I have been attempting to ensure Allen that I'm really not all that interesting, then you come along and advise us both that you've created a spreadsheet!?!! On ME and the comments I leave on Btb... That is the funniest thing I've possibly ever heard. Perhaps I am incredibly interesting after all :D
I guess I can respect the fact that you may find me fascinating enough to study. I am after all the person that believes everyone on this planet has something they can teach us. I guess I must admit I find your consistent negativity and personal attacks on me, and other bloggers, somewhat interesting even though it's opposite to the way I choose to travel through life. I would just find that continuous level of pessimism exhausting.
Perhaps if Allen wants to take a short cut in getting to know more about me, you could send him a copy of that spreadsheet :D As far as your constant concern with my time management goes, I spend every waking moment constructively (That’s my secret). I come here in my quiet moments to reflect, to offer support to those that I feel need it most. You may be pleased to hear SAH that my time here on Btb is not altogether altruistic. I take strength from the stories shared on this site. When I think I'm doing it tough, these people remind me that I have nothing to complain about in the big picture.
My help is DOCUMENTED. Should the need arise, I can and will provide proof of my contribution to the "death row inmates". My small contributions to individual inmates meets my code. As I stated before, I pay the phone bill (monthly) to ensure he talks with his family. Without my assistance they could not communicate. BLEEDING HEARTS (nicki) is NOT going to change certain inmates. The ONES who have a chance for parole and who YOU can help should be on your front burner.
Personally, I've decided to advocate for Marcus T Rogers #377571 SCI 100 Corrections Drive Stanley, WI 54768
My decision to advocate has as much to do with the crime as it has to do with the defendant. I think Mr. Marcus Rogers should be paroled and I think his re-entry into society would be graceful.
This is NOT the true picture of Nicki. For whatever reasons (I won't even guess) he/she has decided to make herself a bleeding heart.
People like Nicki want attention from men who have few choices. Let me digress... if YOU, some incarcerated (lifer or death row), got comm from someone like Nicki who purports to be studying criminology and psychology (along with juggling being a single parent and job holder) your light bulb might go off. *attorney* comes to mind.
While I agree that this medium MAY reach someone who MIGHT make a difference, the odds are against you.
That being said..since my interest in this website, I have taken a certain interest in a few cases. My actions are noted by those.
In my ANAL analysis, I've done a spreadsheet on your posts. What I find FASCINATING is that you've managed a family (successfully) as a single mom (done that), worked (done that), pursue CRIMINOLOGY AND PSYCHOLOGY in school (done that) AND get to the DEPRIVATION part of studies.(done that) ..and still find time to post repeatedly.
Good old Nicki. Single mother, college student (criminology and psychology) AND job holder. Glad to see you using your "spare time" so efficiently.
Your posts DO NOT REFLECT the person/life you post. In the event you are real, you might consider putting that *chit* in a bottle and selling it. You could use to the proceeds to fund these inmates.
I'm trying to decide if you're joking around, or if you've been mislead somewhere along the way.
There is no animosity between Australia and New Zealand. We view ourselves as cousins and fought side by side in WW1 and WW2. We are able to travel freely between our countries without the need for visas so I'm a little confused.
As for fighting along side the Americans... I think it's a case of, you'd be stupid to fight against the world's superpower, so we'll go along for the ride. We've always been alais with the US anyway, just as we have with England.
So what is this trouble you speak of with New Zealand. NZ would have to be one of the world's most peaceful countries. & anyway, we're bigger than them (but they're pretty good at beating us in the rugby). I should tell you I'm actually a kiwi, I just grew up in Australia :D
I just went and introduced myself to JPay, I had no idea what it was all about. I gave it the details it required about you, it made me join up, which I did, then told me I had to 'buy stamps' to send you an e-mail... So here I am back here haha.
I'm happy to correspond with you, and tell you more about me (even though I came here to learn more about others, not so much to talk about myself) but I cannot be the 'girl of your dreams'. Nice try though :D
Hi Ezra, thank you for your reply. I've just been going back through to those I haven't responded to. I get notifications on my phone when you have sent in a reply, but I'm often not at my computer when I read them so it can be easy to overlook them with all the distractions around me.
Thank you for answering my questions, I'm still intrigued by your work release program and would like to know more. I actually didn't know the USA had work release programs in place. We have some here in Australia too, which were born out of natural disasters beginning in the 1990s. Prisoners assisted farmers to clean up their properties after floods or cyclones (you call them hurricanes). Here in my part of the world it was the banana farmers that needed the most help and there have been a lot of success stories that have come out of those projects. Things like 'people that had never worked before were offered work on that property after their release'.
How did you become eligable for your work release program & did you have a choice of the type of work you do? It sounds like there are other inmates that work with you, is that the case? and how are you transported to and from your job? Are you paid the same rate as other workers..? Too many questions..? haha.
I'm interested because I think putting people to work is the best form of rehabilitation there could be. After the things you identified in your last reply as to what you get out of it, I know you know what I'm talking about. Other than the necessary, healthy social interactions, the biggest thing work gives us, in my opinion, is self confidance and a sense of self worth, 'a purpose' and that's what so many people in the prisons of the world could benifit from in my humble opinion.
I will send you an Aussie card as a token of my appreciation for answering my never ending questions :) Your friend Nicki
I think at times we all feel like we're talking to ourselves, but thanks to Btb we can interact here, which is a wonderful thing.
The loss of your children is heartbreaking, you obviously love them a lot, I hope you can focus on the fact that you had those years of continuous contact with your son throughout his childhood, even though you're unable to see him now. He will have a lot of memories of you, just as you do of him, and I'm sure he misses you too. I don't mean to diminish the pain you feel, but I hope you can be thankful for the contact you have had to this point and use those moments to find strength.
You thanked me in your reply, for understanding the pain you and others deal with. I thought this was an interesting comment, it was sweet, but I don't think for a moment that I could ever understand what you go through in that environment. I have been inside Australian prisons before throughout the course of my employment, and the cells in the watchhouse (which you would call jail) and I have felt the heaviness of those environments, but I always had the knowledge that the doors would be unlocked for me when it was time to leave, and that's what made it bareable. I feel that although I couldn't ever understand your pain, all I can do is acknowledge it.
My children's father has the option to be in their lives, but he chooses not to. It hardly seems fair when there are others like you that would do anything for the chance to see their children. It's a crazy world we live in and corresponding with people like yourself makes me incredibly thankful for all that I do have.
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I have been attempting to ensure Allen that I'm really not all that interesting, then you come along and advise us both that you've created a spreadsheet!?!! On ME and the comments I leave on Btb... That is the funniest thing I've possibly ever heard. Perhaps I am incredibly interesting after all :D
I guess I can respect the fact that you may find me fascinating enough to study. I am after all the person that believes everyone on this planet has something they can teach us. I guess I must admit I find your consistent negativity and personal attacks on me, and other bloggers, somewhat interesting even though it's opposite to the way I choose to travel through life. I would just find that continuous level of pessimism exhausting.
Perhaps if Allen wants to take a short cut in getting to know more about me, you could send him a copy of that spreadsheet :D As far as your constant concern with my time management goes, I spend every waking moment constructively (That’s my secret). I come here in my quiet moments to reflect, to offer support to those that I feel need it most. You may be pleased to hear SAH that my time here on Btb is not altogether altruistic. I take strength from the stories shared on this site. When I think I'm doing it tough, these people remind me that I have nothing to complain about in the big picture.
I AM in the process of a scrutiny re: this case.
I will post the positive vs the negative.
Personally, I've decided to advocate for Marcus T Rogers #377571
SCI
100 Corrections Drive
Stanley, WI 54768
My decision to advocate has as much to do with the crime as it has to do with the defendant. I think Mr. Marcus Rogers should be paroled and I think his re-entry into society would be graceful.
People like Nicki want attention from men who have few choices. Let me digress... if YOU, some incarcerated (lifer or death row), got comm from someone like Nicki who purports to be studying criminology and psychology (along with juggling being a single parent and job holder) your light bulb might go off. *attorney* comes to mind.
While I agree that this medium MAY reach someone who MIGHT make a difference, the odds are against you.
That being said..since my interest in this website, I have taken a certain interest in a few cases. My actions are noted by those.
Anybody besides me see a problem here?
Your posts DO NOT REFLECT the person/life you post. In the event you are real, you might consider putting that *chit* in a bottle and selling it. You could use to the proceeds to fund these inmates.
There is no animosity between Australia and New Zealand. We view ourselves as cousins and fought side by side in WW1 and WW2. We are able to travel freely between our countries without the need for visas so I'm a little confused.
As for fighting along side the Americans... I think it's a case of, you'd be stupid to fight against the world's superpower, so we'll go along for the ride. We've always been alais with the US anyway, just as we have with England.
So what is this trouble you speak of with New Zealand. NZ would have to be one of the world's most peaceful countries. & anyway, we're bigger than them (but they're pretty good at beating us in the rugby). I should tell you I'm actually a kiwi, I just grew up in Australia :D
I'm happy to correspond with you, and tell you more about me (even though I came here to learn more about others, not so much to talk about myself) but I cannot be the 'girl of your dreams'. Nice try though :D
Nicki
Thank you for answering my questions, I'm still intrigued by your work release program and would like to know more. I actually didn't know the USA had work release programs in place. We have some here in Australia too, which were born out of natural disasters beginning in the 1990s. Prisoners assisted farmers to clean up their properties after floods or cyclones (you call them hurricanes). Here in my part of the world it was the banana farmers that needed the most help and there have been a lot of success stories that have come out of those projects. Things like 'people that had never worked before were offered work on that property after their release'.
How did you become eligable for your work release program & did you have a choice of the type of work you do? It sounds like there are other inmates that work with you, is that the case? and how are you transported to and from your job? Are you paid the same rate as other workers..? Too many questions..? haha.
I'm interested because I think putting people to work is the best form of rehabilitation there could be. After the things you identified in your last reply as to what you get out of it, I know you know what I'm talking about. Other than the necessary, healthy social interactions, the biggest thing work gives us, in my opinion, is self confidance and a sense of self worth, 'a purpose' and that's what so many people in the prisons of the world could benifit from in my humble opinion.
I will send you an Aussie card as a token of my appreciation for answering my never ending questions :) Your friend Nicki
The loss of your children is heartbreaking, you obviously love them a lot, I hope you can focus on the fact that you had those years of continuous contact with your son throughout his childhood, even though you're unable to see him now. He will have a lot of memories of you, just as you do of him, and I'm sure he misses you too. I don't mean to diminish the pain you feel, but I hope you can be thankful for the contact you have had to this point and use those moments to find strength.
You thanked me in your reply, for understanding the pain you and others deal with. I thought this was an interesting comment, it was sweet, but I don't think for a moment that I could ever understand what you go through in that environment. I have been inside Australian prisons before throughout the course of my employment, and the cells in the watchhouse (which you would call jail) and I have felt the heaviness of those environments, but I always had the knowledge that the doors would be unlocked for me when it was time to leave, and that's what made it bareable. I feel that although I couldn't ever understand your pain, all I can do is acknowledge it.
My children's father has the option to be in their lives, but he chooses not to. It hardly seems fair when there are others like you that would do anything for the chance to see their children. It's a crazy world we live in and corresponding with people like yourself makes me incredibly thankful for all that I do have.
Take care!
Nicki