Milo it's Angel Shockley I have been in and out of the hospital past couple of months and my PO Box closed as a result of me not being able to check my mail. I do not know if you have been trying to contact me but I have NOT forgotten you! I feel awful not being able to speak to you in so long but I am out. I have had terrible blinding migraines and my vision has suffered immensely as a result. I have gone for 2 catscans of the brain and they have not found any cause for them, this happened to me 15 years ago when I was younger but it ended suddenly, but they are back with a vengeance. The doctors have given me advice to keep watch of the symptoms when it is coming on, and to take 800 mgs of ibuprofen and stay in dark room. I have recognized the symptoms and am now able to at times to stop them in their tracks, some days I am not so lucky though but that is more rare than frequent lately. I still am thinking about you and care for you deeply, so please my friend do not think for a second I have abandoned or forgotten you. Because I lost my po box I will have to give you my home address. My real name is Robin but use the name Angel cuz it was a knickname since writing to so many men in prison I used a surbame. but now you know the truth and I still love you and think of you constantly. A lot has changed since last we wrote and if you please write me back I would love to explain everything to you but in the mean time I will get this off to you. Please write me at my home address, I see the doctor again Thrusday this week but am not scheduled for anymore hospital tests so I will be home to receive your mail. I will not give up on you and unlike some people I will not decline to write you and get personally involved with you and your case. I am here for life and please don't forget that. I am doing better now so plase write me!!!!! Robin Shockley 320 Vista Del Rey Drive Vado NM 88072 This is my home address my po box is defunct so please write me at home. Love you to kiddo and don't lose hope I love ya. XOXO Robin/angel
Hi Mr. Kramer, I'm sorry about the psychiatrists where you are. I'm working in an inner city hospital psychiatric unit and have witnessed the same dynamic you described, and it really is unfortunate. Just wanted to say I read your posts and appreciate the time you spent to get your thoughts out to the world. Sending good thoughts your way.
Thank you Allan! You are enlightening and insightful. I couldn't agree with you more. I enjoy the awakening and analyzation strategies that you appear to as well. Wishing you All is Well, Anne Kronborg
Thanks for writing! I finished the transcription for your post. I hope that your children are patient as this was posted in August and I just transcribed it now. It was nice to see your children reached out to you and that you are able to re-connect with them and hopefully this is the start of wonderful journey for you all!
I will always live with the scars of the abuse I suffered as a child. I think depression and anxiety are things I will struggle with for the rest of my life.
I haven't talked to my father in over a decade, and I hold a tremendous amount of resentment towards him.
However, as I've gotten older, the resentment I have is not so much towards past wounds--those were so long ago now, and I can't imagine a life without them. My anger is towards the fact that he has never apologized. He's never attempted to prove to me that he was capable of change.
Your letter resonated to me because it's the letter I always hoped I'd get from my parents. It's beautiful. It shows how hard you're trying.
My mother acknowledged some of her mistakes to me when I was a teenager, but I wasn't ready to hear her apology yet. After a few tries, she gave up.
Ten years later, I wish she hadn't. If she could try again, it would mean so much.
What I want to tell you is: Don't give up.
It might be a year, five years, or ten. But I believe if a human being sees a continuous effort from someone who cares for them deeply, it would be very difficult for them not to be moved. Best of luck to you. So proud of your strength and your ability to overcome your past and become a person worthy of great love.
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Milo it's Angel Shockley I have been in and out of the hospital past couple of months and my PO Box closed as a result of me not being able to check my mail. I do not know if you have been trying to contact me but I have NOT forgotten you! I feel awful not being able to speak to you in so long but I am out. I have had terrible blinding migraines and my vision has suffered immensely as a result. I have gone for 2 catscans of the brain and they have not found any cause for them, this happened to me 15 years ago when I was younger but it ended suddenly, but they are back with a vengeance. The doctors have given me advice to keep watch of the symptoms when it is coming on, and to take 800 mgs of ibuprofen and stay in dark room. I have recognized the symptoms and am now able to at times to stop them in their tracks, some days I am not so lucky though but that is more rare than frequent lately. I still am thinking about you and care for you deeply, so please my friend do not think for a second I have abandoned or forgotten you. Because I lost my po box I will have to give you my home address. My real name is Robin but use the name Angel cuz it was a knickname since writing to so many men in prison I used a surbame. but now you know the truth and I still love you and think of you constantly. A lot has changed since last we wrote and if you please write me back I would love to explain everything to you but in the mean time I will get this off to you. Please write me at my home address, I see the doctor again Thrusday this week but am not scheduled for anymore hospital tests so I will be home to receive your mail. I will not give up on you and unlike some people I will not decline to write you and get personally involved with you and your case. I am here for life and please don't forget that. I am doing better now so plase write me!!!!!
Robin Shockley
320 Vista Del Rey Drive
Vado NM 88072
This is my home address my po box is defunct so please write me at home. Love you to kiddo and don't lose hope I love ya. XOXO Robin/angel
I'm sorry about the psychiatrists where you are. I'm working in an inner city hospital psychiatric unit and have witnessed the same dynamic you described, and it really is unfortunate. Just wanted to say I read your posts and appreciate the time you spent to get your thoughts out to the world. Sending good thoughts your way.
You are enlightening and insightful. I couldn't agree with you more.
I enjoy the awakening and analyzation strategies that you appear to as well.
Wishing you
All is Well,
Anne Kronborg
The truth needs to be revealed to make change happen. - which you are doing. ;)
I appreciate your sincerity and honesty.
Wishing you the Best,
Anne Kronborg
I haven't talked to my father in over a decade, and I hold a tremendous amount of resentment towards him.
However, as I've gotten older, the resentment I have is not so much towards past wounds--those were so long ago now, and I can't imagine a life without them. My anger is towards the fact that he has never apologized. He's never attempted to prove to me that he was capable of change.
Your letter resonated to me because it's the letter I always hoped I'd get from my parents. It's beautiful. It shows how hard you're trying.
My mother acknowledged some of her mistakes to me when I was a teenager, but I wasn't ready to hear her apology yet. After a few tries, she gave up.
Ten years later, I wish she hadn't. If she could try again, it would mean so much.
What I want to tell you is: Don't give up.
It might be a year, five years, or ten. But I believe if a human being sees a continuous effort from someone who cares for them deeply, it would be very difficult for them not to be moved. Best of luck to you. So proud of your strength and your ability to overcome your past and become a person worthy of great love.