Not being able to have a direct constructive effect on a situation where inmates spit, and toss water, urine, and feces and dirty condoms on gay inmates, who are beaten up, and forced into protective custody programming is enough for me to return to my most self-destructive self, the version of the prisoner that even the 6'o'clock news pays attention to.
When I am self-destructive and dying, alot of peoples official capacity is active, when I am self-constructive and living, the desperation of the action-oriented and authorized had me about to kill myself last night.
Even after we requested prison officials to give us institutional policy-related information to allow donors to donate industrial DVD players to replace the broken DVD players in the SQ Media Center, Nothing, no response.
There is a great misconception that gays, especially gay youth kill themselves because they are gay, when the fact is, gay people commit suicide because of the negative and rejection responses from family, church, and community that drives on to suicide.
For example, an urban perspective LGBTQI+ movie titled Moonlight, won an Academy Award for Best Picture was "privately screened in a prison chapel", perhaps some kind of beta test? It was said that inmates was repulsed, and some walked out, so it was decided not to broadcast the video of the film at SQSP. The story of a gay black boy, growing up in the hood, rejected, and screened in a hostile environment where homosexuality is viewed as an abomination of God.
Nobody ask Gay prisoners to screen Heterosexual movies in prison, and movies about white musicians like Elton John, and The Band Queen have been broadcasted, which is a clear racist implicit bias, and selective morality discrimination issue. Someone said yesterday, that the Bible says that "There is a time and place for everything!" Please try not to imagine how many times serial killers, child molestors, and gang members have quoted Bible and Quaran scriptures "at Me", So, yesterday, I said, "What about suicide?"
That comment alone left me with the Muslim population to engage for the remainder of the conversation, so I asked them, will Allah bless me with 70 virgin men, and live forever in paradise? Especially if I Martyr myself for my beliefs?
They to became silent, but not without a snide chuckle, so, I sat on the edge of the Bunk and said, I think this may be the time for me to kill myself, I fell into a deep sleep, awoke today and began to write this experience
6. I have never heard, since I've been here from 1997 to this very nano-second, a person claiming to be Christian, Muslim, Religious, or so-called active gang member of Gang affiliate use words like, nigger, beaner, wetback, cracker, nipp, kite, colored boy, or the famous, "YOU PEOPLE", over the open tier, or on the Prison's exercise yards. Yet, at any given time, whether it be an angry outburst of some kind, or jokes, and banter, or even simple idle chatter, I have, and still hear the words, Homo, Fag, Faggot, Pussy Niggaz, Gay ass muthafuckas, Saguni, Chajudo, and all of the other psychosexual, Hypermasculine demeaning words that exist antithetical to the respected nature of inmates that identify to some degree as LGBTQI+, and closeted family members. It is so toxic that earplugs or headphone use is not effective to miss the discrimination. I started a 1st ever LGBTQI+ Spirituality group, but staff refuse to announce LGBTQI+ over the P.A. system, they even asked the inmate advisors council should it be announced and the inmates said no, yet, staff announce, protestant, catholic, Muslim, Jehovah's Witness, AMI (American Indian), Budist [Buddhist], and Letter Day Saints, and Jewish Religious services over the unit P.A. System, NO LGBTQI+.
Our group created a Media Center LGBTQI+ Television Broadcast called The Sound Mind Streamer, The Jewish Chaplan, asked a free staff volunteer to help us in our endeavor, and this volunteer attempted to change our spirituality program into her vocational program, and actually told NBC News reporter that CDCR authorized her to replicate her program on Death Row, and identified it as our group, and she presented as LGBTQI+, gave us false promises, while attempting to overtake and steal our constructive program. That was not only disrespectful, but it also hurt. We finally got one of our many DVD's to be broadcasted over the inner-prison televised Media Center Channel, in late April of 2020?
Today is the 3rd week of June, which is PRIDE Month, nothing, even after the screening process morphed into and editing mission a) copyright rejections b) subtitle requirements which are NEW c) Broken DVD Players @ Media Center
Several years of hard work, debate, and construction building, at ZERO COST to the state, and community donor content, nothing.
So many have attempted to highjack the vision of The Sound Mind Streamer, and turn it into what they want it to be in order to stake some claim of creative origins credits, or, whatever goes through the minds of Megalomaniacs with proselytizing missions that refuse to serve the most underserved demographic of SQ Campus population equally and constitutionally, has driven me to just want to kill myself.
Most people have concluded that the self-destructive behavior of Gay people are cries for help, and could lead to suicide.
The self appointed helpful experts encourage high risk suicidal thinking people to open up and talk more, to get out and become more social, join a self help rehabilitative program, embrace spirituality and mediation etc, but most importantly, just talk to somebody.
Last night, I almost killed myself, Hello my name is Floyd Smith, I'm a condemned inmate housed at San Quentin State Prison, 2nd IAM, out of over 750+ people here, the only Black Man that openly identify as Gay.
For over 20 years, I have opened up to people who are supposed to be experts in the field of mental health, yet not psycho-sexually qualified to engage my non-pyschological, non-mental health homosexual disorder?
After being told by a mental health care provider here named Dave White that my homosexuality was a mental disorder, I realized that I had a choice, I could;
#1. Convert into the version of Christianity that Dave White was phase treating me with, OR seek other rational resolve, or, just kill myself.
#2. I began to be more social within the Condemned population, now that was great, until my presence within an earshot of my new social group didn't matter due to the ongoing toxic environment that is all things anti-homosexual.
(The General Distance Yelling Comments)
1. "Cops searched my cell again today, they must be in here sniffing my dirty boxers, gay ass muthafuckas."
2. "They don fucked our Youth up out there, turn on Channel 2, why these youngstas wearing skinny jeans, and all these bright as hell colors, they really think that gay shit is cool"
3. CDCK gave us these gay ass yellow yard bags to psychologically demasculate us.
4. This ain't real meat on this dinner tray, they're giving us soy meat to make us all feminine and soft.
5. I don't even wanna mention this shower shark cop on the gunrail watching me shower, up there getting his jellies off
When CDCR, and San Quenitn State Prison defer to the contengency of Lesbians to foster a curriculum designed for the programming of inmates that identify to some degree as LGBTI+, by default, CDDR exacerbates the ongoing deprivation for the resources, and funding, social justice, historical, and educational and spiritual and mental health of the continumn, and spectrum of all LGBTQI+ incarcerated Americans. -F. Smith
SO I took it upon myself to retire from Death Penalty related Journalism, and create a zine issue that was totally black perspective, historically, educationally, and yes, personally.
My TOP-Down research method, and inquiry findings concluded that,
a) All California Department of Corrections policies have been by way of Litigation Settlements refocused, with all care and attention to Department Responses to PREA - Prison Rape Elimination Act, claims are all designed to primarily effect the safety and security of inmates that identify as Transgender, which by default leaves inmates that identify as gay, or bi-sexual underserved and vulnerable to abuses.
b) At San Quentin, the Lead PREA Investigator presents as Lesbian, as do the Statewide PREA Coordinator.
c) The one, SQ mainline program is also headed by a volunteer that also presents as lesbian
with the combination of all three of these observations from within an All Male prison, San Quentin State Prison officials who are unaware of a 20 year devision within the LGBTQI+ community where a growing number of Programming agendas have been controlled by a contengency of Lesbians that have mission to retaliate against predominantly gay males that notibelly exluded Lesbians, and Trangender persons from the early days of the Gay Liberation movement, in an effort to re-begin the Epic Story within new curricullum that refocuses the Genesis of the movement to the 1969 Stonewall Liberation, headed by Trans women, that found a new sisterhood with Lesbian groups, that morph the new version of Gay history to include womens issues and causes of the day, at the expense of leaving Gays vulnerable to a nonprotected position. It is a factual point to make here that most Black gay prisoners that are so left out of the family we call LGBTQI+, that most don't know the source of the eclusion, which is now prepetrated primarily by Whites that present as lesbians, that have lobbied CDCR for leadership positions for the programming of inmates that identify as LGBTQI+ .
This conduct has been so observed in outter society of said racial exclusion, that Black LGBTQI+ persons had to create "BLACK PRIDE" recognitions and celebratins durring the month of June which is recognized as "PRIDE MONTH" all over the world, hence "Latino Pride" and more.
For those of You who are in denial, and reject this body of work, please research the recent official change to the Rainbow Flag to include the colors Black, and Brown at the top, and inquire as to why the community felt it necessary for the official inclusion of Black and Latino people in LGBTQI+ flag demonstrations.
In or about April 12, 2016 I was working as co-editor of the WRITE OR DIE Zine Project, which is the vision of a fellow California Condemned inmate that I had dedicated myself to for 6 years before THe Pulse Night Club Mass Shooting in Florida happened on that dreadful day which up to that point was noted by many as the worst Mass Shooting in American History, it was infact, the worst mass Shooting against The LGBTQI+ Community for sure.
Up to that moment, I was hit with my own realization that while working and writing for a predominantly Anti-Death Penalty movement, in Zine format, I had not written one word about my own conditions as the only Black Man on California Death Row that identified openly as Gay.
Beyond the "crowded closet," there is ZERO history of anyone gay on California Death Row, now, mind, you, near to 2013, there is 2 transgender girls, yet, one received re-assignment surgery and was re-housed at Chowchilla Prison for Women, and a very courageous Latino man that came out as Bi-sexual around 2 year ago, soout of 750+ people on Death Row 3 people identify to some degree as LGBTQI+, 3 in 750 ?
San Quentin has a 4,000 plus total inmate population, and durring a reent San Quentin Prison Media broadcast of the "EAR Hustle" opdcast episode titled "The Down Low," the Inmate host of the podcast stated that "No one at San Quentin is openly Gay, no one."
So from the total history of Death Row until now, I'm the only person at San Quentin State Prison that is Gay? Where else in any society can we find these kinds of numbers?, and why?
I pounded my fist on the wall to get the attention of the guy in the cell nextdoor, who at the time on April 12, 2016, who was none other than the creator of The WRITE OR DIE Zines, WODZ.
While asking if I could theme a WODZ issue LGBTQI+ in the wake of the Pulse Night Club Mass Shooting, he simply said "get' em," and this was the origins of how the Azande Press Zine issues evolved from that very first LGBTQI+ perspective WODZ issue titled "Poetry, Prose & Condz vole 3". This, and all Azande Press Issues are available @: South Chicago, ABC Zine Distro P.O. Box 721, Homewood, IL. 60430
(Black Gay Zine Issues) WODZ - Poetry, Prose & Condz vol 3 WODZ - I am Azande Azande Press - Sound Mind Steamer Azande Press - Sound Mind Streamer pt 2 Azande Press - Gaytekeepers Azande Press - Lberated Facts Azande Press - Direct MEssage Azande Press - SIX Azande Press - Parallelboi
After the release of the first WODZ issue - PP&C vol 3, I realized that I still had not dealt with the reasons as to why I was the only open gay black man in a prison that housed over 4,000 inmates.
"That God," had no problem creating other earth spiecies male and female in prior verses of the souree, that story, yet, when it came to Man, God has this apithany? that he ther forgot to create a human female? Or?...
How many wives did Abraham have? how many wives can a man have in America? That God, dealt directly with Abraham, and so-called pastors say that they talk to that same god who they say is the same today, yesterday and forever word games still suck huh?
Guess it is impossible for a man to commit adultery if he has many wives? OR is marage still defined as the union between 1 man, and 1 woman?
The use of the word Eunuch in that book is fact to me that man is a great embellishing writer, and a great disrespector of his own God, and the intellectual capacity of his fellow human.
Black people continue to abuse fellow Black people of this born free generation with dispositions that are flawed, and realistically non-factual.
Who today will tell a pastor that his book says for a woman is to remain silent in church Service? Anybody?
yet, a female Pastor today can verbally abuse LGBTQI+ people from the pulpit, and durring Church Service? We call that Selective Morality. Kim Burrell I love your singing voice, yet you speak like a stone castor.
I believe the Woman Silence verse is very disrespectful to my amazing Aunt Joyce who is an incredible Evangelist, and all of the amazing female Gospel Singer's and Rappers, the female program announcer's the female Church Administrator's and powerful women of God, but that's just my gay Blac man's opinion, but at leats, my opinion is based on facts.
Black people can benefit by understanding that the knowledge of a fact is not required for a fact to exist, for a fact is a fact wheather we accept it or not.
We are on a mission to Liberate enslaved facts about Our own history without begging for empathy or acceptance from anyone, however, there is a demand here against social and economical injustice, Physical, Spiritual, and Cultural abuse and deprivation, and that's a Liberated fact?
Heterosexual people should not be allowed to dictate as so-called experts of something they profess not to be.
The old presentation of gay people that claim religion made them straight is no more valuable than straight people being turned- out as homosexual, there is a duality there for claim that doesn't apply to the rest of the homosexuals on the planet, as heterosexual people make the crusial mistake that all gay people rise and or fall to a cookie Cutter common standard of degrees.
Homosexual pediphilia is equal to heteral sexual pediphilia for pediphilia has more to do with the under age of a child, not the sexual identity of the adult, and this sick conduct is well documented in heterelsexual people and cultures all over the world, and thats a horrific liberated
Sometimes are as a Society forget that the abolishment of the enslavement of any people doesn't always liberate the enslaved facts about interrupted, and distroyed spiritual and cultural history of enslaved persons, and tribes.
Today, we are now seeing the results of the post tramatic effects of enslavement within the born free generation that have been intentionally denied access to totality of the reality of the existence of what we know as same sex activities pre-colonial era of the enslavement of Black People all around the World
The born free generation continues to be victimized and conditioned to turn against fellow Black people that identify to some degree of what is now known as LGBTQI+, which by default Means, Black people must now become abolisher's, and take an active Position for the Liberations of Facts of Black History.
Black people must not confuse the actions of Liberatng Facts with the other so-called Methods of requesting empathy from oppressor's and fellow Black people, for empathy is not required for the demand of, and command of true freedom.
The Liberation of Facts also doesn't require Military action, acts of violence, or an protests, because, any facts, exists as a defender of itself.
We dont look into the faces of our amazing born free generation and say that they are 3 fifths percent of a human being, because w, even without facts to disprove such ignorance, and our youth Know that, to be untrue, ad unacceptable.
Why then should Black People continue in ignorance, inspite mounting Liberated facts that that hatred was imported into Africa, not homosexuality?
Gay people are 100% human.
Our validated distain for the horror's of the act's of Buck-Breaking sicking methods forced upon our honored Ancestor's must not be used as a misguided untruth to abuse ever born free generation, because the liberated Fact is that rape is still rape inspite the sexual identity of the victim-
Liberated Facts show that some of those Victims of Buck Breaking identified as what we now understand as LGBTQI+, before they was enslaved, and so, Buck Breaking, in the 1600s didn't make me homosexual circa 2020, no more than Breeding Slaves to make slaves Big and Strong to produce a strong workfoce didnt make any of my biological sisters identify by what we recognize today as Heterosexual, or that would also mean that enslavers bred heterosexual hyper masculinitized distain for homosexuals.
Abusers of the Misuse of history can't have it both ways, especially with foreign Religions.
A male God, and a sleeping Male human Adam, produced a human female Eve, for the sole purpose of providing that male Adam with a, "Helpmate", which by the way, to this day, has never been proven to be a fact.
The agreement had a second prong for the forced, violent physical removal of the so-called "undesirable" inmates.
Some Gangmembers relayed to me that they was NOT involved in said action and agreement with other Gangs. I expressed to them that there is a contribution of Blackness when we as a people hold the White Silence is violence disposition over white people, and Police officers that call themselves good, yet do, and say nothing about fellow white people and Police Brutality and Murder of OUR Black Youth, and yet, Fellow Gang Members, of all races spit on, and toss urin and feces on Black-Gay Inmates in Gang Silence?
Other Gangmembers say, "Well, we got tired of The Homies to fight and Kill each other in Jails Prisons, The Streets, and in The Hood, and nobody has agreed to get Rid of all females.
Another Gangmembers said, "Well Homosexuals be Snitchin, and using prison yards as a Hurting ground to turn out The Homies. I said "Snitchin is a regular Component to ctiminal life, and for decades Gangmembers have been notorious for Snitchin. moreover. When a Gangmember snitches, nobody agrees to get rid of all Gangmembers, and Gangmembers are still snitchin to this day, in fact to Your other part, Gangs are also Known to use prison Yards as a Hunting grown to "turn others out" into being gangmembers, and nobody has called for an agreement to get rid of those that do what You speak of.
Another Gangmember said "Well, 9 times out of 10, agz are in prison for being pedophile Childmolesters, Raping little boys, so they had to go."
I replied that the stats show that most pedophiles, Rapist, and Child molsters identify and present as Heterosexual, and there are more sex offenders who identify as heterosexual Gangmembers who are Black and on so-called Death Row Solid yards than Blacks assigned to so-called SNY yards put together, to this very second. Infact, the very Gangs that are involved in the agreement, made the agreement with, and are still on the yard with, Pedophiles, Child Molesters, Serial Rapist with Media given nicknames and other sex related offenses, and nobody is "Getting Rid of them because they are the Homies?"
The last Gangmember said, "Well, Governor Gavin Newsome supports Gay shit, so at some point, especially if a few fagz get somked (killed), then He will force CDCR to Stop That 5050 program merger bullshit, and the white man brought that Homosexual shit to Afruca anyway, Fuck all Fags, and you're an Abomination
My apit became, IF my Black adverary, with His Brilliant Book writing ass was this ignorant to the Facts, then how much more ignorant was my fellow Black Gay Family? So with love, I created Azande Press Zine Issue Series -F. Smith
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When I am self-destructive and dying, alot of peoples official capacity is active, when I am self-constructive and living, the desperation of the action-oriented and authorized had me about to kill myself last night.
Even after we requested prison officials to give us institutional policy-related information to allow donors to donate industrial DVD players to replace the broken DVD players in the SQ Media Center, Nothing, no response.
There is a great misconception that gays, especially gay youth kill themselves because they are gay, when the fact is, gay people commit suicide because of the negative and rejection responses from family, church, and community that drives on to suicide.
For example, an urban perspective LGBTQI+ movie titled Moonlight, won an Academy Award for Best Picture was "privately screened in a prison chapel", perhaps some kind of beta test? It was said that inmates was repulsed, and some walked out, so it was decided not to broadcast the video of the film at SQSP. The story of a gay black boy, growing up in the hood, rejected, and screened in a hostile environment where homosexuality is viewed as an abomination of God.
Nobody ask Gay prisoners to screen Heterosexual movies in prison, and movies about white musicians like Elton John, and The Band Queen have been broadcasted, which is a clear racist implicit bias, and selective morality discrimination issue. Someone said yesterday, that the Bible says that "There is a time and place for everything!" Please try not to imagine how many times serial killers, child molestors, and gang members have quoted Bible and Quaran scriptures "at Me", So, yesterday, I said, "What about suicide?"
That comment alone left me with the Muslim population to engage for the remainder of the conversation, so I asked them, will Allah bless me with 70 virgin men, and live forever in paradise? Especially if I Martyr myself for my beliefs?
They to became silent, but not without a snide chuckle, so, I sat on the edge of the Bunk and said, I think this may be the time for me to kill myself, I fell into a deep sleep, awoke today and began to write this experience
Yet, at any given time, whether it be an angry outburst of some kind, or jokes, and banter, or even simple idle chatter, I have, and still hear the words, Homo, Fag, Faggot, Pussy Niggaz, Gay ass muthafuckas, Saguni, Chajudo, and all of the other psychosexual, Hypermasculine demeaning words that exist antithetical to the respected nature of inmates that identify to some degree as LGBTQI+, and closeted family members. It is so toxic that earplugs or headphone use is not effective to miss the discrimination.
I started a 1st ever LGBTQI+ Spirituality group, but staff refuse to announce LGBTQI+ over the P.A. system, they even asked the inmate advisors council should it be announced and the inmates said no, yet, staff announce, protestant, catholic, Muslim, Jehovah's Witness, AMI (American Indian), Budist [Buddhist], and Letter Day Saints, and Jewish Religious services over the unit P.A. System, NO LGBTQI+.
Our group created a Media Center LGBTQI+ Television Broadcast called The Sound Mind Streamer, The Jewish Chaplan, asked a free staff volunteer to help us in our endeavor, and this volunteer attempted to change our spirituality program into her vocational program, and actually told NBC News reporter that CDCR authorized her to replicate her program on Death Row, and identified it as our group, and she presented as LGBTQI+, gave us false promises, while attempting to overtake and steal our constructive program. That was not only disrespectful, but it also hurt.
We finally got one of our many DVD's to be broadcasted over the inner-prison televised Media Center Channel, in late April of 2020?
Today is the 3rd week of June, which is PRIDE Month, nothing, even after the screening process morphed into and editing mission
a) copyright rejections
b) subtitle requirements which are NEW
c) Broken DVD Players @ Media Center
Several years of hard work, debate, and construction building, at ZERO COST to the state, and community donor content, nothing.
So many have attempted to highjack the vision of The Sound Mind Streamer, and turn it into what they want it to be in order to stake some claim of creative origins credits, or, whatever goes through the minds of Megalomaniacs with proselytizing missions that refuse to serve the most underserved demographic of SQ Campus population equally and constitutionally, has driven me to just want to kill myself.
No Turning Back:
Most people have concluded that the self-destructive behavior of Gay people are cries for help, and could lead to suicide.
The self appointed helpful experts encourage high risk suicidal thinking people to open up and talk more, to get out and become more social, join a self help rehabilitative program, embrace spirituality and mediation etc, but most importantly, just talk to somebody.
Last night, I almost killed myself, Hello my name is Floyd Smith, I'm a condemned inmate housed at San Quentin State Prison, 2nd IAM, out of over 750+ people here, the only Black Man that openly identify as Gay.
For over 20 years, I have opened up to people who are supposed to be experts in the field of mental health, yet not psycho-sexually qualified to engage my non-pyschological, non-mental health homosexual disorder?
After being told by a mental health care provider here named Dave White that my homosexuality was a mental disorder, I realized that I had a choice, I could;
#1. Convert into the version of Christianity that Dave White was phase treating me with, OR seek other rational resolve, or, just kill myself.
#2. I began to be more social within the Condemned population, now that was great, until my presence within an earshot of my new social group didn't matter due to the ongoing toxic environment that is all things anti-homosexual.
(The General Distance Yelling Comments)
1. "Cops searched my cell again today, they must be in here sniffing my dirty boxers, gay ass muthafuckas."
2. "They don fucked our Youth up out there, turn on Channel 2, why these youngstas wearing skinny jeans, and all these bright as hell colors, they really think that gay shit is cool"
3. CDCK gave us these gay ass yellow yard bags to psychologically demasculate us.
4. This ain't real meat on this dinner tray, they're giving us soy meat to make us all feminine and soft.
5. I don't even wanna mention this shower shark cop on the gunrail watching me shower, up there getting his jellies off
State Prison defer to the
contengency of Lesbians to
foster a curriculum designed
for the programming of inmates
that identify to some degree
as LGBTI+, by default,
CDDR exacerbates the ongoing
deprivation for the resources,
and funding, social justice,
historical, and educational
and spiritual and mental
health of the continumn, and
spectrum of all LGBTQI+
incarcerated Americans.
-F. Smith
retire from Death Penalty
related Journalism, and create
a zine issue that was totally
black perspective, historically,
educationally, and yes, personally.
My TOP-Down research method,
and inquiry findings concluded that,
a) All California Department of
Corrections policies have been
by way of Litigation Settlements
refocused, with all care and
attention to Department Responses
to PREA - Prison Rape Elimination
Act, claims are all designed
to primarily effect the
safety and security of inmates
that identify as Transgender,
which by default leaves
inmates that identify as gay,
or bi-sexual underserved
and vulnerable to abuses.
b) At San Quentin, the Lead
PREA Investigator presents
as Lesbian, as do the
Statewide PREA Coordinator.
c) The one, SQ mainline program
is also headed by a volunteer
that also presents as lesbian
with the combination of all
three of these observations
from within an All Male prison,
San Quentin State Prison officials
who are unaware of a 20 year
devision within the LGBTQI+
community where a growing
number of Programming agendas
have been controlled by a
contengency of Lesbians that
have mission to retaliate
against predominantly gay males
that notibelly exluded Lesbians,
and Trangender persons from the
early days of the Gay Liberation
movement, in an effort to
re-begin the Epic Story
within new curricullum that
refocuses the Genesis of the
movement to the 1969 Stonewall
Liberation, headed by Trans
women, that found a new
sisterhood with Lesbian groups,
that morph the new version
of Gay history to include
womens issues and causes
of the day, at the expense of
leaving Gays vulnerable to a
nonprotected position. It is
a factual point to make here
that most Black gay prisoners
that are so left out of the
family we call LGBTQI+, that
most don't know the source of
the eclusion, which is now
prepetrated primarily by Whites
that present as lesbians, that
have lobbied CDCR for
leadership positions for the
programming of inmates that
identify as LGBTQI+ .
This conduct has been so
observed in outter society
of said racial exclusion, that
Black LGBTQI+ persons had
to create "BLACK PRIDE"
recognitions and celebratins
durring the month of June
which is recognized as
"PRIDE MONTH" all over the
world, hence "Latino Pride"
and more.
For those of You who are in
denial, and reject this body
of work, please research the
recent official change to the
Rainbow Flag to include the
colors Black, and Brown at
the top, and inquire as to
why the community felt it
necessary for the official
inclusion of Black and
Latino people in LGBTQI+
flag demonstrations.
was working as co-editor of the
WRITE OR DIE Zine Project, which
is the vision of a fellow California
Condemned inmate that I had
dedicated myself to for 6 years
before THe Pulse Night Club Mass
Shooting in Florida happened on
that dreadful day which up to
that point was noted by many
as the worst Mass Shooting in
American History, it was infact,
the worst mass Shooting against
The LGBTQI+ Community for sure.
Up to that moment, I was hit
with my own realization that
while working and writing for
a predominantly Anti-Death Penalty
movement, in Zine format, I had
not written one word about my own
conditions as the only Black
Man on California Death Row
that identified openly as Gay.
Beyond the "crowded closet," there
is ZERO history of anyone gay
on California Death Row, now,
mind, you, near to 2013, there
is 2 transgender girls, yet,
one received re-assignment
surgery and was re-housed at
Chowchilla Prison for Women,
and a very courageous Latino
man that came out as Bi-sexual
around 2 year ago, soout
of 750+ people on Death Row
3 people identify to some degree
as LGBTQI+, 3 in 750 ?
San Quentin has a 4,000 plus
total inmate population, and
durring a reent San Quentin
Prison Media broadcast of
the "EAR Hustle" opdcast episode
titled "The Down Low," the Inmate
host of the podcast stated that
"No one at San Quentin is
openly Gay, no one."
So from the total history of Death
Row until now, I'm the only
person at San Quentin State
Prison that is Gay? Where
else in any society can we
find these kinds of numbers?,
and why?
I pounded my fist on the wall
to get the attention of the guy
in the cell nextdoor, who
at the time on April 12, 2016,
who was none other than the
creator of The WRITE OR DIE
Zines, WODZ.
While asking if I could theme
a WODZ issue LGBTQI+ in
the wake of the Pulse Night
Club Mass Shooting, he simply
said "get' em," and this
was the origins of how the
Azande Press Zine issues
evolved from that very first
LGBTQI+ perspective WODZ
issue titled "Poetry, Prose & Condz
vole 3". This, and all
Azande Press Issues are
available @:
South Chicago, ABC Zine Distro
P.O. Box 721, Homewood, IL. 60430
(Black Gay Zine Issues)
WODZ - Poetry, Prose & Condz vol 3
WODZ - I am Azande
Azande Press - Sound Mind Steamer
Azande Press - Sound Mind Streamer pt 2
Azande Press - Gaytekeepers
Azande Press - Lberated Facts
Azande Press - Direct MEssage
Azande Press - SIX
Azande Press - Parallelboi
After the release of the first WODZ
issue - PP&C vol 3, I realized that
I still had not dealt with the
reasons as to why I was the
only open gay black man in a
prison that housed over 4,000
inmates.
F. Smith
creating other earth spiecies
male and female in prior
verses of the souree, that
story, yet, when
it came to Man, God has
this apithany? that he
ther forgot to create a
human female? Or?...
How many wives did Abraham
have? how many wives can
a man have in America?
That God, dealt directly with
Abraham, and so-called
pastors say that they talk
to that same god who they
say is the same today,
yesterday and forever
word games still suck huh?
Guess it is impossible for
a man to commit adultery
if he has many wives?
OR is marage still defined
as the union between
1 man, and 1 woman?
The use of the word Eunuch in
that book is fact to me
that man is a great
embellishing writer, and
a great disrespector of
his own God, and the
intellectual capacity of
his fellow human.
Black people continue to
abuse fellow Black people
of this born free generation
with dispositions that
are flawed, and realistically
non-factual.
Who today will tell a pastor
that his book says for a
woman is to remain silent
in church Service? Anybody?
yet, a female Pastor today can
verbally abuse LGBTQI+ people
from the pulpit, and durring
Church Service? We call that
Selective Morality. Kim Burrell
I love your singing voice, yet
you speak like a stone castor.
I believe the Woman Silence
verse is very disrespectful
to my amazing Aunt Joyce
who is an incredible Evangelist,
and all of the amazing female
Gospel Singer's and Rappers,
the female program announcer's
the female Church Administrator's
and powerful women of God,
but that's just my gay Blac
man's opinion, but at leats,
my opinion is based on facts.
Black people can benefit by
understanding that the knowledge
of a fact is not required
for a fact to exist, for a
fact is a fact wheather we
accept it or not.
We are on a mission to Liberate
enslaved facts about Our own
history without begging for
empathy or acceptance from
anyone, however, there is
a demand here against social
and economical injustice, Physical,
Spiritual, and Cultural abuse
and deprivation, and that's a
Liberated fact?
Heterosexual people should
not be allowed to dictate
as so-called experts of
something they profess
not to be.
The old presentation of
gay people that claim
religion made them
straight is no more
valuable than straight
people being turned- out
as homosexual, there
is a duality there for
claim that doesn't apply
to the rest of the
homosexuals on the planet,
as heterosexual people
make the crusial mistake
that all gay people rise
and or fall to a cookie Cutter
common standard of degrees.
Homosexual pediphilia is equal
to heteral sexual pediphilia
for pediphilia has more to
do with the under age of a
child, not the sexual identity
of the adult, and this sick
conduct is well documented in
heterelsexual people and
cultures all over the world,
and thats a horrific liberated
Sometimes are as a Society
forget that the abolishment
of the enslavement of any
people doesn't always liberate
the enslaved facts about
interrupted, and distroyed spiritual
and cultural history of enslaved
persons, and tribes.
Today, we are now seeing
the results of the post tramatic
effects of enslavement
within the born free generation
that have been intentionally
denied access to totality of
the reality of the existence
of what we know as same sex
activities pre-colonial era
of the enslavement of Black
People all around the World
The born free generation
continues to be victimized
and conditioned to turn
against fellow Black people
that identify to some degree
of what is now known as
LGBTQI+, which by default
Means, Black people must
now become abolisher's,
and take an active Position
for the Liberations of Facts
of Black History.
Black people must not
confuse the actions of
Liberatng Facts with
the other so-called Methods
of requesting empathy
from oppressor's and fellow
Black people, for empathy
is not required for the
demand of, and command of
true freedom.
The Liberation of Facts also
doesn't require Military
action, acts of violence, or
an protests,
because, any facts, exists
as a defender of itself.
We dont look into the faces
of our amazing born free
generation and say that
they are 3 fifths percent
of a human being, because
w, even without facts
to disprove such ignorance, and
our youth Know that, to
be untrue, ad unacceptable.
Why then should Black People
continue in ignorance, inspite
mounting Liberated facts that
that hatred was imported
into Africa, not homosexuality?
Gay people are 100% human.
Our validated distain for
the horror's of the act's
of Buck-Breaking sicking
methods forced upon
our honored Ancestor's
must not be used as a
misguided untruth to
abuse ever born free
generation, because
the liberated Fact is
that rape is still rape
inspite the sexual identity
of the victim-
Liberated Facts show that
some of those Victims of
Buck Breaking identified
as what we now understand
as LGBTQI+, before they
was enslaved, and so,
Buck Breaking, in the 1600s
didn't make me homosexual
circa 2020, no more than
Breeding Slaves to make
slaves Big and Strong to
produce a strong workfoce
didnt make any of my
biological sisters identify
by what we recognize today
as Heterosexual, or that
would also mean that enslavers
bred heterosexual hyper masculinitized
distain for homosexuals.
Abusers of the Misuse of
history can't have it both
ways, especially with foreign Religions.
A male God, and a sleeping
Male human Adam, produced
a human female Eve, for
the sole purpose of providing
that male Adam with a,
"Helpmate", which by the way,
to this day, has never been
proven to be a fact.
prong for the forced, violent
physical removal of the
so-called "undesirable" inmates.
Some Gangmembers relayed to
me that they was NOT involved
in said action and agreement
with other Gangs.
I expressed to them that there is
a contribution of Blackness when
we as a people hold the White
Silence is violence disposition
over white people, and Police
officers that call themselves good,
yet do, and say nothing about
fellow white people and Police
Brutality and Murder of OUR
Black Youth, and yet, Fellow
Gang Members, of all races spit
on, and toss urin and feces on
Black-Gay Inmates in Gang Silence?
Other Gangmembers say, "Well, we
got tired of The Homies to fight
and Kill each other in Jails Prisons,
The Streets, and in The Hood, and
nobody has agreed to get Rid of
all females.
Another Gangmembers said, "Well
Homosexuals be Snitchin, and using
prison yards as a Hurting ground
to turn out The Homies.
I said "Snitchin is a regular Component
to ctiminal life, and for decades
Gangmembers have been notorious for
Snitchin. moreover. When a Gangmember
snitches, nobody agrees to get rid of
all Gangmembers, and Gangmembers are
still snitchin to this day, in fact to
Your other part, Gangs are also Known
to use prison Yards as a Hunting
grown to "turn others out" into being
gangmembers, and nobody has called
for an agreement to get rid of those
that do what You speak of.
Another Gangmember said "Well, 9 times
out of 10, agz are in prison for
being pedophile Childmolesters,
Raping little boys, so they had to go."
I replied that the stats show that
most pedophiles, Rapist, and Child molsters
identify and present as Heterosexual,
and there are more sex offenders
who identify as heterosexual Gangmembers
who are Black and on so-called
Death Row Solid yards than Blacks
assigned to so-called SNY yards
put together, to this very second.
Infact, the very Gangs that are
involved in the agreement, made the
agreement with, and are still on the
yard with, Pedophiles, Child Molesters,
Serial Rapist with Media given
nicknames and other sex related
offenses, and nobody is "Getting Rid of
them because they are the Homies?"
The last Gangmember said, "Well,
Governor Gavin Newsome supports Gay
shit, so at some point, especially if
a few fagz get somked (killed), then
He will force CDCR to Stop That
5050 program merger bullshit, and
the white man brought that
Homosexual shit to Afruca anyway,
Fuck all Fags, and you're an
Abomination
My apit became, IF my Black
adverary, with His Brilliant Book
writing ass was this ignorant to the
Facts, then how much more ignorant
was my fellow Black Gay Family?
So with love, I created Azande
Press Zine Issue Series
-F. Smith