Thanks for writing! I finished the transcription for your post. I hope you had a wonderful birthday. I also share your hope for reasonable and merciful sentencing guidelines. Take care. - Eva
My love... If only we had been this wise when we were younger....I look at young couples who seem to have it all together - oh, not financially nor monetarily - they still struggle to make ends meet - but emotionally. They are secure and happy in their lives, even when things are difficult. To be honest, I think that a big part (maybe all) of the difference is God...the people who are the most content live Godly lives. I do, often, look around for you when I read your words - especially if we’ve recently spoken - because I can hear you speak the words to me - and I am warm and secure - safe - wrapped in your arms. You are probably the only man I was never afraid of - I always knew you’d never hurt me physically - and the emotional hurts were never intentional - for either of us. I worry when I read your journal - about all the health stuff - wish you were next to me so that I could help to care for you. At the same time (you do remember my sick sense of humor) I chuckle about the state taking pieces of you slowly. My God, I’m macabre I love you - every day - I sleep and dream wrapped in your love.... Love - always and all ways Your Jeannie
Hello Johnny. Fellow Libran! It was my birthday on the 1st. I’m too old to even allow my fingers to type out my age here! Hope you had a great day, and that the year ahead will put you one foot ahead in being released. T
Hi William, thank you for writing. I finished the transcription for your post. Your words were very moving, and I cannot imagine what it's been like over the past couple of decades, but I want to wish you the best of luck with the reintegration process.
SISTERS I have a sister that refuses to forgive me for the crimes I done when I was under the influence of alcohol. The crime happened in 1990-almost a life time ago. I do understand her anger & fear. Two of my sisters love me unconditionally. As we get older we think differently and treat others unselfishly especially family. Isn't that what growing up is. I do wonder if she'll ever write, But if she don't I wish her the best that life could provide for her. Theres no reason to process ill feelings toward her. Shes never done anything offensive toward me. I guess what Im trying to say. Is don't waste time love your siblings one day we'll all be gone.
Dear Immature Parents (America's Funniest Home Traumatizations, Redux) Haraszewski 6/10/20
A few posts back (Aug. 12. 2020), I write about an unfunny vdeo I'd seen on one of my favorite TV shows, America's Funniest Home Videos. Turns out, there's a whole recent trendof similarly unkind videos, and I wonder whether you folks, readers of this blog, have seen them? I'm sure they're all over the internet, videos of adults, presumably parents, recording themselves basically lip-synching to their children's angry outbursts. The "joke" here is sypposed to be that these overwhelemed parents are so in-tun with thier frustrated kids' cries that they can perfectly time and imitate every screaming demand and breathy, burbling sob in the "temper tantrum". The parent typically holds an expressionless face, then bursts into pseudo- shriek that makes it look like the child's voice is coming from the adults mouth. Hilarious, right? Ok, so I admit, I can see how one might laugh especially at the perfect timing and incongruity of Mom or Dad suddenly ranting like a frustrated 5-year-old. It looks silly. Also I get that the videos that aren't fakes (many seemed staged, to me), those take some talent to mimic so accuratley, and yes, it's gotta be frustrating for a parent to hear the screeching cries for 10 minutes, half and hour, or even longer. I get it; people need to vent without taking it out directly on the kid. Problem is...it's super man. No doubt no one likes to be mocked, yet we've all mocked others at times. It's a passive aggression that most people are guilty of. I've done it. I still do it; It makes me feel a little better when I'm essentially powerless. Not having kids myself, though, perhaps, I can be forgiven for failing to grasp why parents should feel so powerless as to need to mock their own sons and daughters. Here's my thought on this- if you feel you must lash out a little in a basically harmless way, just to maintain sanity, fine...but for crissake, don't then sahre your mean-spirited imitation of your offspring with others! Just keep it between yourself and the void. Honestly to publicize such self-indulgent exploitation...are these parents so enamored with their own child-degradation skills that they feel compelled to show them off- along with their kids less-than-proudest moments- to the whole freakin world? How will the kids feel when the inevitably see the vids in a few years, probably with a collection of digital high-fives for the adults and some nasty comments for the "whiny brats" being mimicked? Maybe embarrassed? Maybe humiliated? Betrayed? Surely many will feel at least that, and rightly so, I'd say- they've had a shameful private moment broadcast to earn a parent some "likes" by making their own child look, well childish. They'll eventually see how the online chatterati shallowly disregards the fact, in that moment, however nerve-frayingly ridiculous the "tantrum" seems to adult sensibilities, the kid had a very real
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If only we had been this wise when we were younger....I look at young couples who seem to have it all together - oh, not financially nor monetarily - they still struggle to make ends meet - but emotionally. They are secure and happy in their lives, even when things are difficult. To be honest, I think that a big part (maybe all) of the difference is God...the people who are the most content live Godly lives.
I do, often, look around for you when I read your words - especially if we’ve recently spoken - because I can hear you speak the words to me - and I am warm and secure - safe - wrapped in your arms. You are probably the only man I was never afraid of - I always knew you’d never hurt me physically - and the emotional hurts were never intentional - for either of us.
I worry when I read your journal - about all the health stuff - wish you were next to me so that I could help to care for you. At the same time (you do remember my sick sense of humor) I chuckle about the state taking pieces of you slowly. My God, I’m macabre
I love you - every day - I sleep and dream wrapped in your love....
Love - always and all ways
Your Jeannie
Fellow Libran! It was my birthday on the 1st. I’m too old to even allow my fingers to type out my age here!
Hope you had a great day, and that the year ahead will put you one foot ahead in being released.
T
And stay safe there
I have a sister that refuses to forgive me for the crimes I done when I was under the influence of alcohol. The crime happened in 1990-almost a life time ago.
I do understand her anger & fear. Two of my sisters love me unconditionally. As we get older we think differently and treat others unselfishly especially family. Isn't that what growing up is.
I do wonder if she'll ever write, But if she don't I wish her the best that life could provide for her. Theres no reason to process ill feelings toward her. Shes never done anything offensive toward me. I guess what Im trying to say. Is don't waste time love your siblings one day we'll all be gone.
A few posts back (Aug. 12. 2020), I write about an unfunny vdeo I'd seen on one of my favorite TV shows, America's Funniest Home Videos. Turns out, there's a whole recent trendof similarly unkind videos, and I wonder whether you folks, readers of this blog, have seen them? I'm sure they're all over the internet, videos of adults, presumably parents, recording themselves basically lip-synching to their children's angry outbursts. The "joke" here is sypposed to be that these overwhelemed parents are so in-tun with thier frustrated kids' cries that they can perfectly time and imitate every screaming demand and breathy, burbling sob in the "temper tantrum". The parent typically holds an expressionless face, then bursts into pseudo- shriek that makes it look like the child's voice is coming from the adults mouth. Hilarious, right?
Ok, so I admit, I can see how one might laugh especially at the perfect timing and incongruity of Mom or Dad suddenly ranting like a frustrated 5-year-old. It looks silly. Also I get that the videos that aren't fakes (many seemed staged, to me), those take some talent to mimic so accuratley, and yes, it's gotta be frustrating for a parent to hear the screeching cries for 10 minutes, half and hour, or even longer. I get it; people need to vent without taking it out directly on the kid. Problem is...it's super man.
No doubt no one likes to be mocked, yet we've all mocked others at times. It's a passive aggression that most people are guilty of. I've done it. I still do it; It makes me feel a little better when I'm essentially powerless. Not having kids myself, though, perhaps, I can be forgiven for failing to grasp why parents should feel so powerless as to need to mock their own sons and daughters.
Here's my thought on this- if you feel you must lash out a little in a basically harmless way, just to maintain sanity, fine...but for crissake, don't then sahre your mean-spirited imitation of your offspring with others! Just keep it between yourself and the void. Honestly to publicize such self-indulgent exploitation...are these parents so enamored with their own child-degradation skills that they feel compelled to show them off- along with their kids less-than-proudest moments- to the whole freakin world? How will the kids feel when the inevitably see the vids in a few years, probably with a collection of digital high-fives for the adults and some nasty comments for the "whiny brats" being mimicked? Maybe embarrassed? Maybe humiliated? Betrayed? Surely many will feel at least that, and rightly so, I'd say- they've had a shameful private moment broadcast to earn a parent some "likes" by making their own child look, well childish. They'll eventually see how the online chatterati shallowly disregards the fact, in that moment, however nerve-frayingly ridiculous the "tantrum" seems to adult sensibilities, the kid had a very real