he's really a good dude. 3 of 4
@Golgatha w/Waymon (cont.)
F. And his better half?
W. Her name is Lynne, she's a traveller, this inspires me because, obviously in my situation, just having somebody to share those world wide experiences with me, expands my connection with society in a way not possible without the church having prison ministry, wish I could meet Sister Kathy.
F. Sounds like Sister Kathy's connection with God is reaching a new generation up here because none of us even knew about any of this.
W. Is Sister Kathy Black?
F. I so understand that question because she's got like this...
W. Soulful, family, home energy in her letters, I cant explain it, but whatever it is, somehow she reached us.
F. I hope other people at the church read what you just said because people need to know what kind of impact they already have on us by baking goods, the bakesale, the visits, the prayers, and challenging us to shake nerves and doubt and just allow God to do what God does, even though non of us are worthy of his mercy. Im super thankful because Im no bible thumper, but Sister Kathy has my attention. The attention of New Souls. 4 of 4
(Introduction): So Im on the yard sharing my boxing skills with a young energetic fella named Byron, until one day, the student begins to teach me about his vision to produce a zine from deathrow, Im no journalist, I write Raps and letters, thats it, but youth on deathrow hear too many no's, and this was my chance to be more like Ru-AL, and another man named Blue that said the word yes to a young me, when I first got here.
Today, Byron's Write Or Die Zine Project is now near Ten issues published, and I'm proud to be a part of the interview section of the zine because I get the chance to sitdown and document unedited one on one conversation with people on California Death Row.
Byron's idea to show our appreciation to Sister Kathy, and The St. John Bosco Ministry, and the Congregation at The Holy Spirit Church in Fremont California for having bakesales to donate Gods blessings to prisoners, must include one of our interviews segments that we call @Golgatha, here, we talk to eachother about you.
So enjoy, as I walk over to the San Quentin Prison Legal Law Library with another New Soul, a young man named Waymon.
Date: 12.23.16 Location: Condemned Legal Law Library Time: 7:30pm Weather: Super Freezier Survey by: Floyd Smith #K.72700 Responses by: Waymon Livingston #AP.1552
The Back Story
GOLGATHA, the Hebrew name for the spot where Jesus was crucified (Matt. 27:33; Mark 15:22; John 19:17). The name is interpreted by these writers as meaning "the place of a skull" supposedly from the shape of the hill so designated, or possibly from the human skulls there as the place of execution. The most probable site is that northeast of the modern Damascus Gate.
When I Was In Prison, You Visited Me! 1 of 4
@Golgatha w/Waymon (cont.)
F. Whats up young bro, good to see you again, long time no see.
W. It takes forever to get called to come over, how have you been?
F. Im cool, trying to find out if you and MR. Thomas recieved the special purchase order blessings from the churches bakesale yet?
W. I did, not too sure about MR. Thomas, but I think he did, I'll find out tomorrow at next yard call, I've already sent a thank you letter to Sister Kathy too.
F. So what did you get, and why did you order these items?
W. Just a couple of shirts, and an alarm clock, man I needed tthat.
F. I get the shirts, but whats up with the clock? thats a trip because abother brother said he was in need of a watch.
W. I just really needed to get back into my own personal schedule, you know, prayer, legal work, working out, it's a touch blue neon light small clock, gives me time, military time, date, alarm and weather. Or you might say cell temp. Its easy for some to lose focus here on the row, and a brotha is too young to lose focus right now. 2 of 4
Fortunately he can only HAVE ONE GOFUNDME page, and it's been decided that I will be helping his sister set one up for him. No others need to be involved in that, nor can they except to donate.
Multiple requests like this are common when a person is worried no one will help upon release. We've all learned to take it in stride. We know why it happens. And we have everything under control.
Some people should just be glad that Tim will be off these boards soon enough.
Leslie is living now in San Diego, CA. About George; most probably when he would be free one day... he CAN'T leave the States.i cold be wrong dough? Speaking about George; he gave 3 calls to his dad since he was free. But I didn't hear from him since my last letter dated around the 24th of December! I told his dad (we call an hour usually!; Its free for me after my 5 pm and in the weekends with Proximus, my phone company. So, that is so very strange... if I had not heard from his dad he's okay, I would be very worried! Wonder what's going on?
Tonight, Sunday I'm going with the train to my daughter Elke, to babysit on Monday. Lynn of 3 doesn't have school. It's been a while I saw them. Well, on the 21st of January Lynn turned 3 and Lars got one year old. :) His birthday is a week later; so, we celebrated it with my mother and me as well.I will write more another time before you get this writing, Robert.
I sent 20 dollars to your brother; maybe you got it in the meantime? They're good for some extra calls to your loved mom! :))
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Hi Roland! Thank you so much for your response it was so thorough. Just to let you know I asked these questions for a psychology class that I am taking in college. I am doing research on human interactions and how a lack of intimate contact can change a persons personality and outlook on life. I am specifically looking at correction systems. I asked men and women about how they deal with the lack of contact with each other and I have found similar results in some instances and very different results in others. It seems that masturbation is a similar thing that men and women both use as a coping mechanism to deal with the lack of contact in prison. ( Dont blame anyone for that. lol. Got to have some kind of fun in prison I bet. I know I would ;) ) Also most men responded with saying they have a stronger appreciation of women than before they were in prison. Women seem to just miss the interaction in general with men. Roland I appreciate you responding and I really do enjoy all of your blog posts. I will keep reading and feel free to comment back on this and maybe we can keep this conversation going or whatever you would like to talk about. I am doing research and my paper wont be due until the end of the semester so I could alway use more inspiration on what to look up and dive deeper into this topic. It was interesting to see your perspective with having a conjugal visit. It is also very interesting that California has eliminated pornographic material. I think it is very unhealthy for any human being to not have any form of sexual release. I would be curious to hear what you think this does to people in prison? Do people get around this or are they very strict? I feel this would create a very hostile and angry environment if people can not release themselves. Do more people result in turning "gay" because of this? Do you think conjugal visits help control peoples behavior knowing it could be taken away? Do california prisons look down on any masturbation or do they look the other way? That is all the questions I have for now. Answer all or whatever questions you feel comfortable answering. Also you can add any info you think would be helpful for my research. Thank you again Alyssa :)
Hello Nate! Thank you so much for your response to my questions. I really loved your responses and your wittiness ;). Just to let you know I asked these questions for a psychology class that I am taking in college. I am doing research on human interactions and how a lack of intimate contact can change a persons personality and outlook on life. I am specifically looking at correction systems. I am glad I stumbled upon this blog website. This is going to give me a first hand perspective into the system through people like you. Your responses were very thorough and will help me immensely. One thing you said and other people have said is that people seem to appreciate women much differently than before they were in prison. People also talked about being reserved when they get out of prison and also scared of women. Another thing men and women both talk about is they masturbate in prison to cope with the lack of intimacy. These are just a few things I wanted to share that I have found so far and I appreciate you helping add to this data. If you can think of anything else that might help with my research I would really appreciate it. I really like your blog posts and I hope you continue to write. I guess I have a few more questions to ask if you dont mind answering if not, no big deal. Does your state offer conjugal visits? if so do you see any difference in men who get them? if not do you think it would help or not? Do you have access to regular pornography magazines? Do prisons discourage masturbation or allow it openly? Do you think some men abstain from masturbation and show other forms of emotions to overcome these frustrations (like anger, depression)? Do men who have a significant others on the outside act any differently than men who dont have a significant other on the outside from your observations? That is all I can think of for now. If you dont feel like answering these questions dont feel obligated. I want you to be as comfortable as possible. I really appreciate anything you can answer. If you can think of anything else that might help let me know. Also I shared your blog on my facebook to hopefully get you more followers. I really love your writing. Thank you again Alyssa :)
Hello Todd! Thank you so much for your response to my questions. I really loved your responses. Just to let you know I asked these questions for a psychology class that I am taking in college. I am doing research on human interactions and how a lack of intimate contact can change a persons personality and outlook on life. I am specifically looking at correction systems. I am glad I stumbled upon this blog website. This is going to give me a first hand perspective into the system through people like you. Your comment on missing the scent of a women and just their touch seems to be very consistent among men in prison. People seem to appreciate women much differently than before they were in prison. People also talked about being reserved when they get out of prison and also scared of women. Another thing men and women both talk about is they masturbate in prison to cope with the lack of intimacy. These are just a few things I wanted to share that I have found so far and I appreciate you helping add to this data. If you can think of anything else that might help with my research I would really appreciate it. I really like your blog posts and I hope you continue to write. I guess I have a few more questions to ask if you dont mind answering if not, no big deal. Does your state offer conjugal visits? if so do you see any difference in men who get them? if not do you think it would help or not? Do you have access to regular pornography magazines? Do prisons discourage masturbation or allow it openly? Do you think some men abstain from masturbation and show other forms of emotions to overcome these frustrations (like anger, depression)? Do men who have a significant others on the outside act any differently than men who dont have a significant other on the outside from your observations? That is all I can think of for now. If you dont feel like answering these questions dont feel obligated. I want you to be as comfortable as possible. I really appreciate anything you can answer. If you can think of anything else that might help let me know. Also let me know if there is anything I can do for you. Thank you again Alyssa :)
Hi Robert! Thank you so much for your response it was so thorough. I see someone commented above me with a negative comment but you did nothing wrong. You answered all the questions that I asked. I really loved your responses. Just to let you know I asked these questions for a psychology class that I am taking in college. I am doing research on human interactions and how a lack of intimate contact can change a persons personality and outlook on life. I am specifically looking at correction systems. I asked men and women about how they deal with the lack of contact with each other and I have found similar results in some instances and very different results in others. It seems that masturbation is a similar thing that men and women both use as a coping mechanism to deal with the lack of contact in prison. ( Dont blame anyone for that. lol. Got to have some kind of fun in prison I bet. I know I would ;) ) Also most men responded with saying they have a stronger appreciation of women than before they were in prison. Women seem to just miss the interaction in general with men. Robert I appreciate you responding and I really do enjoy all of your blog posts. I will keep reading and feel free to comment back on this and maybe we can keep this conversation going or whatever you would like to talk about. I am doing research and my paper wont be due until the end of the semester so I could alway use more inspiration on what to look up and dive deeper into this topic. I appreciate that you respect BTB and didnt want to be blunt. (Even though I wish I could read more steemy writing other than bland research papers ;) lol.) I can also be very blunt so I appreciate that quality in anyone else who has it. I dont care what I say or how I say it. haha. On that note, Im sorry you have been in prison for how long you have been without intimate contact. That should really be a crime in itself. So many studies show how bad that is for the human body and mind. I wish I could help :). I guess I have a few more questions to ask if you dont mind answering if not, no big deal. Does your state offer conjugal visits? if so do you see any difference in men who get them? if not do you think it would help or not? Do you have access to regular pornography magazines? Do prisons discourage masturbation or allow it openly? Do you think some men abstain from masturbation and show other forms of emotions to overcome these frustrations (like anger, depression)? Do men who have a significant others on the outside act any differently than men who dont have a significant other on the outside from your observations? That is all I can think of for now. If you dont feel like answering these questions dont feel obligated. I want you to be as comfortable as possible. I really appreciate anything you can answer. If you can think of anything else that might help let me know. Also let me know if there is anything I can do for you. Thank you again Alyssa :)
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F. What's the word on this cool couple you said that came to visit
you from the church?
W. I didn't think I was going to be nervous at first, but I learned
that reservations goes both ways because, it's funny how I was
thinking to myself, What if I get somekind of wayout person, I
didn't know what to expect.
F. Yeah, that is funny how the devil plays doubt first, but true
blessings work through doubt. I know it's still early, but you
seemed inspired by them, or excited to get at me about them, so,
who are these people?
W. I'll start with the husband, they take turns visiting me because
they have a new born at home, his name is Ryan, he impressed me
off the top just being a man, a husband and a new father, and
soccer player that took time out from his life to come visit
somebody on death row, being of this generation, I compare him
to being someone I could see myself kicking it with at school,
and, oh yeah, he has a different upbringing than me, so his
diverse nature expands my cultural experience, he's really a
good dude.
3 of 4
@Golgatha w/Waymon (cont.)
F. And his better half?
W. Her name is Lynne, she's a traveller, this inspires me
because, obviously in my situation, just having somebody
to share those world wide experiences with me, expands
my connection with society in a way not possible without
the church having prison ministry, wish I could meet
Sister Kathy.
F. Sounds like Sister Kathy's connection with God is
reaching a new generation up here because none of us
even knew about any of this.
W. Is Sister Kathy Black?
F. I so understand that question because she's got like this...
W. Soulful, family, home energy in her letters, I cant explain
it, but whatever it is, somehow she reached us.
F. I hope other people at the church read what you just said
because people need to know what kind of impact they already
have on us by baking goods, the bakesale, the visits, the
prayers, and challenging us to shake nerves and doubt and
just allow God to do what God does, even though non of us
are worthy of his mercy. Im super thankful because Im no
bible thumper, but Sister Kathy has my attention. The
attention of New Souls.
4 of 4
(Introduction):
So Im on the yard sharing my boxing skills with a young energetic fella named
Byron, until one day, the student begins to teach me about his vision to
produce a zine from deathrow, Im no journalist, I write Raps and letters, thats
it, but youth on deathrow hear too many no's, and this was my chance to be more
like Ru-AL, and another man named Blue that said the word yes to a young me, when
I first got here.
Today, Byron's Write Or Die Zine Project is now near Ten issues published, and I'm
proud to be a part of the interview section of the zine because I get the chance
to sitdown and document unedited one on one conversation with people on California
Death Row.
Byron's idea to show our appreciation to Sister Kathy, and The St. John Bosco
Ministry, and the Congregation at The Holy Spirit Church in Fremont California for
having bakesales to donate Gods blessings to prisoners, must include one of our
interviews segments that we call @Golgatha, here, we talk to eachother about you.
So enjoy, as I walk over to the San Quentin Prison Legal Law Library with another
New Soul, a young man named Waymon.
Date: 12.23.16
Location: Condemned Legal Law Library
Time: 7:30pm
Weather: Super Freezier
Survey by: Floyd Smith #K.72700
Responses by: Waymon Livingston #AP.1552
The Back Story
GOLGATHA, the Hebrew name for the spot where Jesus was crucified (Matt. 27:33;
Mark 15:22; John 19:17). The name is interpreted by these writers as meaning
"the place of a skull" supposedly from the shape of the hill so designated, or
possibly from the human skulls there as the place of execution. The most
probable site is that northeast of the modern Damascus Gate.
When I Was In Prison, You Visited Me! 1 of 4
@Golgatha w/Waymon (cont.)
F. Whats up young bro, good to see you again, long time no see.
W. It takes forever to get called to come over, how have you been?
F. Im cool, trying to find out if you and MR. Thomas recieved the
special purchase order blessings from the churches bakesale yet?
W. I did, not too sure about MR. Thomas, but I think he did, I'll
find out tomorrow at next yard call, I've already sent a thank
you letter to Sister Kathy too.
F. So what did you get, and why did you order these items?
W. Just a couple of shirts, and an alarm clock, man I needed tthat.
F. I get the shirts, but whats up with the clock? thats a trip
because abother brother said he was in need of a watch.
W. I just really needed to get back into my own personal schedule,
you know, prayer, legal work, working out, it's a touch blue
neon light small clock, gives me time, military time, date,
alarm and weather. Or you might say cell temp. Its easy for some
to lose focus here on the row, and a brotha is too young to lose
focus right now.
2 of 4
Multiple requests like this are common when a person is worried no one will help upon release. We've all learned to take it in stride. We know why it happens. And we have everything under control.
Some people should just be glad that Tim will be off these boards soon enough.
Then you get to see him fight this crap IRL....;)
Leslie is living now in San Diego, CA. About George; most probably when he would be free one day... he CAN'T leave the States.i cold be wrong dough? Speaking about George; he gave 3 calls to his dad since he was free. But I didn't hear from him since my last letter dated around the 24th of December! I told his dad (we call an hour usually!; Its free for me after my 5 pm and in the weekends with Proximus, my phone company.
So, that is so very strange... if I had not heard from his dad he's okay, I would be very worried! Wonder what's going on?
Tonight, Sunday I'm going with the train to my daughter Elke, to babysit on Monday. Lynn of 3 doesn't have school. It's been a while I saw them. Well, on the 21st of January Lynn turned 3 and Lars got one year old. :)
His birthday is a week later; so, we celebrated it with my mother and me as well.I will write more another time before you get this writing, Robert.
I sent 20 dollars to your brother; maybe you got it in the meantime? They're good for some extra calls to your loved mom! :))
lots of love, Rita
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