Hey Dad, well first of all I just wanted to let you know that I'm sorry for going MIA on you like I did but someone got off with my phone and of course I couldn't get back onto any of the accounts that I had on it. Believe me, I've definitely tried. Also, I just got done reading this old letter that you wrote to me and oh my goodness! My heart is so full right now, I can't believe what a dark fucking cloud I have been for most of my life. Its a lot different now. I wake up everyday with an unbelievably grateful heart for all of my blessings. But hey other than that though, guess what I went and done did!??! I LEFT CALIFORNIA!! Drove all the way to this little town that sits right on the border of Minisota and North Dakota. In a 2011 jeep Wrangler that some fucking old ass creep of a fucking rapist prick gave me the keys too after he felt bad for taking advantage of me. So of course I took off with it! Its not like I had any of it planned out or anything. It was a super spontaneous, spur of the moment kind of thing. I went with Smokey's cousin, Timmy Crownover. (Speaking of smokey..... We gotta have a conversation about that one some day for sure...) But hey I'm so glad I did though cause now I'm clean, and I'm even completely over my withdrawals and everything. I've been out here for like a month now, staying at Timmy's brothers house. Spending most of my time babysitting his brothers kids lately. Anyways so since I've been clean I feel like a completely different person. I feel like my mind/body/ and my soul while I was using for all those years was almost kind of stuck on autopilot. Now all of the sudden I've got SO much on my mind constantly, and my awareness is crazy it's like I'm all the sudden able to see things for what they really are. It's kind of hard to explain it completely without sounding borderline insane lol but I'll tell you more about all that later. Now that my mind feels sharper and not as weak I've been thinking a lot about you and all the things that we have talked about, and I've been getting this overwhelming urge to get a hold of you. Do you remember how the first few times that you had people reach out to me for you I kept saying that I felt intimidated and whatever else and that's why it was hard for me to write you? Well it's crazy what a sober mind can do because it couldn't be more different. After realizing just how much more clear my mind is working, my level of confidence in myself as well as knowing a lot more about you, has me not only intrigued but excited to see where it goes from here, like where it could end up taking us. So, I guess with that being said, to respond to a comment that you had made in one of the letters that you had wrote to me while I was staying over at Kevin Sutton's.... I am more than ready to play this game with you. I'll probably end up writing you again before you write back but if not I just at least wanted to fill you in on everything and let you know what's been going on.
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But hey other than that though, guess what I went and done did!??! I LEFT CALIFORNIA!! Drove all the way to this little town that sits right on the border of Minisota and North Dakota. In a 2011 jeep Wrangler that some fucking old ass creep of a fucking rapist prick gave me the keys too after he felt bad for taking advantage of me. So of course I took off with it! Its not like I had any of it planned out or anything. It was a super spontaneous, spur of the moment kind of thing. I went with Smokey's cousin, Timmy Crownover. (Speaking of smokey..... We gotta have a conversation about that one some day for sure...) But hey I'm so glad I did though cause now I'm clean, and I'm even completely over my withdrawals and everything. I've been out here for like a month now, staying at Timmy's brothers house. Spending most of my time babysitting his brothers kids lately.
Anyways so since I've been clean I feel like a completely different person. I feel like my mind/body/ and my soul while I was using for all those years was almost kind of stuck on autopilot. Now all of the sudden I've got SO much on my mind constantly, and my awareness is crazy it's like I'm all the sudden able to see things for what they really are. It's kind of hard to explain it completely without sounding borderline insane lol but I'll tell you more about all that later. Now that my mind feels sharper and not as weak I've been thinking a lot about you and all the things that we have talked about, and I've been getting this overwhelming urge to get a hold of you. Do you remember how the first few times that you had people reach out to me for you I kept saying that I felt intimidated and whatever else and that's why it was hard for me to write you? Well it's crazy what a sober mind can do because it couldn't be more different. After realizing just how much more clear my mind is working, my level of confidence in myself as well as knowing a lot more about you, has me not only intrigued but excited to see where it goes from here, like where it could end up taking us.
So, I guess with that being said, to respond to a comment that you had made in one of the letters that you had wrote to me while I was staying over at Kevin Sutton's.... I am more than ready to play this game with you. I'll probably end up writing you again before you write back but if not I just at least wanted to fill you in on everything and let you know what's been going on.
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