My love It’s nearly Thanksgiving - nearly another year has passed. I know I’m way behind in writing - I’ve been sick - enough that I haven’t been to church or to community group (church Bible study) Stupid - just a cold that progressed to a horrendous sinus infection - went to urgent care again last night - he said the antibiotic the other guy gave me wasn’t strong enough so now I have a new one to take plus a steroid and some cough meds. Maybe I’ll feel human soon! I love love love you. Happy Thanksgiving - be sure that I’m thinking of you. All my love - always and all ways....your Jeannie
I just watched your case on the series, I am a Killer. Although I feel like you did commit murder by shooting Darren, I don’t feel like you deserved the death sentence for killing Dennise. I hope you get a retrial and hopefully get to live at least part of your life on the outside. Do you have a date set for your execution?
Sometimes the most heartfelt and sincere apology is rejected. People, especially people impacted by tragedy or terrible acts of violence negate the very idea of an apology as they either feel that it would erase their family member or friend, or is an anathema to them personally, and perhaps they truly feel it is not in their power to grant, they just cannot do it, and that’s an honest response. Perhaps a better route here would be atonement. Living your life as an act of correction for previous conduct. Be a better version of yourself and strive to recognise in others, your prior character that’s caused your life to hurtle towards cataclysm. Catch them before they fall. It is an act of strength to live with a terrible remorse. No one knows but you what that feels like. There perhaps is some mythology that people outside fall easily into that a person like your victim is someone who you rarely consider. That you sit in a cushy jail cell with ‘three hots and a cot’, without thought or notion into how your life and hers collided with such violence. Maybe it is something you will have to say every day of your life, to each and every person who ever confronts you about it. Self confrontation is terrifying. Time is terrifying, and a mind unobserved is terrifying. Atonement, or at one ment, might be a good step and encourage some active thought about pushing ahead. All the best T
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It’s nearly Thanksgiving - nearly another year has passed.
I know I’m way behind in writing - I’ve been sick - enough that I haven’t been to church or to community group (church Bible study)
Stupid - just a cold that progressed to a horrendous sinus infection - went to urgent care again last night - he said the antibiotic the other guy gave me wasn’t strong enough so now I have a new one to take plus a steroid and some cough meds. Maybe I’ll feel human soon!
I love love love you. Happy Thanksgiving - be sure that I’m thinking of you.
All my love - always and all ways....your Jeannie
PS - I’ll try to at least send a card soon.
You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers.
Tina
Perhaps a better route here would be atonement. Living your life as an act of correction for previous conduct. Be a better version of yourself and strive to recognise in others, your prior character that’s caused your life to hurtle towards cataclysm. Catch them before they fall.
It is an act of strength to live with a terrible remorse. No one knows but you what that feels like. There perhaps is some mythology that people outside fall easily into that a person like your victim is someone who you rarely consider. That you sit in a cushy jail cell with ‘three hots and a cot’, without thought or notion into how your life and hers collided with such violence. Maybe it is something you will have to say every day of your life, to each and every person who ever confronts you about it. Self confrontation is terrifying. Time is terrifying, and a mind unobserved is terrifying.
Atonement, or at one ment, might be a good step and encourage some active thought about pushing ahead.
All the best
T