As I sit here, at my desk, at work, reading this.. I am filled with so many emotions. I have dreams of being wrongfully accused and spending my life on death row. The dream is mostly painful, but I wake up feeling revealed. Not because it was just a dream, but because I didn't have to make any life decisions for myself. Reading this today, makes me feel incredibly guilty. I don't think Ill have those dreams anymore. I hope you continue to dream. You are a beautiful person, who is valuable and important. I'm glad you can touch someone outside those walls, even if its just with your words.
I finished the transcription for your post, I was blown away by it. I absolutely love the depth you go into and you bring to light some real issues present in society today. The problem that many people care more about themselves and much less about anyone else. By the end I was brought to tears. You have an incredible capacity and understanding of love and from now on, I will make love more important in my life and spread it more to the lives of others. I want to display that love for all to see! Thank you so much, this is a beautiful post. God bless!
Hey Reck, laughed my ass off at your ass shots conspiracy. My brother in law is a CO and just so happens to think his shit doesn't stink. My felonious friendships always bums them out. I think I'll run this consiracy by him and see what he has to say, maybe do a National Enquirer type article on the topic.
Been really sick for 3-4 months now, putting 2 letters in the mail for you tonight.
There is a reply I sent you in February it looks like. Check it out again, it is a long letter and explains everything in a nutshell. I have been doing sheet metal for over 21 years now, with 20 of it as a supervisor or foreman. The last two years have been horribly slow for my trade and everyone else's. So I have been selling stuff on eBay. I am so sorry that you ended up in prison dude, you are a great guy and I consider probably the best friend I have ever had. It is good to hear that you are positive, or at least positive enough for the situation you happen to be in to keep you moving forward. I will look back on some more of your writings if I can figure out how to. It's nice to be able to look back at your letters and rantings and see what I've missed being there for. I looked for you a few times over the years, but was never any good at the computer until I started selling on eBay, and even doing that, it has taken me 2 plus years to figure what little I know. I really do miss the "old days", wow it sounds crazy saying that because it seems like it was only recently we were together. Keep on plugging away my brother and keep me informed of your happenings. I will reply whenever I get your e-mail. The reply to your e-mails is the only way that I can for sure send you a message. Say hi to Debbie and the kid's, who probably don't remember us and take care until the next correspondence. Rik
Dear Sarah, you are welcomed for the support. I also suffer from insomnia just like you do. My sister told me about a natural remedy called Melatonin. It's a natural supplement that helps with sleep and waking up refreshed. If I take it I find that I get 4 or 6 hours of really good sleep and wake up refreshed. I don't know if it's something they would sale on canteen where you're at. Or if it's something that you could request to have added to the canteen list. But Melatonin is a hormone that the body makes and needs anyways. Some people's bodies don't make enough Melatonin and they need to supplement it. So I think you're body isn't making enough of the Melatonin hormone. That could be why you have insomnia. Also, a friend of mine whose a Yoga teacher taught me a trick to getting a good nights sleep. He read in a book that your pillows need to be slanted. Kind of like how patients in hospitals sleep with their bodies slanted or elevated. But if you don't have a hospital bed you simply put another pillow half way under the first pillow. The bottom pillow will plop up the top of the fist pillow. It's kind of hard to explain with out being there to demonstrate. But it works to make sleep better. I have recently started Massage Therapy for stress. And it has helped me so much. I got rid of a lot of anger and depression thanks to my massage therapist. It costed $30 for a half hour. My massage therapist massaged my back with her elbows. It was so different. I have never heard of massaging someone's back with elbows before. But it worked really well. Have you tried vitamin B12 supplements? I use to have a really emotional menstrual cycle. But after I started taking vitamin B12 supplements most of the emotion related to my period disappeared. My moods are normal now. Well Sarah, I hope you find a natural remedy that can help you with your depression. There's a lot of possibilities out there. My scars use to bother me too but don't anymore. Thanks for responding to my post. God bless you. Sincerely Melissa
This was really well written and very powerful. I had no idea how bad things were. I know an inmate in SHU who went on a hunger strike to try and change the conditions there. Liisa
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Ashley
Been really sick for 3-4 months now, putting 2 letters in the mail for you tonight.
Take care,
Melissa
Also, a friend of mine whose a Yoga teacher taught me a trick to getting a good nights sleep. He read in a book that your pillows need to be slanted. Kind of like how patients in hospitals sleep with their bodies slanted or elevated. But if you don't have a hospital bed you simply put another pillow half way under the first pillow. The bottom pillow will plop up the top of the fist pillow. It's kind of hard to explain with out being there to demonstrate. But it works to make sleep better.
I have recently started Massage Therapy for stress. And it has helped me so much. I got rid of a lot of anger and depression thanks to my massage therapist. It costed $30 for a half hour. My massage therapist massaged my back with her elbows. It was so different. I have never heard of massaging someone's back with elbows before. But it worked really well.
Have you tried vitamin B12 supplements? I use to have a really emotional menstrual cycle. But after I started taking vitamin B12 supplements most of the emotion related to my period disappeared. My moods are normal now.
Well Sarah, I hope you find a natural remedy that can help you with your depression. There's a lot of possibilities out there. My scars use to bother me too but don't anymore. Thanks for responding to my post. God bless you.
Sincerely
Melissa